Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “a picture from wherever.” When you sit down to write your post, find a picture, whether in a magazine, newspaper, or even product packaging. Write whatever thought or emotion the picture provokes. Enjoy!
Well there are no books or newspapers near me and I have spent time thinking where can I find one and in all truth that is not in the spirit of SoCs is it. So today for once I am not even going to attempt to comply with the rules! Yup shock horror! I just can’t be bothered. I wonder if it’s the Covid or just me but I don’t feet right and I feel depressed.. I can usually hide it but not today… No I feel blar blur and I going to drown in it! Let it wash over me and give up for today and just hope tomorrow will be a better day.
Lurking in shadows Vicious snapping at my heels Lethargy appears Sucking me into the black Too tired to put up a fight
It rages in my head It’s hunger goes unfed. Crawling like an almighty dread, Screaming, groaning, clawing at my head.
The need and greed consumes me, It ripples through my brain Pushing me beyond the brink of pain. To lift me high then dash me down again .
They crawl and grab They lunge and stab. Body to body soul to soul They creep through my head to reach their goal.
They grapple they bite and suck. I cry and curse my luck. The sword fights the cross It starts to burn Thundering through my head I yearn.
To be eased, appeased Sated and pleased. Barren dried out and teased. It is eating me up never letting me rest. I need it, I demand it this is not a request. It’s driving me mad Making me sad. I anger my friends and strangers think I’m mad.
It is gnawing me, goring me, Splitting me in two They all creep inside me what am I to do. Help me, help me I am going mad Oh! just forget it, it’s all so freaking sad!
Its Sunday again 😮and time for Jim Adam’s Song Lyric Sunday April 24, 2022 – Di of pensitivity101 has suggested Anxiety, Delight, Emotions, Pain, Pride, Relief !
First up I chose Somebody that I used to know by Goyte. I really love this song I believe it embodies all the emotions that Di mentions in her prompt except herhaps delight! We have all had times were we have stayed in a relationship too long just existing, only to be relieved by the other person saying let’s end it and stay friends. Then they cut you off completely and that really hurts however much you pretend it doesn’t because it tamples over your pride and emotions.
“Somebody That I Used to Know” is a song by Belgian-Australian singer-songwriter Gotye, featuring New Zealand singer Kimbra. The song was released in Australia and New Zealand by Eleven Music on 5 July 2011 as the second single from Gotye’s third studio album, Making Mirrors (2011). It was later released by Universal Music in December 2011 in the United Kingdom, and 20 January 2012 in the United States and Ireland. “Somebody That I Used to Know” was written and recorded by Gotye at his parents’ house on the Mornington Peninsula in Victoria, Australia, and is lyrically related to the experiences he has had with relationships.
Commercially, “Somebody That I Used to Know” was a global success and became both artists’ signature song. It reached atop of the charts in the US, UK, Australia and New Zealand, as well as 25 other official charts, and reached the top 10 in more than 30 countries around the world. It was the most commercially successful song of 2011 in Flanders (Belgium), the most successful song of 2012 in Wallonia (Belgium), Canada, Israel, the UK, and the US, and the most successful song of the 2010s decade by an Australian artist in Australia. It is certified Multiplatinum in ten countries, including Diamond in Australia. The song has sold more than 13 million copies worldwide, becoming one of the best-selling digital singles of all time. In addition to the Hot 100, it was also placed at the top of Billboard‘s year-end Adult Pop Songs and Alternative Songs charts and many other charts around the world. More information here.
Now and then I think of when we were together Like when you said you felt so happy you could die Told myself that you were right for me But felt so lonely in your company But that was love and it’s an ache I still remember
You can get addicted to a certain kind of sadness Like resignation to the end Always the end So when we found that we could not make sense Well you said that we would still be friends But I’ll admit that I was glad that it was over
But you didn’t have to cut me off Make out like it never happened And that we were nothing And I don’t even need your love But you treat me like a stranger And that feels so rough You didn’t have to stoop so low Have your friends collect your records And then change your number I guess that I don’t need that though Now you’re just somebody that I used to know
Now and then I think of all the times you screwed me over But had me believing it was always something that I’d done And I don’t wanna live that way Reading into every word you say You said that you could let it go And I wouldn’t catch you hung up on somebody that you used to know…
But you didn’t have to cut me off Make out like it never happened And that we were nothing And I don’t even need your love But you treat me like a stranger And that feels so rough You didn’t have to stoop so low Have your friends collect your records And then change your number I guess that I don’t need that though Now you’re just somebody that I used to know
Somebody I used to know Somebody Now you’re just somebody that I used to know Somebody I used to know Somebody Now you’re just somebody that I used to know I used to know That I used to know I used to know Somebody…
Again all the emotions are here. When one word that terrible argument in the early hours that escalates to violence , anger, fear everything except delight again.
Its Immie, my favourite with The Moment I said it.
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Now I must find some delight. Well I have chosen Avenue Beat with Delight for no other reason than I like it and it fits the bill and after the first two songs we need something cheery 💜💜
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Avenue Beat was an American girl group from Quincy, Illinois, composed of members Sami Bearden, Savana Santos and Sam Backoff. Backoff and Santos were friends growing up and met Bearden at a theater camp in high school. The trio then began traveling back and forth to Nashville where they became based. The group got signed to The Valory Music Co. and Tape Room Records. In September 2021, Sami Bearden parted ways with the band after deciding she no longer wanted to pursue a music career. On October 15, 2021, Avenue Beat disbanded following the release of their first and final album, The Debut Farewell Album, with Santos and Backoff citing that they wanted to support their friend and did not want to continue the band without Bearden.
Delight”
Do you know how much it took for me? To tell you that I think you’re fine as hell And do you wanna grab a bite to eat? I got this coupon to taco bell You say you can’t right now and when I ask you why You finally let it out, you say I’m not your type
But I’m a freakin’ delight I’m a freakin’ delight I got more bite than a California Zoo And if you ask my momma she gonna tell you the truth That I’m a freakin’ delight I’m a freakin’ delight I got more pop than a shook up mountain dew If that’s not what you like There must be something wrong with you Cuz I’m a freakin’ delight I’m a freakin’ delight I’m a freakin’ delight
I see my family every holiday That’s when they love to wreck my self-esteem Ask me why I never bring a date I think the first verse covered everything Say I need a real job I tell them all, please I get to sing my songs and everybody thinks
I’m a freakin’ delight I’m a freakin’ delight I got more bite than a California Zoo And if you ask my momma she gonna tell you the truth That I’m a freakin’ delight I’m a freakin’ delight I got more pop than a shook up mountain dew If that’s not what you like There must be something wrong with you Cuz I’m a freakin’ delight I’m a freakin’ delight
Got the high score on Pacman at the arcade I can still get a sunburn sitting in the shade I’m pretty much the best at acting out charades If anybody asks me, I’m gonna say
I’m a freakin’ delight I’m a freakin’ delight I got more bite than a California Zoo And if you ask my momma she gonna tell you the truth That I’m a freakin’ delight I’m a freakin’ delight I got more pop than a shook up mountain dew If that’s not what you like There must be Something wrong with you Cuz I’m a freakin’ delight I’m a freakin’ delight I’m a freakin’ delight.
Today ten years after I originally wrote this poem, the reluctant poet read my poem The warrior within. I originally wrote this poem in 2012 when I was on the road to recovery after breaking my back for the second time! I visited that post and I have rewritten it here. Thanks to the reluctant poet for reminding me of those hard day’s.
THE WARRIOR WITHIN.
I shall not run I shall not hide,
I’ll face the void with eyes open wide.
I shall call up my warrior from within
And hone my sword, the battle to begin.
If I must make sense of what is my worth.
I shall do it now and justify my birth..
Each time the void comes for me
I make the mistake of trying to flee.
Why do this time after time, the path is futile
I end up broken, spent and feeling vile.
I shall not flinch this time. I will win
I will answer for every sin.
I see the void approaching swirling round,
My lies and fears creep towards me on the ground.
I start to shake terror grips my insides,
I call up my inner warrior from whence she hides.
With flaming hair of my youth and body strong and straight
She takes on the terrors sending them to hell’s gate.
From deep inside I find the strength , that others knew I owned,
Sword in hand my bravery returns , refined and truly honed.
I see you disillusion, I see you hopelessness, I see you despair.
I face you now as a warrier you need to take care.
It’s Saturday and time for LindaGHill’s Stream of Consciousness Saturday. This week Linda has said “Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “comp.” Find a word that starts with or contains “comp” and use it in your post. Enjoy!”
Comfort us in our hour of need Open your eyes and ears, take heed Mindfulness is needed in the world Pain and grief like weapons hurled. All the woes of this vale of tears Sirens and bullets raise their fears Sweet Jesus give them hope In you we trust , help them cope. Oh! the Horsemen love our pain. Now they’re here they’ll not leave again. .
Thank you Bee 🐝 for this month of love songs you’ve done a great job, congratulations to everyone who joined in 💜
Today Bee has reminded us of the sadness and horror of War . I will join her with music and a poem too.
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So many wars. All over the world from when man first walked the Earth til now. when will learn?…. Here is a poem I started to write when I was eleven years old , I am still adding verses.
WAR.
Death, Desolation, Destruction! Men taught hate men taught to wait til death comes to claim them.
Stink, Stench, Smell of bodies sinking in the mud tell their own story. Is this man’s best glory.
Drench, Damp Dripping their guns are filthy, bullets all spent . They all gave up hoping.
Boom,Bang Whistle, they no longer hear they no longer fear the hair on their necks no longer bristle.
Dead all dead and left to rot . This was the war to end all wars ……….. How soon we all forgot.
War
Sear, Smear Singe . Nothing has changed in the theatre of war they are battling still on the fringe they know the score.
Shout , Scream Squeal they will still advance they have lost the ability to feel. No longer human their souls are worn out and why are they out there? Can you answer beyond any doubt.
Sun ,Sand, Storms fight for your life, fight for your sight fight freedom for all ..as if that day will ever dawn wait to hear the cock call!
Death, Desolation, Destruction! Men taught hate men taught to wait til death comes to claim them.
Death, Destruction, Pestilence, and Famine. A very apt prompt for today’s Song Lyric Sunday.
This week Jim Adams our host said “When I think about the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse, I think of Trump, Putin, Kim Jong Un and Xi Jinping ” Well I totally agree with they are and to be honest they really are the epitome of Evil.
When I think of the Four Horsemen of the Apocalypse, I am afraid to say say they are all already here. They have always been here, War a new one each week, Famine ever present too, Death our constant companion and pestilence has been here always too but in the last two years it’s been here big time with Covid in all its varients. Yes the four spheres at the table are ever present.
So to continue in this happy vein my first choice was Chris De Burgh and the vision in this song he mentions the four horsemen of the apocalypse.
Into the Light is the eighth studio album by British-Irish singer Chris de Burgh, released in 1986 by A&M Records. The album is notable for featuring de Burgh’s biggest hit, “The Lady in Red“.
The album peaked at number two on the UK Albums Chart, becoming de Burgh’s first studio album to enter the top ten.
“Fatal Hesitation” was a UK number 44 hit, spending four weeks on the chart. “Say Goodbye to It All” was a continuation of the song “Borderline” from 1982’s The Getaway. Both songs frequently appear in de Burgh’s concerts and compilation albums. The song “For Rosanna” is dedicated to de Burgh’s then-2-year-old daughter Rosanna.
The three Chris de Burgh songs used in “Everybody’s in Showbiz”, “The Leader”, “The Vision” and “What About Me?”, are played in the order they appear on de Burgh’s Into the Light album. In fact, the songs each segue into one another, creating what is effectively a single eight-and-a-half minute track with three distinct sections. The songs are sometimes referred to as the “Leader Trilogy”.
The “Leader Trilogy” is arguably the longest song sample used on Miami Vice, as the entire eight-and-a-half minutes of the song are used. However, it is technically comprised of three separate tracks that make up one continuous piece of music; the longest single track featured is “Brothers in Arms” by Dire Straits, from “Out Where the Buses Don’t Run”. Information from Wikipedia
The tack I have chosen is the Vision which track 11 on the above album.
The Vision
And I saw a burning chariot, And the four horsemen of the apocalypse, Waiting on high, And I heard the thunder rolling in, And behold our leader on a pale horse riding in the sky;
And I saw this land a battlefield, With a hundred thousand men, Fighting hand to hand, And I heard the sounds of victory, And the rivers ran red with the blood of our enemies;
And I, I saw fire from the sky, I saw fire, and I saw paradise, (paradise, ) Fire from the sun, I saw fire, And I saw Alpha and Omega;
Fire, I saw fire, And I saw paradise, (paradise, ) Fire, I saw fire;
Okay my second choice is a cheery little ditty, is Pigs of War by Black Sabbath.
“War Pigs” is a song by English heavy metal band Black Sabbath, released in 1970 album and the opening track from the band’s second studio album Paranoid (1970).
The original title of “War Pigs” was “Walpurgis”, dealing with the witches’ sabbath. “Walpurgis is sort of like Christmas for Satanists. And to me, war was the big Satan”, said bassist and lyricist Geezer Butler. “It wasn’t about politics or government or anything. It was Evil itself. So I was saying ‘generals gathered in the masses / just like witches at black masses’ to make an analogy. But when we brought it to the record company, they thought ‘Walpurgis’ sounded too Satanic. And that’s when we turned it into ‘War Pigs’. But we didn’t change the lyrics, because they were already finished.”
During this time period, mandatory army service had recently ended in Britain but with the Vietnam War raging, many young men feared they’d be conscripted to fight in it. “That’s what started this whole rebellion thing about not going to war for anybody”, said Butler. “I was dreading being called up”, the lyricist recalled.
Prior to its official release, the band often altered the lyrics significantly when performing it live. An example of this can be found on Ozzy Osbourne‘s compilation The Ozzman Cometh, which features an early version recorded by Black Sabbath for BBC Radio 1 on 26 April 1970. While Butler has said that “War Pigs” is “totally against the Vietnam War, about how these rich politicians and rich people start all the wars for their benefit and get all the poor people to die for them”, vocalist Osbourne has stated that the group “knew nothing about Vietnam. It’s just an anti-war song.” The song’s instrumental iutro is entitled “Luke’s Wall” on US releases of the album, formatted as “War Pigs/Luke’s Wall”.
Drummer Bill Ward‘s first memory of performing the song was at The Beat Club in Switzerland in 1968. The band was required to play multiple sets every night and had little material in their repertoire at that point, so they would perform lengthy jam sessions to fill in the sets. Co-writer and lead guitarist Tony Iommi has said that “War Pigs” originated from one of those jam sessions.
The addition of the air-raid siren and the speeding up of the song’s end were done by producer Rodger Bain and engineer Tom Allom. The band had no input in these decisions, though they were pleased with the results. Information Wikipedia
War Pigs
Generals gathered in their masses Just like witches at black masses Evil minds that plot destruction Sorcerer of death’s construction
In the fields, the bodies burning As the war machine keeps turning Death and hatred to mankind Poisoning their brainwashed minds Oh lord, yeah!
Politicians hide themselves away They only started the war Why should they go out to fight? They leave that role to the poor, yeah
Time will tell on their power minds Making war just for fun Treating people just like pawns in chess Wait till their judgement day comes, yeah!
Now in darkness, world stops turning Ashes where their bodies burning No more war pigs have the power Hand of God has struck the hour
Day of judgement, God is calling On their knees, the war pigs crawling Begging mercy for their sins Satan laughing, spreads his wings Oh lord, yeah!
Well what is happening 😳. I honestly thought that after the last two years, Covid, illness and deaths in the family and dear friends! Me being in and out of hospital and Ruby being ill that this year would be a huge improvement…..well I thought by the laws of fairness we deserved a better year this year. Baaahaaha!
Aparently not the fickle finger of fate has decided we have not had enough to cope with. We got Ruby through cancer and a huge op on her leg which took over a month to heal, then the poor old gal got vestibular disease. Hubby and I being ill too, you can read all about that here.
Well just when I thought things were on the mend, hubby got a call from the hospital to tell after his last set of tests they wanted him to have a liver biopsy. Aparently a simple procedure, a tube is inserted into the liver, this tube has a set of snippers to remove a biopsy sample from the liver (two samples in hubby’s case) and a radiologist guides the tube by X-ray.
We read up on the procedure and it all looked straight forward and recovery quick, 24 to 48 hrs of moderate pain/discomfort. Not for hubby. Long story short, he went in for his biopsy Wednesday morning 8am, I took him home at 3.15pm. by 5pm he was in worse pain that immediately after biopsy. No sleep that night as hubby was in so much pain. Thursday morning hubby rang the hospital, the recommended co codamol ….I went and got some from town but also we rang the surgery for advice. Our G.P. rang and asked for me to take hubby in. By this time hubby was in so much pain he could not get on the drs couch. She then rang the hospital and was told to send him to A & E.
The Dr wrote him a note for A & E. I dropped him there about 3pm. He was seen by a doctor. Who could see how much pain he was in. He has had scan and ultrasound. Two does of Morphine and assorted other tablets later and still the pain was just as bad. The scans and ultrasound were clear no damage to liver or stomach from biopsy and also no bleeds. The pain though was still excruciating? They believe a muscle was strained during the biopsy. As the position you are put in for the biopsy is odd and uncomfortable? That could be true of the lower pain but not the one in the shoulder.
So picked Hubby up from A & E really no better off than when I left him, in pain and looking awful. Anyway they had given him codine tablets and assured him there was no internal bleeding.
Unfortunately he had another very bad and painful night. Today he has been propped up on the sofa still in lots of pain. Of course it’s a Friday and the surgery will be closed all weekend . If things worsen it will time to call an ambulance or another drive to A&E, hopefully we can get through the next two days, but if there is no improvement it will be back to the surgery Monday ….fingers crossed we can get some help.
So yet again I am behind with posts and comments….I am actually exhausted. Plus we have Storm Eunice bashing around outside, two trees down in our road and lots more around the town. So we are staying in , though I have taken Ruby on two short walks so far today .
Please bear with me I will get round to you all and I may have to miss prompts…..even though I have just got round to catching up! Oh! and we still have to get the results of the biopsy . 🤞
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