Dear Mum and Dad
I don’t think I ever made it clear enough how I appreciated exactly what you did for me. It is only now as a parent and grandparent that I see what you must of gone through.
Nine children you had, nine, you lost three but that was never your fault. How did you cope Mum it must of been hard, and Dad worse for you because in those days grieving was not the done thing. I lost three babies too, but early, in pregnancy. I could not openly grieve either but you knew you silently gave me strength.
How did you cope Mum and Dad how did you balance help and interference , how come you never ended not talking to each other or to any of us.
Now look see, you have both been gone so long and I miss you both so. I need you here to give me the strength , kindness and love. See even now I am asking for your help. I am so selfish, I was so angry when you died Mum because you were not there to talk to me and help me, do you know it took me 7yrs to accept that you had really gone.
Who helped you, did anyone or did you have to struggle through learning haphazardly! You no doubt had to and that is why you were both such helpful parents. I am amazed at the sacrifices you must of made to keep us in clothes, shoes and food.
Dad worked as a body maker for London Transport upholstering seats on the Tubes and buses! Off to work at 5am and home at 5pm for dinner 6pm the BBC News … silence reined!
Mum you loved Wimbledon, when we finally got a TV you watched the tennis for the entire fortnight….the only change from tennis was the news for dad…..and it was salade for tea for the entire fortnight.
I miss you both very much even though you have been so long, I still feel your presence and I will always be grateful for all that you did for me.
Well I shall close now and tell you that you gave me lots of love and good advice and support. I really hope that you were both as proud of me as you were the others.
I miss you and I love you !
willow xxxxxxxx
