Withdrawal is the End in sight.

I have been telling you all, about (I hope) the last few weeks of weaning myself off of Gabapentin. It’s a neuropathic painkiller. I have been on it for over eight years I have weaned myself down from four times, six hundred mgs a day to one hundred mgs twice a day then finally 100 mgs every other day. With no great help from the doctors who just want to hand them out like sweets to keep me quite. Recently I had been altenating between one 100 mgs morning and night one day and just one 100mgs in the evening on the alternate day. Now as I said I am down to one pill everyother evening.

Today Geoff of TanGental (a great person and a great blogger) asked me how I am getting on. He made me think two things… One: I have not been sharing with you guys because I have gone down so low.

Two: Fingers crossed and not to anger the gods of withdrawal I do actually feel I am turning a corner.

ūü§ě Maybe the final corner. I am down to one tablet every other night. Really the big barrier is phsycological l need to be a big girl and drop this last pill. I have about a months worth left and to make sure I cannot cave and re-order any Gabapentin I have had them removed from electronic prescription so I can’t get anymore without a drs say-so.

Even though I have been resting and healing a nasty sprained and strained ankle and foot I have managed to keep my spirits up. Also I kept away from any painkillers apart from one ibufen at night to help me sleep.

It has been a long journey ( over 8 years ) and though I am not there yet I do feel I am getting there and I am hoping that just like the Tramadol I can beat this!

I treated myself today and had my nails done.

Time to hopefully feel confident and spoil myself a little. Thanks Geoff for making me think.

Thanks to all of you for your amazing support I am so grateful. I just wanted to say it has been no picnic and I wish I had never started on these tablets, Tramadol and Gabapentin but I did. I am nearly there I kicked Tramadol about 2 years ago and the end is in sight for the Gabapentin.

I hope anyone going through this same journey might read this and take heart. I wish you well and know you can do it.

Thank you everyone.


Another Year

Happy New Year

Well here we are again another year older, no wiser in my case but you may well be. 

I am truly grateful for all your support and kindness throughout 2017. I hope I have been as supportive to you all.

I do love you and I am grateful for all of your patience through my bad times these last few months.

Happy New Year to each and every one of you all.

Looking forward to May 19th .

Lots of love willow.

Thank you for the nominations

I have  had  to make  a decision  not  to accept  anymore awards because  my  time on  wordpress is limited  so I focus on  reading  commenting  and  publishing.

Now  a  wonderful blogger  who I have only  recently found  friendship  with  has  nominated  me for

two awards. The  first  is  the Dragon Loyalty Award.

and  the second  is,  One  Lovely Blog Award.

So I need  to say a huge THANK  YOU  to  Jennifer  at Unload and Unwind Please  visit  her blog  it is brilliant.

I am now  offering these awards  to Idealisticrebel , russtowne , busymindthinking , socialbridge ,  ramblingsfromamum.

So dear  blogging  friends enjoy and pass on at  your own will.

To  find  the rules  : go to http://jenniferann1970.wordpress.com/2014/04/05/one-lovely-blog-dragon-award/

I also need  to thank fozzbloglife  for  the   Reader  and appreciation award. Details are  here       http://fozzyfitness.wordpress.com/2014/04/03/reader-appreciation-and-shine-on-award/   .

Please ¬†any of ¬†my ¬†followers ¬†accept ¬†and take ¬†this award ¬†if ¬†you would ¬†like it … you all deserve ¬†all of ¬†these awards!!


¬† I need to thank Eye-Dancers for this award which is new to me. Reality Blog Award!¬† Please check out¬† Eye-Dancers great website‚Äďit‚Äôs just the kind of place you‚Äôll want to go and spend some time.¬† I am very grateful for the award.¬†

There are five questions that go along with this award.  So, let’s have at it!

1) If you could change one thing, what would you change?

I would irradiate all addictions, because they  cause so much misery to addict and loved ones alike.

2) If you could repeat an age, what age would it be?

I have given this great thought and …no I would not like to be any age I have been before. Each age brings it’s pains and it’s joys¬† but no I am fine as I am thanks

3) What is one thing that really scares you?

Life and people.But I do keep going!

4) What is one dream you have not completed, and do you think you will be able to complete it?

I would dearly love to see Vlad in print or as an ebook , also I would love to have a book of poems… sorry I know that is selfish¬† but I am being honest!

5) If you could be someone else for the day, who would you be?

An aid worker in a refugee camp  I have always wanted to go Africa or a disaster site to help.

Now, I would like to nominate the following blogs for the Reality Award.  Please check them out and take a look around these wonderful websites!  They are all rich and diverse sites, with so much to offer.













and many many more !:0¬† ūüôā ūüėČ ūüôā

An award!

My good blogging friend Martin Shone  has nominated me for the Very Inspiring Blogger Award. 


I should now offer 7 things about me and also nominate others who inspire me.

Seven things about me…..

1 Love my family and friends.

2 I blog from my heart

3 I am grateful for the wonderful friends I have met on line while blogging.

4 I have broken my back twice.

5 I feel the cold terribly

6 I have an immortal Vampire Bear  called Vlad  as one of my best friends.

7 I love Lillies  of the Vally, my favourite flowers.

Now who inspires me, every one does. But as the rules are there here are a few.









Okay I need to stop now but I do not want to as you are all so good!!

Thank you again Martin!



Thank you to  jymiely for awarding me with the Versatile Blogger Award! I have already got this award but I thank you jymiely for your kindness. and I shall nominate some people for it

For the versatile blogger award I nominate all the bloggers mentioned below on the other awards!


I have been nominated for this award by Steph . I am honoured because  Steph has such an amazing and varied blog!. So receiving this accolade from her makes me feel  humbled and very honoured at the same time. Thank you very much Steph I am pleased and grateful.

Now, the rules,

1 pick 7 bloggers that are truly inspiring to you. Once you have listed them, tell a little about how they have inspired you.

granbee     By her words, by her encouragement, by her love of God, by her help and praise.

stevehallsbooks By being honest.

DaPoet  By pricking my conscience, my inciting me to anger by inspiring me to write!

fatimasaysell  by always being there

Vampire Weather   for always helping encouraging correcting. for writing so well

Martin Shone  helping hands always there ready to write.

Kate58   She writes wonderfully, she says such good things to me.

wordsfallfromyeyes  she is a mother of her time and she has time to like my work.

2 tell your readers 7 things about yourself that probably would not come up in one of your blog entries.

what can I tell you.

1) sometimes your poems bring me to tears of joy

2)  sometimes your poems bring me to tears of grief

3) I do not always like myself , I am not always nice.

4)I bought the most amazing Dog made out of wire and rope and I love him

5) I love soaps.

6) I have an Immortal Vampire Bear that lives with me ..OH! the things he gets up too.

70 I am lonely


Well now here is an award I never thought I would get. Not that I do not write a comment now and then, but to say I am a big commenter, no I never thought that. However, on lostupabove  I seem to be on of the top commentators. Shows I’m more active than I think I am. Now that is a surprise!

The Commenter’s Award is a little different from the most awards. Instead of awarding others for their own blogs, you will be giving recognition to those who comment on your own blog regularly, take the time to really read your posts, and provide you with feedback via their comments. The nominations are the easiest part. You should nominate the six bloggers who comment most frequently on your blog. How do you know who does this most often? Good question!

You will find your Top Recent Commenter‚Äôs on your site stats page on the bottom, right corner. If you do not see this, click on the Screen Options in the top, right corner and be sure that ‚ÄúComments‚ÄĚ is checked. If you are good about responding to every comment, then you will be the first one in the list. It is the next six commenter‚Äôs on the list that you will nominate and pass this award to. But wait! You may nominate one more person. This person can either be a brand new commenter on your blog, the very last comment you have received (most recent), or the one who has posted your most favourite comments. This seventh nomination is your choice, but please do tell us why you have chosen them as your seventh.

My statistics show these people to be the most prolific when it comes to comments:





Vampire Weather

Martin Shone

Kate58    Because she is just amazing!! I love her poetry I love what she shares of her every day life.


The Hug Award©


To find out that someone is being affected by my writing is a strange, scary and wonderful thing. So it is with great pleasure that I discovered I had been nominated for The Hug Award© by Kate58. Like many of those who follow my posts, I do not know Kate we have never met  maybe we never will. Her poetry reaches out and touches me be she speaking of her present life or lifting the veil on her former life. She even reaches into herself and brings forth dreams and darker poems and feelings.  She lifts my spirit and she helps me move when I am frozen to the spot.

Some bloggers deserve a big HUG for the words and wisdom they share. Each of these bloggers renew me in some small way, and fill me with hope for the human race. So big HUGs to: In no particular order!

mademoisellebluebell. Because she writes some chillingly dark poems and spine chilling story’s but she will smile and chat to me!

Kate58 for the reasons mentioned above this is back at ya!

ladybluerose  because she writes lovely poetry , dream scape.

DaPoet     he writes such erotic stories, and he is good for a discussion!

granbee   my mentor, tutor , confident, lovely amazing fellow traveller you deserve a HUGE hug!

Vampire Weather  Because he has always from my very first month on wordpress helped and encouraged me.

Martin Shone   Because he is a poet among poets and I know he hates awards!! hehehehehehe!!

wordsfallfromyeyes  Because she is so different to me , sometimes she reads her blogs on video. When I read her posts I feel I am sitting in her flat talking face to face with her coffee in hand relaxed and friendly.

and  not forgetting  hollyannegetspoetic she is just amazing!!

and Missus Tribble she is so determined to live normally she is such a brave Rose!!

and zendictive  for all his wisdom!

I must stop now this has taken me hours , I know that I have also been awarded two other awards which arrived during Child Abuse Awareness month and they have slipped through my net! I am sorry and I mean no offence! I love being part of wordpress you are all wonderful; If I have not mentioned you be happy knowing that I love you and your work too!!

Thank you




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