Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Back in 2010 I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust. I will of been married 53yrs this comming year. I have found different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and hopefully in to light.
My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and be as strong as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well.
I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits.
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24 thoughts on “Precious Body – Stream of Consciousness Saturday”
It’s true we yearn to have the physical body we had at our best. It’s a sort of good sadness though because we’ve traded our physical form for years of experience, burning up beauty while gaining wisdom.
True Paul I was feeling sorry for myself …stupid old bat! Thanks for being understanding! I am standing and not in a wheelchair and there are many far worse off than me. xxx
I feel like that wearing oxygen. A bit different because I may be able to take mine off one day. Love you. ♡♡♡♡♡ I think you’re beautiful from the inside. I don’t know if that matters. I would still think you were beautiful if I knew what you looked like from the outside.
Thank you Lisa, I can understand what you are saying about the oxygen mask, I also know that I hate my shape sometimes more sometimes less as my mood takes me. Today I felt low and so hate myself, tomorrow is another day and I must not be so shallow I am standing and not in a wheelchair and there are many far worse off than I! Be happy enjoy your family holiday!!
Exactly. I guess I just wanted to let you know you were loved. Wanting to have a straight body doesn’t make you shallow. We all fight our own battles. (About to eat eggplant parmasian. 🙂 )
Thank you, you are all loved too even though we’ve not met! Enjoy the eggplant I am off to bed now I am exhausted!! hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx 😉
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Hmm, maybe you should give up editing Willow. Loved it and must give the prompt a try.
Maybe I should it makes you think quicker! Do try the prompt it arrives every Friday in time for Saturday! I also strongly recommend http://lindaghill.wordpress.com/ brilliant blog!
Lovely poem. I have dreams where I am able to walk and run without pain. I wish I could write poetry as you do and then could live that dream in my words. Nice job.
I feel for you Willow. I believe everything feels worse when we’re worn out. This is the real world and we have no choice but to make the best of what we have to work with. Hope you’re feeling brighter in the morning. [[[hugs]]]
Thank you for the hug I needed it, I am feeling better today, and we visited the Newbie and I manage to avoid all mirrors today!You are right we do feel worse when worn down and tired! The only way is up! Baby! xxxxx
Sometimes I think it’s these wishes that keep us going – keep us striving every day and get us through the harder times.
Thanks so much for posting this week on SoCS! Brilliant poem, Willow 😀
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It’s true we yearn to have the physical body we had at our best. It’s a sort of good sadness though because we’ve traded our physical form for years of experience, burning up beauty while gaining wisdom.
Great post Willow. I enjoyed it.
True Paul I was feeling sorry for myself …stupid old bat! Thanks for being understanding! I am standing and not in a wheelchair and there are many far worse off than me. xxx
I feel like that wearing oxygen. A bit different because I may be able to take mine off one day. Love you. ♡♡♡♡♡ I think you’re beautiful from the inside. I don’t know if that matters. I would still think you were beautiful if I knew what you looked like from the outside.
Thank you Lisa, I can understand what you are saying about the oxygen mask, I also know that I hate my shape sometimes more sometimes less as my mood takes me. Today I felt low and so hate myself, tomorrow is another day and I must not be so shallow I am standing and not in a wheelchair and there are many far worse off than I! Be happy enjoy your family holiday!!
Exactly. I guess I just wanted to let you know you were loved. Wanting to have a straight body doesn’t make you shallow. We all fight our own battles. (About to eat eggplant parmasian. 🙂 )
Thank you, you are all loved too even though we’ve not met! Enjoy the eggplant I am off to bed now I am exhausted!! hugs xxxxxxxxxxxxxxx 😉
Xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Hmm, maybe you should give up editing Willow. Loved it and must give the prompt a try.
Maybe I should it makes you think quicker! Do try the prompt it arrives every Friday in time for Saturday! I also strongly recommend http://lindaghill.wordpress.com/ brilliant blog!
Lovely poem. I have dreams where I am able to walk and run without pain. I wish I could write poetry as you do and then could live that dream in my words. Nice job.
Thank you John I understand what you are saying.Constant pain is a harsh companion but we cannot let it win! Be well be happy and be brave! xxxxxx
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I feel for you Willow. I believe everything feels worse when we’re worn out. This is the real world and we have no choice but to make the best of what we have to work with. Hope you’re feeling brighter in the morning. [[[hugs]]]
Thank you for the hug I needed it, I am feeling better today, and we visited the Newbie and I manage to avoid all mirrors today!You are right we do feel worse when worn down and tired! The only way is up! Baby! xxxxx
All right. Now you’re t.a.l.k.i.n.g.!
Yes it is the only way to go. Xxx
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Sometimes I think it’s these wishes that keep us going – keep us striving every day and get us through the harder times.
Thanks so much for posting this week on SoCS! Brilliant poem, Willow 😀
Thank you Linda I just started and went with the flow. I think you brilliant idea socs has taken on a life of it’s own. Bravo! 🙂
Thanks! 😀
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