LindaGHill’s dropped an email n my inbox , it said: “Friday has arrived! And so have I with your Stream of Consciousness Saturday prompt. We’ve decided to do a big, overdue cleanup of the house today, so I won’t be around to help with any issues in the comments. Feel free to jump in. And thank you! Here’s your prompt:”
Your Friday prompt for Stream of Consciousness Saturday is “starts with over.” Find a word that starts with “over” and use it for your prompt. Enjoy!
Back prepandemic in 2019 those of you who know/ follow me helped me through the last withdrawal from all pain medication I was on after breaking my back.
A few years prior to that I managed to get off of tramadol. That was a long and hard journey but I got there so when it came to getting off of Gabapentin I thought this can’t be so hard? It’s a neuropathic painkiller. I totally overestimated there I was overoptimistic. I had been on it for over eight years, massively, overdosed, overprescribed, overlooked and overwhelmed by it all. I weaned myself down from four six hundred mgs, four times a day to one hundred mgs twice a day then finally 100 mgs every other day. With no great help from the doctors who just want to hand them out like sweets to keep me quiet. It was easy for them to just hand them out to me and say “You’ll need them for the rest of your life”
I shared up to a point until I was taking one 100 mgs morning and night one day and just one 100mgs in the evening on the alternate day. Then down to one pill every other evening. I have said nothing since 2020 but I am pain killer free and have been over four years now but even more important I am no longer measuring the pill free time. I had to stop and think when I was last taking prescription pain killers.
Yes, I am free, the physiological freedom, the purging of needing is truly great. If anyone is going through the same journey I will say it is not easy. Emotions, physical pain and true fear are battles to fight but if I can do it anyone can. I am not pain free but I am drug free.
I have kept quiet about being free of all my medication because at first I was afraid to actually say it out loud, publicly. So please keep it up if you are going through withdrawal of any kind. Drugs, drink, gambling, being in an emotionally bullied situation. Do persevere, do ask for help do let friends and family in.
I cannot overemphasize the importance of letting people help you on your journey.
That’s all for now. Thank you all for your support over that time….
This is part of LindaGHill’s One-Liner Wednesday.
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