Hanging on by a broken thread.

I am loosing  my  tenuous  grip  on life

My place   in  the  scheme is  slipping  away

Am I  needed, as  mother , lover or  wife.

Slipping  further  in to  darkness  every  day.

 

The words more  bitter  and  harder  to  take

Loosing  those  I love , the  ties  cut as they leave

It hurts  as I feel   my  heart shatter  and  brake

Don’t  want  to pretend anymore  it is  too hard  to fake.

 

So I  bury  my  head  in  music and  try  to  ignore  the pain

Just  Hanging on  by  a broken thread.

 

 

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Betrayal : Haiku

Small mark on a  page

A faceless democracy

Why cause so much rage.divorce_38

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Hard words cut so deep

Like a  knife  stuck in your heart

Poison from them seeps

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Betrayal hurts  more

When it  comes  from  those  you love

Watch your back for sure.

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Nonet.EXASPIRATION.

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Exaspiration

Slapped down , guilty without a trial
Not one good deed gone unpunished
Shouted at made to feel vile
Accused of betrayal
Shut out and banished
I sadly fail
To explain
How I
Feel.
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If we were having Coffee : Gym, laundry, and JuJoJan

If we were having Coffee: I would  remind  you  that  there  are lots of  other  coffee mornings  all shared  and organized  By  Diana  and  Gene’O  over at,Part time monster

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Do join in

Come on  in  it is nice  to  sit  and  have a  chat  after  all  the  hustle  and  bustle  of  the past  few days.   I  can  still entertain  you  all  with tea  and coffee  from all over  the world not to mention all our cakes  and muffins  and  as Paul  calls  them sweets! Every single  one  is  calorie  free! Plus of course  we now have spirits  and liquors  to warm the coldest of  you.

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If we  were having Coffee:  I would  say  welcome  and  do  come on  in , find  a  seat  and  help yourselves  to  what  ever  you fancy. It  has been a  very  busy  week  with  Just Jot  It  January    nearly into  it’s third  week and  all organized  by  the  extremely talented Linda G Hill   over  at  Life in Progress . It  has  been  very interesting  and  not  without it’s  trials! Worth  checking out  so  many talented  people  joining in!

If we  were having Coffee:  It  has  also been  a very  busy  week  in  the  real  world  too  where  I have  been  busy  getting  back  to  normal  after Christmas  and New Year! Back  to Pilates, this  term  with  a new class  and instructor. The  new  instructor  is  very  different  to  the previous  one, but I  do like  her so  watch  this  space. Also  it  was back  to  core  class. After  two months off  it  was  extremely hard!   Still I am   determined  to get  back into  my  routine   and  my  gym  buddy  L  is  up  for it  too!

If we  were having Coffee:  I  would  ask  you  would  you like  another  coffee  or  something  to eat? Today  is  a  busy  Sunday  as  we have  the hubby’s  mother  coming  over and  we  are taking her  out  to lunch. Not  only  that  but  I  have  a  coffee  morning  with  the  girls  I  used  to  work  with . There  is a  monthly  Sunday  Morning  gathering  at  one or  the  other  coffee  shops in  the  town. It  is  always  a  noisy  and  fun  affair  with lots  of  news  and  catching up  to  do!

If we  were having Coffee: It  has  been  a  busy  week  with  our middle  son  finally  deciding   to  sort out  the  many  boxes  he has been  storing in our  garage  for years! This has involved  him making  many trips  to  the local  municipal dump! Unfortunately  for  me  he has  found  lots  of  his  clothes  that  he had  thought  he  had  lost  and  so  who  has  been  suckered  in to  washing  drying  and ironing  them??? Well he  does have  the  biggest  brown eyes!!

 If we  were  having  Coffee:  I would  have  to  say  we  are  all  sill  waiting  patiently   for  our  dear  Paul  Curran   to  rejoin us here at  the  coffee  share   but  until he is  well enough  and up  and  running again  we  shall  have  to  bide our  time!

For  now  everyone  Be  well  and  happy!

If we were having Coffee Original idea  from parttimemonster.

And of course  the

IF WE WERE HAVING COFFEE:  WEEKEND COFFEE SHARE

over at Part Time  Monster  and Gene’O’s

Okay  hugs  to  you  all  until  next  week! xxxx

Maudlin Monday: Christmas Blues

Hush Mouse  keep it  shut, no  need  to  ask  for  trouble

Black  times  are  back  and  ready   to  burst  your  Christmas  bubble.

The  tree  may  still be  up  and  sparkling  bright yet  you

Know  that Christmas  is  finished  good  and  true.

 

Quiet  day  on  the  face of it   but  blackness  swirled, not  quiet hidden

Mouse  had  felt  the  dark  vibes  so had  done  all that  was  bidden.

In came  the boy  all unsuspecting  but  did not  meet  the  grade

All hell was let  loose, voices  raised, all Christmas  cheer began. to fade

Christmas Eve Stress: Haiku

The  meat  is  ready  to  go

The table is  set

Now  tell me  will it now  snow.

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Christmas  Tree lights wink  and  glow

Christmas presents wrapped

Family  niggles  peak and  flow

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Father Christmas is  tired out

The  reindeer sleeping

All presents are  handed out.

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One Liner Wednesday: Wrapping.

This  is  part  of  One  liner Wednesday  which  can  be  found  at  LindaGHill’s  post, Rules  here  Pingback  also  here! 

Hi Mum  here is  your  pressie……. Can  you  wrap it  please,  and  these  too!

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If We Were Having Coffee : Shopping, Hospitals, Rain, and the Newbie

 

Hello  everyone  welcome  to  the garden  we have a marquee  and  heaters, all the garden  furniture  has  been washed  and  I have put out cushions for your  comfort.

Well what  do  you  think  shall  we  chance  it . Now  as  always  we have  tea  and coffee  from all over  the world not to mention all our cakes  and muffins  and  as Paul  calls  them sweets! Every single  one  is  calorie  free! Plus of course  we now have spirits  and liquors  to warm the coldest of  you.

If we were having  Coffee: I would ask  you what  has been going on in your world this week, has  anything  deeply affected  you, have  you need a sympathetic ear, a shoulder to cry  on or  just  needed someone  to make  you laugh! If  yes  feel free to talk it out  here  with us. We will all help if  we can.

Lets  join  everyone  here  and  all the  other  “IF  WE  WERE  HAVING  COFFEES”

Join in !

If we were having Coffee: I would  remind  you  that  there  are lots of  other  coffee mornings  all shared  and organized  By  Diana  and  Gene’O  over at,Part time monster  

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If  we  were having  coffee : I would  have to admit  that I have  been  preoccupied with  the plight  of  my  friend’s  daughter who has  been in  and out  of  a psychiatric unit  like a  yoyo  in  the past  fortnight. It  has been a roller coaster  for  my  friend, her  other  daughter  and  for the husband  and myself. Trips  to  and from the unit, not being  allowed  to  see  the patient  or  even  call without  express  permission  from the patient . Even my  friend  could not  get  any information  about her  daughter  unless  she had  allowed it first.

My  friend has two  daughters  both beautiful  bright young  women  and I have known them  since  they were little  girls of  about  6yrs  and 8yrs repectively. So it  has been a an awful  and deep  shock  to   see  the  younger  daughter  now  21yrs  fall apart, in what  looks  like  a fortnight. It  was  even  worse  for her  mum  who  also had  no idea  there  were any  problems.

The  sad  facts  are  that  she has  been suffering  for a long  time, she has been  self harming   and  covering her  misery  for  ages. None of us  knew  none of us  had  any idea.

If  we  were having  coffee :  I would  tell you  that  I have  had  my second  eldest  sister  on my  mind  too. She  has been in  hospital  since  24th April , she  went in to have a heart operation,  a  double  bypass  and  double  valve replacement . Well since  then  she  has developed an infection  in  the  wound in her  leg   from  where  they  took  the    veins  use in the operation  and  somehow  she has  a bone infection in her  chest, there  has been a long  catalogue  of  setbacks  that have befallen her   but  the  fact remains  she is  still  very unwell  and  any  prayers  you  may  have  to  say  for her  would be  appreciated.

If  we  were having  coffee :  I would ask if  you would like  more tea, coffee  and  cake? We have  plenty  and  all is  calorie  free!

 

Lots of eyes

 

If  we  were having  coffee : I feel I  should  lighten  the tone of  this  post  so  lets  see? Monday  the  husband  and I  went into  town  to  do  some  shopping ( clothes  shopping ) well we  parked  a 15min  walk  from the  shops. Not  a problem it  was a warm  day ….. well  we only  had  2hr  parking so half  an  hour  would  be  walking  to  and  from  the  shops,  leaving  an  hour  and  a half  to  pick, try on  and  pay  for  the  goods. We  accomplished  that …. rather  rushed  but  done. On  the  way  back  to the  car  the  heavens  opened up  and  boy  did it  rain. We  got  soaked  to the skin!

Tuesday back at  the gym then housework , ironing and  trip  to hospital  with my  friend , mentioned  above. She  and her  daughter  stayed  for  dinner.

Wednesday  Core  Lesson  at  the  gym, then  take  friend’s  daughter  back  to hospital, in the  afternoon I  met  my  gym  buddy  for  a coffee and a chat, we arranged  to  go into  town  the  next  day  ….. so I  could  change  most of  the  clothes  I had  so  hastily  bought  on the Monday!

Thursday  after  the  gym  my  buddy  and I  caught  the  bus into  town  and  took our  time  I  changed  my  hastily  picked  goods  for  more  suitable and  better fitting  ones, she  also  bought  some  tops  and  three pairs  of  shoes. Then  it  started  to rain  and  we  got  soaked  …. for me  again! We went  and had a cuppa  and  a cake  in a department  store, by then we had  dried out  and  so had  the weather  so we  carried on to  the Apple  store  where  my  friend  had  some  queries  to  sort out! After which  we caught  the bus  home.

Soaked  twice in one  week,  not  very  fair! So  Friday I  had  the  new  drive  again  to  the Pilates  class, which I  found  with  no  problem at  all  I did not  get  even  slightly  lost in  either  direction  and really  enjoyed  the class. Busy  afternoon  and  evening.

Today  was  special  because  the  Newbie  and his  Daddy  came  for lunch  and  we had a lovely  time  with lots of  giggling and  fun!!

If we were having coffee : I wowuld say it is  time  for  garden  round up!

and  now for  from  veg  to  flowers!

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Honeysuckle

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Lollypop Holly Bush

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White Rose

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Red hot Pokers

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View through the Fuscias

Okay  well  that  is  about  all there is  time  for  this  week  so

If  we were having coffee : I would  ask  if  I  can fill up  your  cup, or  glass  or  get  you anything  else  to  eat  it is  all  calorie  free!

Let us  go  and Join Paul and the  gang  and  see  what  they are  all discussing  this  week! It has  been lovely  as always  to have  you all here  and  I  hope,  as does  Paul  that  you will all join us here again  next  week.

And of course  the

IF WE WERE HAVING COFFEE:  WEEKEND COFFEE SHARE

over at Part Time  Monster  and Gene’O’s

 

If We Were Having Coffee: Family, visits , guests and cricket!

Alice, Alice who the hell is Alice?

Hello  everyone  welcome  to  the garden  we have a marquee  and  heaters, all the garden  furniture  has  been washed  and  I have put out cushions for your  comfort.

Well what  do  you  think  shall  we  chance  it . Now  as  always  we have  tea  and coffee  from all over  the world not to mention all our cakes  and muffins  and  as Paul  calls  them sweets! Every single  one  is  calorie  free! Plus of course  we now have spirits  and liquors  to warm the coldest of  you.

If we were having  Coffee: I would ask  you what  has been going on in your world this week, has  anything  deeply affected  you, have  you need a sympathetic ear, a shoulder to cry  on or  just  needed someone  to make  you laugh! If  yes  feel free to talk it out  here  with us. We will all help if  we can.

Lets  join  everyone  here  and  all the  other  “IF  WE  WERE  HAVING  COFFEES”

Join in !

If we were having Coffee: I would  remind  you  that  there  are lots of  other  coffee mornings  all shared  and organized  By  Diana  and  Gene’O  over at,Part time monster  

Well  you  will have to excuse me  if I  am dashing  around  and out of  breath! So  lets sit  down here in  the easy  chairs! I have been busy  again this week  and  to  be honest  it  all seem a bit of a  blurrrrrrrr!! Monday  was housework, gym, more housework  and  I had  to escape  early  evening  and just  go  for a walk ! It  was a lovely  evening  and I  just wandered  the long  way  around  the local area  and  surveyed  gardens  and fileds!

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Table chair and tree

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sit a while

If we were having Coffee:  Tuesday  the hubby  and I  were invited  over  to his  Mum’s  and  we  also picked  up  my honourary sister (  ex  sister in law and great  friend  since I was  thirteen ) and her grandaughter  on the  way over. This is one of  the mother in laws  great great gandchildren, she  also has  great, great, great, grandchildren!!  Well she is 95yrs….. when the Newbie  arrived  she was pleased  but not  as enthusiastic  as  I was. She informed  me  she was used to it  as she had  so many!……

Well  we all had a lovely  day  I was surpised  it  was warm and sunny  and  we had a pizza and salad  lunch  followed  by  strawberries, meringues and  cream!  We played a game  where  we had a name put on  our  forhead  and  we asked  questions untill we worked out  who we were!  I was Queen Victoria.

 

If  we were having Coffee: The  sunflowers  I bought last  Saturday  are looking  amazing! they are  adorning  the  conservatory  right  now, so far they have been in the kitchen and  the living room. Travelling  sunshine, a movable  feast. Friday  the husband was up in London  all day  out for lunch with  other  retired  collegues  of his. I dropped him off  to catch  his bus  then  set off  on a magical mystery  tour! My Pilates teacher  has moved  fro my local gym to  another one (  same  chain)  but  not  to far. It was somewhere I  had never  had reason to vist  so it  was a bit of  an adventure! The hubby  had been over  the route  with me  but I  did manage  to  get lost twice!! ( on ,off  then on again the motorway!!)  but  that said  I just kept  calm and did not panic  and I found it in the end!!

The lessen  was great  and I drove home feeling relaxed  and fit!

If we were having Coffee: Our  middle  son is on holiday  abroad  with friends  right  now  and  even though  he is a grown man  of  40yrs  I was uneasy until he rang  to say he had arrived! …you never  let  them go  as  my  friend  at socialbridge  will attest  in her lovely  blog here 

Would you  like  more  tea or  coffee  or  some cake? do help  yourselves it is all calorie free!

 

Guess  what sheridegrom – From the literary and legislative trenches   ( well worth a  visit) is  here  and has offered  to   make a homemade batch of chocolate scones (the old fashioned way) and  bring along a couple of her favorite US wines. Now isn’t  that  kind, thanks  Sheri!

If  we  were having  coffee : I would  ask Tangental  what  he thought of  the cricket  and did he enjoy it or  did he blink!! We actually  thrashed  the Australians  and  boy  are  they  upset! read here!   and here   Rejoice Geoffle!!

I would also  say HI! to MarkBialczak   do vist  his blog  he has been  enchanting us  with  his blogs of  family  reunions! ….See  Mark  today  I have mentioned  more of the family  than just  the Newbie!! 🙂

We have  dinner guest  arriving  soon  so please  enjoy yourselves stay as long  as you like,  come in  and join us if  you would like there is plenty  for all!  But  for now I  must  away  and do some final  touches! Paul’s  blog  will be up  tomorrow I  promise!

If  we were having coffee : I would  ask  if  I  can fill up  your  cup, or  glass  or  get  you anything  else  to  eat  it is  all  calorie  free!

I do hope  you have not  found my  idle  chitter  chatter  to  boring   but  as  I  said  Paul’s  blog  is  very  thought  provking  again this  week!  So with that said  I must  love  you  and  leave  you !

 And of course  the

IF WE WERE HAVING COFFEE:  WEEKEND COFFEE SHARE

over at Part Time  Monster  and Gene’O’s

Stream of Consciousness Saturday

LindaGHill  said  Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is: “compliment/complement.”  Use one or use them both. Have fun!

Today  was  the  husband’s  birthday, and  our  eldest  lad  arranged   a country  pub lunch. We  had  a  long  drive  down  to  the coast  with  the  mother in  law  in  tow. The  weather  was iffy  and  the  traffic  was  heavy  it  being  a Bank holiday  Weekend. But  it  was  so  worth  it   because  it is  ages  since  we have  had  a  full complement  of  our  gorgeous  lads  all in one place  together!

We had a brilliant  meal  the  service  was  pleasant  and  friendly  and  all had  to  compliment the  staff on  the  food !

Now  I  am  too tired  to  write  anymore  , except  to  say  they  made  my  husband  very  happy  !

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Here  are  rules as  written  by  Linda.

1. Your post must be stream of consciousness writing, meaning no editing, (typos can be fixed) and minimal planning on what you’re going to write.

2. Your post can be as long or as short as you want it to be. One sentence – one thousand words. Fact, fiction, poetry – it doesn’t matter. Just let the words carry you along until you’re ready to stop.

3. There will be a prompt every week. I will post the prompt here on my blog on Friday, along with a reminder for you to join in. The prompt will be one random thing, but it will not be a subject. For instance, I will not say “Write about dogs”; the prompt will be more like, “Make your first sentence a question,” or “Begin with the word ‘The’.”

4. Ping back! It’s important, so that I and other people can come and read your post! For example, in your post you can write “This post is part of SoCS:” and then copy and paste the URL found in your address bar at the top of this post into yours.  Your link will show up in my comments, for everyone to see. The most recent pingbacks will be found at the top.

5. Read at least one other person’s blog who has linked back their post. Even better, read everyone’s! If you’re the first person to link back, you can check back later, or go to the previous week, by following my category, “Stream of Consciousness Saturday,” which you’ll find right below the “Like” button on my post.

6. Copy and paste the rules (if you’d like to) in your post. The more people who join in, the more new bloggers you’ll meet and the bigger your community will get!

7. Have fun!

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Russ Towne's A Grateful Man

To remind you about the goodness and greatness within yourself and others.

A Dog's Life? (Stories of me and him)

Life with Ray - 75lbs of Attitude in a Fur Coat!

Lorraine's frilly freudian slip

life in the bipolarsphere

Reena Saxena

Founder of ReInventions -- Coach, Trainer, Writer and Personal Branding Consultant

Paul Militaru

Photography Portfolio

willowdot21

An insight to a heart mind and soul.

This Thing Called Life One Word at a Time

"Never forget it is real people who live out such tales and bear the price of the telling, in grief and guilt and sorrow". -Jacqueline Carey

Linda G. Hill

Life in progress

RETURN OF THE INTERNET NOBODY

Still on the Internet, Still a Nobody

Norm 2.0

Photography, fiction, opinions and reviews, and whatever else I feel like posting

trainofthought

from stop to stop, a journey in thought

Sue Vincent's Daily Echo

Echoes of Life, Love and Laughter

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Lost Poetry