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One-Liner Wednesday.11th September 2019.
11 Sep 2019 12 Comments
in Depression, One liner Wednesday, Talking Straight Tags: #1linerWeds, anger, frustration, irritation, LindaGHill, One liner Wednesday
WHY
21 Jan 2019 10 Comments
in Poems, rant Tags: Being Controlled, exhausted, frustration, stress
Why am I so angry why am I so low
You’re driving me to distraction why, I do not know.
Always putting everyone else first, but not me.
Always pardoning everything for reasons I can’t see.
If I try to tell you to let others take their turn
You turn on me and give that look that sting like a burn.
I sick of being the baddy, having to zip my mouth.
Why not put me first, and stop me heading south!
Christmas Lies Bleeding
29 Nov 2016 17 Comments
in Uncategorized Tags: Bad language, Christmas, conditioning, despair, dread, frustration, lies
It is gathering , it is growing as it does this time of year.
It is clawing my guts out, as it shuffles near.
It is spitting in my face and screaming in my ear.
I am being wrenched apart happy Christmas my dear
Nobody ever does anything for you..
Do you really believe that crap is really true
Na it couldn’t be anything you do…….. could it?
It always happens at Christmas I have to ask you why .
Why take it up and screw it up, watch it bleed gasp for air and die!
Go on, make your selfish demands on me ,
Make me make the choices I never want ..never set me fucking free.
Nobody ever does anything for you..
Do you really believe that crap is really true
Na it couldn’t be anything you do…….. could it?
Bleed me cut me throw me in the gutter .
Make me choose what I do not want, what the fuck does it matter.
No doubt you will relent ungraciously then be
The biggest martyr you can, and blame your grief on me.
Nobody ever does anything for you..
Do you really believe that crap is really true
Na it couldn’t be anything you do…….. could it?
Yes I bloody hate Christmas. All it brings is grief, arguments and hurt.
Under the pretence of rejoicing many a poor soul is being dragged through the dirt!
Adverts on the TV show perfect families enjoying the festive fayre.
It makes me want to choke I don’t believe it, and I think it so unfair
To ram these lies of “happy happy times” right down our throats .
It is just another bloody day
Everything that’s wrong still there beneath the sugar coat.
They’ll still be there tomorrow and not magically go away
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A rework of a poem I wrote for NABLOPOMO back in NOV 2013
Please excuse the language and remember it is a poem.
The Wall
02 Jun 2015 12 Comments
in Uncategorized Tags: desparation, frustration, Grief, hopeless, relationships gone bad. pain '

The invisible wall
We travel together , but apart
Your distance from me is braking my heart.
Our seats are side by side
Yet as you sit down you build a wall behind which you hide.
We move along together but in our separate ways
In silence we start and end our days .
I set the table with cloth and crockery
Put down the food which we eat ,nothing to say? It is all a mockery.
We are busy avoiding the truth, all the time.
You with your work and I with mine .
When did this all happen were did our love go.
Now there is a huge void between us it is physical I cannot get through it 0r round it, I have tried, you must know.
We disembark together collect our luggage and the car
Then continue the journey , I read as you drive far.
I reach out to touch you I see that flinch
Am I that awful that simple contact makes you wince ?
We look at the scenery and discuss the flight
We talk but we do not communicate, there is no reaching each other, now that is not right.
We book in jointly and walk up the stairs
I draw in the scenery. You pour us a drink we chink glasses, cheers!
I need you to see me, I need to see you.
We must work together, you know that is true.
Brick by brick the wall has to go
But I need your help .You already know.
We walk through the field inches apart
Yet miles of ice caverns separate our hearts.
Sitting on the pier surrounded by sea
I can’t scale the emptiness can you come to me?
We enjoy the sun set and say how gold are it’s last rays ,
We are good at that, joining to give away praise.
I look at you and you avert your eyes
I know you are not with me but with her, another part of me dies.
We need to be honest and work this all out
We still have a chance to turn this about.
Our paths may be different and take us apart
But we need to discover what is left in our hearts.
It may mean we no longer present this united front.
Let take up sledge hammers and smash this wall , lets be blunt.
We are not living in this relationship its true ,
And it is not enough for either of us to continue as we do.
We need to be honest we need to talk ,
It scares the hell out of me and I know you’d rather just walk.
We could face the facts and work out what to do
I have said my piece now it is up to you!
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A poem I wrote in 2011
EvDaDaDec : Can’t cut the cord.
17 Dec 2013 13 Comments
in Uncategorized Tags: EvDaDaDec, feelings, frustration, Grief, love, motherhood, pain, umbilical cord
He is sad now, lost and lonely full of regret
Thinking now of what he thought he had
She has moved on she found it easier to forget.
It hurts, it really does. He wants to run, to feel less sad!
I bleed for him I really do, they say you feel their pain, it’s true.
I want to hold him I want to hug him. Take the pain he’s had.
I am so far away from him and it hurts that there is nothing I can do.
He is special he is precious I hate to see him hurt again. I feel for what he had.
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When they are young they brake your back when the grow they break your heart!
So true .
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I apologize I just could not post yesterday so her is an extra EvDaDaDec
NaBloPoMo: Christmas Lies Bleeding
26 Nov 2013 3 Comments
in Uncategorized Tags: Bad language, conditioning, despair, dread, frustration, lies, NaBloPoMo, truth, venting
It is gathering , it is growing as it does this time of year.
It is clawing my guts out as it shuffles up to me near.
It is spitting in my face and screaming in my ear.
I am being wrenched apart happy Christmas my dear
Nobody ever does anything for you.. do you really believe that crap. Do you really think its true.
Na it couldn’t be anything you do…….. could it?
It always happens at Christmas I have to ask you why . Why take it up and screw it up , step on it, kick it … watch it bleed to death, gasp for air and die!
Go on, Go on, make your selfish demands on me , make me make the choices I never want ..never set me fucking free.
Bleed me cut cut throw me in the gutter . Make me choose what I do not want, what the fuck does it matter.
No doubt you will relent ungraciously then be the biggest martyr you can and blame your grief on me.
Yes I bloody hate Christmas. All it brings is grief, arguments and hurt.
Under the pretence of rejoicing many a poor soul is being dragged through the dirt!
The adverts on the TV show the perfect families enjoying the festive fayre.
It makes me want to choke I don’t believe it, and I think it so unfair
To ram these lies of “happy happy times” right down our throats . It is just another bloody day
All the things that are wrong are still there and they will not magically go away!
Frustration !
27 Jul 2013 40 Comments
in Uncategorized Tags: anger, frustration, irritation, trouble with wordpress
I am so stressed and frustrated with wordpress! I cannot comment where I want to. I have numerous attempts to access my blog, like a post or even leave a comment.
I have wanted to congratulate people on wonderful post and have have not been able to, sometimes I cannot even click the like button!
Here is my problem as I presented it to wordpress earlier. The problem has been affecting me for days!
“I know many people are having this problem but I keep getting \”data not received \” when trying to use wordpress, write a blog or comment on mine or anyone\’s blog. I have done all I can my end , cleared , browser, cashes and cookies , check with my internet supplier and checked my router! HELP PLEASE!! willowdot21
So please everyone be patient and forgive me please.!
hugs to you all!
OH! Yes I want to congratulate Helen Valentina on the publication of her new book, The Seed. 😉
NaPoWriMo, Day 25. I give up
26 Apr 2013 6 Comments
in Uncategorized Tags: Day 25, frustration, give up, mental block, NaPoWriMo, prompt
NaPoWriMo Day 26 : I refuse to even attempt to explain today’s prompt. But I did write a poem about it!
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I Give up!
Okay I can’t do it you finally have me beat
I cannot do today’s prompt, you have me in defeat.
I hummed and I have harred but my mind has turned to lard!
I spent an hour or two working on “The night they took the news from Aix to Ghent.”
I tried to erase the in fact I shortened it a lot but it was not good enough and my patience was spent.
So there it is you have it, I have done my very best. Sadly you have got me banged to rights.
I have given you my all and followed your every prompt through all these April nights.
So Aix to Ghent three riders went. Two f them had their horses keel over
The third one got to Ghent God knows why he went , but when he arrived his horse did keel over!
So though I am not happy, in fact I am feeling very crappy I have to write an entry
Because I love a challenge , which I have answered all month so it’s elementary
Because I cannot do today’s erasure challenge, you finally have me beat
I cannot do today’s prompt,I am weeping loudly for you have me in defeat.