At Kat Myrman‘s suggestion,along with Jane Dougherty, I’m trying out the Lune form this month. The Lune is a three line poem, either 5/3/5 syllables or 3/5/3 words.
Too much water flows
Like lost dreams
Lost where? No one knows.
Deep Thoughts.
25 Feb 2018 34 Comments
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Ifs and buts.
Don’t you find it funny that sometimes when we read our Blogily friends posts that a theme is there screaming at you. Well today is one of those days and the themes are ‘second chances’, ‘why we are who we are.’ and ‘choices’
I shall be the first to admit I have made some catastrophic life decisions in my time. I have made some good ones too, so why is it today I feel trapped and lost? Maybe it is this weird bug I have making me feel low or it could be the fact that I am cutting out the last of my neuropathic pain killers. This has been a three year struggle. I had got down to one in the morning and one at night equalling 600mgs a day which was no mean feat as I was taking 2400 mgs to start with and that was for six years. Anyway I am try to get rid of them completely and so started reducing the dose again am down to 400mgs a day and when I feel a little more myself I shall drop to 300mgs and so on, fingers crossed. It has not been easy.
Ah! I digress, Sue Vincent spoke of how things we learn , consciously and unconsciously in our childhood make us who we are. I recognize a lot of what she says, do read her blog Cold Comfort it makes a lot of sense, Sue is a lovely Lady. I was the youngest of a large family born late after an eight year gap to my next brother and fourteen years between me and my eldest sister. I spent a lot of time alone almost a only child and I bullied at school.
Then there was Ritu’s Spidey yes they got me thinking about how whatever life throws at you , you have the choice to make it good or bad. How life can be changed in a second but then there is always tomorrow. We must make the most of every second because we do not know when time will run out. Read Ritu’s post here at Spidey’s Serene Sunday. Right now I don’t feel like living for the moment but I know I should.
Also another blog that spoke to me and very much touched on how I feel right now was Michael at Morpethroad, read his #SoCs post Doors . Michael writes some brilliant post but this one!
There are many times in our lives where we could have changed things I look back and think if only I had stood up and said something. I should of done this that or the other BUT if only doesn’t mean diddly squat the fact is I didn’t, for what ever reason I didn’t.
Is the dye cast, I don’t know. I hope not. There are some family issues that are giving me much grief but when ever I intervene things get worse. Anyway that is not a subject I would burden you guys with.
So what do I say now, where do I take this post. I think I should stop now and go for the safe ‘least said soonest mended ‘ safety net. I hope this has not been a ‘poor me fest’ I did not mean it to be.
Please read the posts I have linked they are so thought provking. If you have any advice, kicks up the bum or just want to share how you feel or have felt I shall be interested to hear what you have to say.
RonovanWrites #Weekly #Haiku #Poetry Prompt #Challenge #109-Hope&Up
08 Aug 2016 26 Comments
in Uncategorized Tags: Haiku prompts, Hope, lost, Ronovanwrites, Up
This week Ronovan has given us the words, ‘Hope and Up’ for this week’s poetry,prompt challenge.
Now your time is up
Now all hope is truly lost
Now doves have all flown
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Like a lost balloon
All my hopes and dreams are gone
Up in puffs of smoke
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I invested all
My hopes in your future
Blown up they’re all gone
Stream of Consciousness Saturday: Second and Press the Button
23 Jul 2016 10 Comments
in Uncategorized Tags: HAIKU, lost, Second, space, Stream of Consciousness Saturday
The lovely and clever Linda G Hill at Life in Progress said : Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is: “second.” Use it any way you’d like. Have fun.
Haiku Second
Fly high like the wind
Make this your life choice and run
Come first not second.
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Press the Button : Part 12
The second I pushed that button I realized that I had started something I had to finish and I really believed that I could . The screen went dead and this time it stayed that way.
John motioned to me for the second time that day but this time he was beckoning me to follow him. I removed the glasses and followed him. I asked him where the children, who had brought me here, had gone? He just smiled and told me not to worry they were safe.
We walked back into the hanger and went up the second staircase to the second floor and entered the second office. There were computers, books and maps all over the place. At the end of the room sat woman her face hidden by a computer monitor ! “Okay ” smile John , “Traya meet Traya ” he turned on his heel and was gone out the door . Leaving me me with the woman . She moved away from the screen and for the second time today I came face to face with myself.
“Hi” smiled my older self smiled, “Shall we get to work , are you ready Traya” I nodded and I honestly felt safe in my older self’s presence . “Right we need to get to work then, do you trust me”she asked. Yes I did trust her with my life but I wanted some answers and given the rate that things were moving at I wanted them immediately! “Traya can you please push the button for me , that one on the wall” The older Traya asked me. I took a deep and said ” Just a second, I want some answers first!
To be continued:
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Second Haikua
It is just one tick
Sixtyth of a minute
A tock of the clock
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This is part of Stream of Consciousness Saturday : Rules and Pingback here
Stream of Consciousness Saturday: If/Then: Push the Button Part 12
16 Jul 2016 6 Comments
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The lovely LindaGHill said:Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is: “if/then.” Begin your post with the word “If.” For bonus points, end your post with a phrase containing the word “then.” Enjoy!
Push the button: part 12
If John had told me that the video message I was about to listen to was epic in its length he was not kidding!
I sat and watch the horrendous and frightening history of the last days of what I had always thought was my world. I watched in silent tears as I saw nation after nation destroy our beautiful planet with greed, carelessness and war.
I was amazed to see that the last thing that the survivors of the dying earth did was to send all the children and young people on to two huge ships. Strange ships the like and size of which I had never seen before!
The pain on the faces of all those left behind in those last days will never leave me….. Finally after the last of the ships took off and and the screen had gone dark, I looked across to John to ask what next but he motioned to me to watch on.
The screen in front of my eyes lit up again. To my amazement I was starting at my own face but older. “If you are watching this Traya it means the time has come for you to win the conflict and bring your people home. ” Said the woman with my face, looking into my eyes. “Are you ready Traya”she asked me. Something made me answer that I was. “Well” she continued”push the button on the desk, what are you waiting for then?”
To be continued:
Stream of Consciousness Saturday: Long: Press The Button :Part 11
02 Jul 2016 27 Comments
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Today the lovely LindaGHill said :Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is: “long.” Use the word “long,” any definition. Enjoy!
Push the button: Long
The force field lifted or opened either way my I could go forward safely. The children slipped in behind me.
Every one stopped and looked at me expectantly, there was a long silence .I did not know what to do so I waited. Finally after a few minutes, that felt like eons a young man approached me.
He had been at the back of the hanger and apparently started to walk up to meet me as I had entered. The hanger was so long it had take him all that time to get to me.
The next thing I know he is hugging me and welcoming me like an old friend. Then the whole hanger broke into a loud Hoorah! I was at a lost and not a little embarrassed by the whole situation.
“At last”he said “You are here we have been wait for you for a very long time.”I had no idea who they thought I was, hell I was not even sure who I was either.
This young man told me his name was John Long and he was commander of this transport Space Battle Station. Omg I thought they are rambling on about things of which I have no comprehension. I asked John who he thought I was he said he did not think and that he knew exactly who I was . Taking my hand he lead me to an anti room come office and indicated that I should sit at his desk.
John looked me straight in the eyes and said.” After the war started two hundred years ago “…..”Hang on” I said ” what war ?”. John silenced me with a wave of his hand and told me to listen, as we did not have much time and and the video message I was about to watch was rather long but it would explain everything . “Put this on ” he said handing me what looked like a pair of sunglasses!
I looked at him he smiled and touched my hand , “Go on” he said”Put them on and push the button! “
To be continued
Press The Button : Part 10
26 Jun 2016 22 Comments
in Stories Tags: lost, Push the Button, ScOs, space
Come on they said they are waiting for you . So I followed the children, unsure of anything at all. I could not remember where I had come from , what my name was or if anyone had come with me. The children seemed to know exactly where they were going , which was certainly more than I did.
We followed a long corridor, dark and metallic . There where bright blue lights in the ceiling which gave the place a clinical look. 
I kept close behind the children as I did not want to get lost in this vast and endless place . All was dark and cold and totally deserted. The sound of our footsteps echoed loudly as we traveled along this vast hallway.
After what seemed like hours the children stopped and told me to wait. Doing as I was told I watched them walk to a opening in the wall and disappear. I thought maybe that they had deserted me but after a few minutes they returned carrying a cup of hot strong coffee and dish of what looked like fruit but fruit I had never seen before!
I was grateful for the coffee and we sat on the floor of this hallway . I was surprised at how comfortable the floor was as it it look like cold hard metal. As we rested the children encouraged me to try the fruit, I did but not until they had eaten some first. I might be lost, confused and loosing my memory but I still had some faculties left, and self preservation was one of those!
After a while the children asked me if I was ready to continue, I was. So we moved on after the children had returned my cup and plate…..I don’t really know what they did with them but they were gone! The children chatted away to each other but I really couldn’t understand what they were saying but I did hear the word pilot and ship mentioned more than once.
Just before the end of the hallway we turned left and there in front of me was a huge hanger, full of people working and strange planes… were they planes they were not like the planes I knew.
I went to walk in but the children stopped me , “Careful” they cautioned, “There is a force field there” they said. A what , what is a force field. Push that button they said!
And so I did!
To be continued…….
Press The Button: Part 9
16 Jun 2016 16 Comments
in Uncategorized Tags: lost, Push the Button, soc, space
I pressed the button and the door opened into an anti room . I could feel my top sticking to my back and my damp hair was clammy around the nape of my neck.
Never before have I been so afraid, or alone. I could not longer remember the names of my friends or even that I had been in their company on this strange journey . Everything was so different and alien and I had no inkling of where I was or where I was going, worse still I had no idea who or what I was.
Looking around the room I saw a shower room, why not I thought and so I had a shower. Then I stole some clothes that were hanging up by the door. Usually I would of not dared to do any of this but this was not usual none of this was usual.
By now I had no idea what to do, though I did seem to know that I was on a mission ….. but what was the mission. As these thoughts went through my mind I suddenly heard voices on the other side of the door. The door on the far side of the room opened. I held my breath.
Two young children entered the room, I was worried that me being here would frighten them but they did not seem the least perturbed. They said hello to me and without batting an eyelid asked me to follow them. I was too stunned to say anything and so I just followed them. We went back to the door they had come in by and the taller of the two pressed the button …………. The first one, so far, that I had not pressed!
To be continued…….
Stream of Consciousness Saturday:MB Press The Button Part 8
11 Jun 2016 21 Comments
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LindaGHill said : “Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is: “mb.” Find a word that has those two letters in it, in that order, and base your post on it. Have fun!”
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Push the Button MB
“Do you remember why we are here” asked James as we entered the Pub. I really had to stop and think about the question, slowly it dawned on me that I had absolutely no idea.
We saw Dean and Kylie sitting at word table with a number people we had never seen before.
We made our way across the room to join them avoiding all sorts of unusual people as we went. It was like walking through a host of characters , animals and birds from a weird book or film. Some laughing and some completely sombre. All full of lively conversation and all very interested in us.
The closer we got to where Kylie and Dean were sitting I realised that even though they were looking straight at us there was no recognition in their eyes, they had no idea who we were.
It was then I saw that James had left my side I called his name but to my horror he totally ignored me.
I stood alone in this crowded room unable to gain the attention of my friends the suddenly I began to wonder what was going on. I really could not remember where I was or what I was doing.
By now I was sweating I was scared, I looked around the room for something I could recognise, something I could remember . Finally I saw something I remembered. A button, a red button marked press. So again I pressed the button.
To be continued…….
Press the Button : Part 7
07 Jun 2016 15 Comments
in Uncategorized Tags: Library, lost, space, spaceships
James and I looked at each other in total silence what on Earth had just happened , WTF was going on!
Things were just getting weirder and weirder . We could not decide what to do, to stay or to follow the others.
The Library did feel safe and we really wanted to feel safe but we knew we could not lose Dean and Kaylie. So taking a deep breath I grabbed James’s hand and we followed them into the book.
We could see them a little way off in the distance moving through streets filled with words and pictures, shops full of poems and songs it was amazing . The further we went into the book the safer we felt it was as if calm was washing over us. It was so peaceful we began to forget what had happened before. Nothing seemed important anymore it was as if nothing that had gone before was of any importance.
We spent what felt like hours wandering around this magical place. Then a moment of clarity hit me, I turned to James and said can you believe this we are in a book within a fabulous library onboard a Spaceship. James wasn’t listening he was laughing. He was pointing to a Pub . He had spotted Dean and Kaylie inside and wanted us to join them.
I looked through the window and saw Dean and Kaylie, sitting at a table made of words, they were chatting to three or four people who looked vaguely familiar.
We couldn’t get the door open, until I found the button, the red button marked press. So again I pressed the button.
To be continued…….
