It hurts like a razor cutting deep
Through my broken heart and lost soul.
So loved boy not mine to keep
Pain devowers me whole.
Those words said in haste
Will forever
My love waste
I hate
It.
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Author: willowdot21
Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Back in 2010 I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust. I will of been married 53yrs this comming year. I have found different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and hopefully in to light.
My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and be as strong as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well.
I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits.
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Such pain, contained in so few words.
It is painful that’s why I write it out. Thank you for reading. xx
Hugs.
Thank you so much. xxxx
Anytime.
I can share your pain, milady. I, too, have two grandkids, neither of whom I am allowed to visit, except one, my grandson, whom I get to see every month or two for a couple hours…. I haven’t seen my granddaughter at all since she was five days old…. She just had her first birthday….
I find it is helpful to keep them in our hearts, and pretend we live across the world, unable to visit due to distance, rather than due to the parent’s failure of spirit.
Also, know that, when they are older, they will want to know us, and we will have that chance, hopefully, to be with them, when they ask for us, as they will….
Take care, and have patience, milady; your grief is shared, and hopefully, lessened thereby….
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Thank you Ned as ever your words give me strength. You have mentioned your grandchildren before and I know you know what I feel. Sadly there are many people in the same position as us
.. but that does not make it right. Well the sun is shining we are okay and we have the wonderful day. Be blessed Ned be blessed. xxx
So heartbreaking
It is but what can I do xxx
Wow! That’s strong
thank you for reading , it is straight from my heart
Good job! I could feel the pain – and “it” is a great two letter word to start and stop with.
Thank you Jan ❤
Very heartfelt Willow!
It is Lynz xxx
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Hugs, my dear ❤
Thank you Linda 😃 xxxx