I read Cathy from Curious as a Cathy post for MMMM. She said it’s a free choice week and she chose to write about her younger brother who died before his time. Cathy’s post inspired me to write one for my Sister Mary who died also before her time. I hope you don’t mind Cathy.
My beautiful sister Mary and I about thirty years ago.
If only I’d made more time To travel to your door If only we’d lived closer Or I’d known what I know now, before. If only I had told you how much I really care If only I could touch you, If only you were still here.
My dear and beautiful second eldest sister died in October 2015 . She was a nursing sister all her working life and she touched so many lives. She died a horrible and painful death due to a drug resistant bug.
Last moments
The machines murmured and slowly stopped their pings As her soul, finally at peace, found it’s wings. After months of pain and strain She was free again. I hope you are with your true love and dancing to a sweet refrain. God Bless you sister dear I miss you so, yet still feel you near. Your going left a scar I see you everyehere like a burning star.
Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Back in 2010 I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust. I will of been married 53yrs this comming year. I have found different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and hopefully in to light.
My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and be as strong as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well.
I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits.
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38 thoughts on “MMMM Sweet Sister.”
A poignant post. It is so hard to loose a sibling. I lost a dear brother 49 years ago. He was only 19 and I still miss him. A good choice of music. If is such a lovely song.
You are so right Darleen it’s very hard to looe a sibling and I am sorry for your loss to, do you still sometimes think … ‘ I must ring ring him and tell him..’
Yes if is a beautiful song. Thank you for reading. 💜💜💜
I often think I wish I could have a good chat with him. Even though I only had him in my life for 19 years, we often had very good chats. I often think of the sister-in-law I didn’t get, the nieces and nephews I never knew and the laughs we didn’t share. And I weep.
How strange it is , the loss we feel. I even grieve for the three children my mum lost before I was even born.( A boys of six months old and still born twins) I also mourn two girls I miscarried, I had three healthy boys… Mum said don’t fill your house with boys looking for a girl.
I feel the pain in your words I think he’s watching over you 💜💜💜
You are welcome. Hugs. May her good memories always be with you.
Thank you , 💜💜
Willow, my sweet sister died in 1990 at the age of 59 from breast cancer. She was my best friend and my heart still aches for her loss. My dad, my hero, died in 1976 at the age of 64 from emphysema. Another huge hole in my heart. Both left this world way too soon. I think of them daily. I’m just grateful that I had them in my life at all. Ginger🦋
Ginger I am so sorry for your loss it never seems to heal does it. I had lost both my parents long before Mary died I was the youngest of six, originally nine but three others died before I was born. …. Strangely I miss them too. 💜💜
Ahhh, what beautiful and sweet post! I’m so sorry for your loss, darlin’ Willow. And, no I don’t mind that you paid tribute to your sister. I think it’s so wonderful that you did! It’s painful when someone we love passes on and I’m sorry your sweet sister suffered before her time to depart this world. Your poem…oh goodness, it really moved my heart. You did a fabulous job penning words to express your feelings. I wish I could put what’s in my head down in words the way you do. I enjoyed all of your song picks as well – stellar job! Thanks for sharing, my good friend. Have a boogietastic week! xo
Thank you Cathy your beautiful post gave me the courage to remember my sister and rewrite the poems I wrote for her.
She love music so much 💜
Have a great week.💜💜
A lovely selection for your tribute Willow. I am so sorry for your loss. Time may smooth the edges of grief, but it is always there when we lose a loved one.
It was awful she was in hospital nearly a year …. Not all the staff were the best but in the end the intensive care staff were wonderful 💜 Thank you for caring 💜💜
To have a sibling you loved and loved you is one of the most wonderful things life can give us. I hope that your memories continue to soothe your heart. Some great song selections – the Freddy Mercury duet is one I’ve never heard. And that poem! Alana ramblinwitham
Thank you Alana I wrote the poems for my sister back in 2015 when she died… I mean them just as much today as I did then. She left a huge whole in our lives we all miss her so.
She loved lots of music and reading and writing we shared a love of Freddie Mercury too. The Duet with Freddie and Montserrat Caballé, is absolutely stunning isn’t it. Have a good week 💜💜
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A poignant post. It is so hard to loose a sibling. I lost a dear brother 49 years ago. He was only 19 and I still miss him. A good choice of music. If is such a lovely song.
You are so right Darleen it’s very hard to looe a sibling and I am sorry for your loss to, do you still sometimes think … ‘ I must ring ring him and tell him..’
Yes if is a beautiful song. Thank you for reading. 💜💜💜
I often think I wish I could have a good chat with him. Even though I only had him in my life for 19 years, we often had very good chats. I often think of the sister-in-law I didn’t get, the nieces and nephews I never knew and the laughs we didn’t share. And I weep.
How strange it is , the loss we feel. I even grieve for the three children my mum lost before I was even born.( A boys of six months old and still born twins) I also mourn two girls I miscarried, I had three healthy boys… Mum said don’t fill your house with boys looking for a girl.
I feel the pain in your words I think he’s watching over you 💜💜💜
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I feel both your love and pain at the loss. Hugs
Thank you Sadje she was a wonderful, nurse, woman, writer and sister 💜💜💜
You are welcome. Hugs. May her good memories always be with you.
Thank you , 💜💜
Willow, my sweet sister died in 1990 at the age of 59 from breast cancer. She was my best friend and my heart still aches for her loss. My dad, my hero, died in 1976 at the age of 64 from emphysema. Another huge hole in my heart. Both left this world way too soon. I think of them daily. I’m just grateful that I had them in my life at all.
Ginger🦋
Ginger I am so sorry for your loss it never seems to heal does it. I had lost both my parents long before Mary died I was the youngest of six, originally nine but three others died before I was born. …. Strangely I miss them too. 💜💜
Ahhh, what beautiful and sweet post! I’m so sorry for your loss, darlin’ Willow. And, no I don’t mind that you paid tribute to your sister. I think it’s so wonderful that you did! It’s painful when someone we love passes on and I’m sorry your sweet sister suffered before her time to depart this world. Your poem…oh goodness, it really moved my heart. You did a fabulous job penning words to express your feelings. I wish I could put what’s in my head down in words the way you do. I enjoyed all of your song picks as well – stellar job! Thanks for sharing, my good friend. Have a boogietastic week! xo
Thank you Cathy your beautiful post gave me the courage to remember my sister and rewrite the poems I wrote for her.
She love music so much 💜
Have a great week.💜💜
It’s good to remember those we love, so that we never forget them. Not that we will but sometimes I find it hard to hear my brother’s voice.
Yes I get that, I feel like that about my parents too 💜
That is a beautiful remembrance of your sister. Love the music and the movies (especially the Blues Brothers.) 💜
Thank you Jennie she was a wonderful sister and woman 💜💜
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Very nice tribute to your sister!
Thank you John she was a star ✨
very nice tribute
Thank you very much she was a lovely sister, friend and person.💜
Lovely tribute Willow
Thank you Glyn 💜💜
A lovely selection for your tribute Willow. I am so sorry for your loss. Time may smooth the edges of grief, but it is always there when we lose a loved one.
You are so right Di, so often I think, oh! I will tell Mars…and I can’t 💜💜
What a beautiful tribute to your sister – I’m so sorry she suffered.
It was awful she was in hospital nearly a year …. Not all the staff were the best but in the end the intensive care staff were wonderful 💜 Thank you for caring 💜💜
Hugs, Sis 💛
Thank you Sis 💜💜
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this is a beautiful post and lovely to read and take part in this. Thank you for sharing here. Love Andrea Bocelli
Thank you and yes Andrea Bocelli is amazing .💜💜
A beautiful tribute, I lost my sister two years ago from Cancer. She was only seventy, which was far too young.
That is heart breaking, 💜💜, I am sorry to hear that 💜💜💜
To have a sibling you loved and loved you is one of the most wonderful things life can give us. I hope that your memories continue to soothe your heart. Some great song selections – the Freddy Mercury duet is one I’ve never heard. And that poem! Alana ramblinwitham
Thank you Alana I wrote the poems for my sister back in 2015 when she died… I mean them just as much today as I did then. She left a huge whole in our lives we all miss her so.
She loved lots of music and reading and writing we shared a love of Freddie Mercury too. The Duet with Freddie and Montserrat Caballé, is absolutely stunning isn’t it. Have a good week 💜💜