Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Back in 2010 I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust. I will of been married 53yrs this comming year. I have found different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and hopefully in to light.
My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and be as strong as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well.
I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits.
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15 thoughts on “Just Jot It January: Compelled.”
Beautifully penned. It made me think of this video I had watched a while ago. It was made to impart to people what a really life sucking beast the addiction to drugs could be, until the very last outcome, inevitable, death
Yes addiction the true real life blood sucking Vampire. I have never seen the video but it is dark evil sadly real life addiction is even worse and much less glamorous. Thank you for reading and for the video excellent. xx
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Beautifully penned. It made me think of this video I had watched a while ago. It was made to impart to people what a really life sucking beast the addiction to drugs could be, until the very last outcome, inevitable, death
Yes addiction the true real life blood sucking Vampire. I have never seen the video but it is dark evil sadly real life addiction is even worse and much less glamorous. Thank you for reading and for the video excellent. xx
Welcome. Your writing struck me as the video had done. Lives wasted yet the clock ticks on. Be well. xoxo
So many wasted lives, you be well too. xxxx
Thanks 🙂
Oooh, nice twist at the end! Fantastic poem, Willow. 😀
Thanks again for the prompt!
Thanks Linda you always support me xxx
I’m always happy to. 🙂
Thanks and me to you!
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Very powerful poem Willow.
Thank you 🙂
Wow, that is striking, your poem! That was one of those poems that made me say “yikes!” at the end! Thanks for the prompt, too. 🙂
We had no idea how it would end myself but suddenly I was compelled to write what I did, it was not planned. Xxx