Nerves

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Taught
Stressed out
On the edge
Coiled like a spring
Cracks starting to show
Just ready to combust
Primal scream is welling up
Had enough, can't take anymore
Can't stand still my brain is exploding
Need flight, take to my heels, I am empty.

FanFoFeb: CRAMP!

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ARGH! God no! It has  me by the foot it is crushing the bones of my feet

It is doing it both feet at once , this is anything but sweet.

My legs are twisting up and knotting the blood inside me is clotting.

My head is thumping like a hammer, and the sweat from me is dropping.

Every nerve  of mine starts to clammer , muscles jangling I start to stammer!

Now  my toes are turning turning upwards and  my fingers are all gnarled

My body is all cramped up , screwed and completely defiled!

EvDaDaDec : Guilty secret

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I am a grown up, I must be,  look at my age

But  I self harm just like a teenager , it must  be all the rage!

I don’t cut  but I scratch until I bleed

I make sure it does not show, no to show is not a need.

I do it because I hate myself, because I am so unsure

Sometimes it is the only  thing  that helps  me life  to endure.

Right now I feel I am loosing  the tenuous grip I hold on life

There seems  to be only fine lines and they all lead  to strife.

I really  should  be passed all this,I am a grown up woman

But when things get fraught  I scratch because I can.

I do not want to do this I am ashamed  to admit

I hope that if I write it down, I find  a way to stop it.

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This  is not  my back but it could be

Why do I do this, what is wrong  with me.

I know I am not alone many struggle with this curse

I want  to find the strength to stop and not get worse.

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I feel the need to face up to this  as I have now been chewing my fingers… I have  never attacked my hands before.

I have found  this on the  web Dermatillomania  does anyone know about it .