“Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “sink/sank/sunk.” Use one, use two, or use ’em all and get bonus points. Enjoy!”
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Do you ever have that sinking feeling..where you feel life slipping away like water wooshing down the plughole of a sink? Do you wake up every morning not really fit to face the day …like a ship that sank to the bottom of the sea? Looking back is life a sunken wreck? Nope? Well that’s good.
Welcome to Truthful Tuesday, a prompt originally set by PCGuyIV, covered by Melanie and now hosted by Di at Pensitivity101 until PCGuy1V wants to take it back.
This week’s question is: Would you like to go up in to space?
Hell yes! I wish!
I want to fly a star fighter I want Starbuck’s uniform.
I wanted to fight the Cylons watch their ships in flames over Orion at dawn.
I wanted to fly beyond the speed of light, and curse swear and fight.
I wanted to play cards and drink into the night. I wanted to straith the Cylon’s rebirthing ship with diagonal fire.
To wipe them out is my heart’s desire.
I wanted to argue with my superiors and blow smoke in their faces.
I can do their jobs and be in two places.
I need to lead a fleet of earnest pilots who would follow me to their death.
They would be my responsibility and I would protect them with my final breath.
I would never let them know that, though, I’d need to be aloof and mean,
Yes even if I loved them so, I’d not let that be seen.
I’d be so cool
I would love to look sexy in my vest and flight suit minus my top.
I would love to excited the lads and bop bop bop!
I’d be happy teaching flight techniques and how fire missiles and cannon and just how to stop a Centurion with a strategic oil leak!
I would make your hair stand on end and your face truly blush
With the expletives designed to crush.
I would love to be the one who held the whole planet’s lives with in my hands,
Even if at first I had no idea that I was part of the gods secret plans.
I would take it on the chin to come back from the dead to everyone’s delight.
To start again immediately just jurn me round I’d fight.
It’s true I like a drink, gambling and like a good cigar.
I’m damn good in bed I’ll sort you out what ever rank you are!
I am the best pilot as I have said before
I shall find the Cylon’s mothership and give the frackers what for!
I’ll rip the skin off Number Six and I’ll show her no quarter.
She beat the living crap out of me and then denied me even water.
I’ll lead you all to safety find you all another world
For I am really an angel that keeps her wings tight furled!
I am that star you see at night when it is darkest before the dawn.
I am the one who will shoot straightest so none of you need be forlorn.
I am the mighty Starbuck , Kara Thrace is my real name .
But what ever you call me I shall save you all the fracking same!
Rooted to the ground From the moment we are born We are tied and bound Yet we all have the ability to fly To cut the earthly chains And soar through clear blue sky Sever the ties ignore the pains Reaching the edge of space If only in our imagination Ignoring gravity, flying in it’s face We are all magic, let’s cause consternation .
We carry our lives about in our hands All our appointments,contacts and plans. What would we do if all connectivity dropped Never to return would all our lives come to a stop.
How would we cope if EPOS was gone Could we cope with mental arithmetic for long. So many can’t spell or tally a bill So caught up in games they’ve lost all free will.
There doesn’t seem to be anyway back Of common sense there is a huge lack We’ve all become lazy on A.I. depending It’s getting too late for against it defending.
A.I. can write stories and blogs Create pictures, watch us and keep logs Are we all too lazy or too blind to see We’ll all end up useless and hands free.
“When you forgive you let go of a weight you alone carry.”
—Black Mike
Webster defines forgiving as ceasing to feel resentment. We have all heard the phrases like “forgive and forget” or “I can forgive but I cannot forget” and “You cannot forgive if you cannot forget”. So which is it?
This quote made me think about the weight of carrying grudges. We think most often about forgiving others, but what about forgiving ourselves?
Have I made peace with myself? Have I forgiven myself for all the missteps along the way, or do I think there is no reason to forgive one’s self? The words are easy to utter, but the action may be more complex.”
Some questions to ponder:
Have you made mistakes in life, things that you regret?
Yes indeed I have many, many and they still haunt me now and I think they always will. I have discovered though that I am not evil and if I can forgive myself I hope others can too.
Have these mistakes hurt others? If so, did they forgive you?
Yes I believe some of them have….a careless word here and a thoughtless act here. One such incident was when the boys were small money was short and I was on a tight budget. It was the summer holiday and the young girl next door had taken my youngest to the shops to get some shopping. They came back with the shopping and presented me with a small bouquet of flowers. Instead of graciously accepting these all I could do was think of was the fact I could not afford them and I made them take the flowers back. I was angry with them. …..but not as angry as I was with myself as soon as I thought about it . I have never forgotten this incident or forgotten the look on my little dot of a boy’s face ….. I have never forgiven myself .
Have you forgiven yourself?
Not for that not for everything but yes for other things.
Are mistakes simply a learning experience, or are they a result of poor judgement?
Both , but we need to learn from them .
Does it bother you knowing someone cannot or will not forgive you for something?
No not anymore, sometimes we just have to live with the consequences of our actions.
Is it easier to forgive others than it is to forgive yourself??
yes indeed it is.
Have you made mistakes in life, things that you regret?
Yes I have many, many and they still haunt me now and I think they always will. I have discovered though that I am not evil and if I can forgive I hope others can too.
Have you forgiven yourself?
Not for that not for everything but yes for other things.
Are mistakes simply a learning experience, or are they a result of poor judgement?
Both , but we need to learn from them .
Does it bother you knowing someone cannot or will not forgive you for something?
No not anymore, sometimes we just have to live with the consequences of our actions.
Is it easier to forgive others than it is to forgive yourself??
Yes a thousand times so. My mother in law blamed me for things that really were not my fault …. I have finally forgiven her I don’t know if she forgave me.
Maggie from cavewalls has set us questions for Tranquil Thursday she says that after visiting family and friends she is questioning coping methods. Her questions today are:
How do you manage stressors that are outside your control?
Well if any of you have learned anything about me from my posts you might guess I deal by listening to music and hiding inside my head. I have spent years trying to be the peace keeper but it usually ends up with me in hot water… I have finally learned to shut up, step back and as my mum always said “Let them go to hell their own way!” So now for my own sanity I do.
How do you tune out the noise of the crowds?
I either use earpods or let my mind wonder and sing to myself if I don’t have music with me. When I have had long spells in hospital I usually cope with audio books or music. When I was working I used to find just blending in smiling a lot and listening for key words usually got me by. I have never really liked croweds and try to avoid them.Mainly I learned to breathe.
What do you do when you do not know what to do?
Sadly, I have been here before. Often well I used to hide my head in the sand and play Ostrich! Now I have learned that does not work so I dig my heels in, ask questions and plan strategies. I can do anything !
“Keep on moving ’til you know what the truth is If butterflies can use their wings to turn the wind to hurricanes You and I can break the chains, it takes a day to Start a tiny riot”
Songwriters: Amy Victoria Wadge / Max Wolfgang / Sam Ryder
Maggie is busy with rounds of physiotherapy getting herself ready for a knee operation. She told us about a moment of mindfulness in her morning and she then went on to ask us some questions, which I will come to in a minute.
Now Maggie’s preparations for her knee surgery and Jan’s work toward recovery from her major surgery at Saying Nothing In Particular puts me in mind of when I broke my back good and proper for the second time. I had a very long, and I am talking years, recovery and I had to learn to walk again. I lost my mobility, my self-esteem, my straight back, my friends and my sense of humour. Still I learned to walk, and cope with constant pain, got addicted to prescription drugs and eventually managed through withdrawal and all that entails to get free of all drugs!
I was sent to see a pain physcologist who suggested I started writing again. She Also suggested I read a book which changed my life, almost bad much as blogging has. The book was called Living well with Pain and Illness by Vidyamala Burch.
I found the book a great help because Vidyamala had a very similar experiences to me, accident, treatment in hospital, recovery, coping with pain and getting drug free.
How often do you pause to rest or simply take in your surroundings?
Not nearly enough if I am honest. I do try but often everyday life is full of things to do. But I do try to stop and take note of what is really going on around me when I can.
Is this pause a scheduled part of your day?
Gosh no, would that I could be that organised. I might be hanging out the washing, walking Ruby on a crisp frozen morning, walking to town or just sat down in the sun coming though a window when suddenly I slip into the moment and for a while l am at one with whatever it is we are at one with …peace.
Do you think taking time for ourselves is a matter of self-worth?
Yes it is also a right and we should all try it… mindfulness, at one with ourselves, at one with the universe we all need it by any name.
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