This week it’s time for the specific form, Colleen has asked us to try a Tanka Prose. I have tried and I have to say this is a very personal and painful one for me.
So tired, she lies quiet, cosy and beconed. Yes old and wise as she is she will not leave those staples in. No more than she ever did the previous stitches. My best friend, my comforter your days are numbered, my heart is broken. The years you gave assisting can’t keep you safe.
it grows and festers. the unkind killer within respecting no life I rail at you it’s not fair no thought for service given.
Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Back in 2010 I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust. I will of been married 53yrs this comming year. I have found different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and hopefully in to light.
My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and be as strong as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well.
I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits.
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62 thoughts on “#TANKATUESDAY #POETRY CHALLENGE NO. 254, #SPECIFICFORM”
She has had a biopsy, we see an oncologist vet tomorrow afternoon. I don’t want her to go through any un nessacary treatment …we will find out tomorrow 💜
I hope the news is hopeful, and I hope the vet tells you the whole story, not just all the things they can do. I’ll be thinking of you xx
Thank you Jane we have some comprehensive questions ready to sk so we have all the facts before making our decision.💜
Ruby looks so wise. She’ll probably let you know what she thinks about it.
Yes she will , she’s so knowing and clever 💜
xx
I am so very sorry Willow. Every day is precious ❤ ❤ ❤
Oh, my dear Willow, I’m so sorry to hear about Ruby. I think she’s a fighter though and she’ll overcome this and get well. Beautiful and heartwrenching tanka. Sending love and healing thoughts! 💖❤️💖
…and a kiss on Ruby’s sweet nose!
Yes indeed but twelve is old for a Labrador especially one that worked hard as a guide dog.💜💜💜
Give her a hug for me! ❤💕
Will do 🙂
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Awww, Willow… breaks my heart. I remember how hard it was when my Sugar and Spice grew older. I’m just blessed to have held them in my arms for as many years as I got. These fur babies are like our children. Hugs to you. ❤
Oh Willow. I know how terribly difficult this must be for you. I am sending you and Ruby and your family much love. I hope there is hope and if there is none, then I send you the courage needed to get through this. Bug hugs to Ruby and you.
Thank you, it’s all a bit of a shock. We took her to a Vetinary Hospital today to see an oncologist vet. They have kept her in and operate tomorrow. We have to doour best for her she is our baby . Thank you for the hugs and courage. xxx
Thank you, sorry I didn’t answer last night, I fell asleep. No news yet today 💜
Don’t be silly. There is no rush. You’ve much on your mind and in your heart 🧡
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Oh, no. Such a lovely tanka prose, but so sad. No, it’s not fair. I wish they could understand more than they do. In a reply you thought you were silly. Not at all. Never.
I feel absolutely ridiculous “liking” your post …. but the prose tanka is so well written, from the heart. And this is indeed, a heartbreaking situation. I’ve been there, where you are, several times, and it’s always so hard, so difficult, it rips the guts right out of you. But maybe there will be some Light by way of better or good news. Ruby seems like – actually – I can tell, she’s a treasure, a most beautiful soul …. and I’m sure her heart is linked with yours and those in your family. All I can say is: I wish you great strength, courage and hope …. that you find comfort, peace, solace … and that a miracle will come.
Thank you so much, for your lovely kind words. Ruby has had an operation and things look hopeful.We just got her home this afternoon which was traumatic.
The cancer is cut out now we have to tend to her wound daily and pray the skin flap covering the wound does not necrotise. Thank you again we are willing her on 💜💜💜💜
This is most wonderful news Willow …. I really hope that now she will be truly on the mend and well ….. sending you all positive thoughts and energies …. and wishing for more miracles! Have faith and hope. 💕💕💕
willowdot21 
The cone of shame.
Yes indeed, but a really comfortable one 💜💜💜💜
What’s wrong with Ruby? Has she had an op?
Sadly Jane she has cancer in her leg. 💜
She’s had an operation on it? Is there treatment?
She has had a biopsy, we see an oncologist vet tomorrow afternoon. I don’t want her to go through any un nessacary treatment …we will find out tomorrow 💜
I hope the news is hopeful, and I hope the vet tells you the whole story, not just all the things they can do. I’ll be thinking of you xx
Thank you Jane we have some comprehensive questions ready to sk so we have all the facts before making our decision.💜
Ruby looks so wise. She’ll probably let you know what she thinks about it.
Yes she will , she’s so knowing and clever 💜
xx
I am so very sorry Willow. Every day is precious ❤ ❤ ❤
Yes indeed it is …I am sorry I know I am silly but I know you understand 💜💜💜🙂
You are far from silly Willow. Here if you need me.
Thank you so much 💜
So sorry about the cancer 😦
-David
Thank you, she is such a lovely dog 💜
Bless her, poor Tuby 🤗🤗
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Ruby!!!!
Bless 💜💜
Oh, my dear Willow, I’m so sorry to hear about Ruby. I think she’s a fighter though and she’ll overcome this and get well. Beautiful and heartwrenching tanka. Sending love and healing thoughts! 💖❤️💖
…and a kiss on Ruby’s sweet nose!
Thank you, sadly she 12yrs old so she’s getting on 💜
She’s not old… here’s to good news! ❤💕❤
Yes indeed but twelve is old for a Labrador especially one that worked hard as a guide dog.💜💜💜
Give her a hug for me! ❤💕
Will do 🙂
❤🐾
💜💜💜💜
💕❤💕
Awww, Willow… breaks my heart. I remember how hard it was when my Sugar and Spice grew older. I’m just blessed to have held them in my arms for as many years as I got. These fur babies are like our children. Hugs to you. ❤
Thank you Colleen hubby and I are heart broken, we see an oncologist vet tomorrow 💜
Oh, Willow. I’m so sorry. Keep me posted. ❤️❤️❤️
Will do 💜
I understand! What a beautiful friend you have!
Cool Tanka, Still, your puppy outshines.
Thank you so much she is the most wonderful dog, a retired guide dog.💜💜💜
Give her a pet and hug for me, please!
I most certainly will do, thank you 💜💜
Sending you gentle hugs. I hope the vet has some good news.
Thank you fingers crossed 💜
So sorry for you and your companion, Willow. A beautiful, heartfelt, and sad poem 💕🙂
Thank you so much 💜
Awe – Willow, I feel your pain. xxx
It’s so hard, she is in the Vetinary Hospital tonight, operation tomorrow 💜
Oh Willow. I know how terribly difficult this must be for you. I am sending you and Ruby and your family much love. I hope there is hope and if there is none, then I send you the courage needed to get through this. Bug hugs to Ruby and you.
Thank you, it’s all a bit of a shock. We took her to a Vetinary Hospital today to see an oncologist vet. They have kept her in and operate tomorrow. We have to doour best for her she is our baby . Thank you for the hugs and courage. xxx
I bet it is. Oh man. More hugs your way.
Thank you, sorry I didn’t answer last night, I fell asleep. No news yet today 💜
Don’t be silly. There is no rush. You’ve much on your mind and in your heart 🧡
💜🙂🙂🙂
🧡 🙂 🧡 🙂
Oh, no. Such a lovely tanka prose, but so sad. No, it’s not fair. I wish they could understand more than they do. In a reply you thought you were silly. Not at all. Never.
Thank you Lisa we do love our animals 💜
I feel absolutely ridiculous “liking” your post …. but the prose tanka is so well written, from the heart. And this is indeed, a heartbreaking situation. I’ve been there, where you are, several times, and it’s always so hard, so difficult, it rips the guts right out of you. But maybe there will be some Light by way of better or good news. Ruby seems like – actually – I can tell, she’s a treasure, a most beautiful soul …. and I’m sure her heart is linked with yours and those in your family. All I can say is: I wish you great strength, courage and hope …. that you find comfort, peace, solace … and that a miracle will come.
Thank you so much, for your lovely kind words. Ruby has had an operation and things look hopeful.We just got her home this afternoon which was traumatic.
The cancer is cut out now we have to tend to her wound daily and pray the skin flap covering the wound does not necrotise. Thank you again we are willing her on 💜💜💜💜
This is most wonderful news Willow …. I really hope that now she will be truly on the mend and well ….. sending you all positive thoughts and energies …. and wishing for more miracles! Have faith and hope. 💕💕💕
Thank you I do honestly I do 💜💜
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Hi Willow, I am so sorry to hear Ruby has cancer. Is it treatable?
Sadly Robbie it’s an unknown but we are doing what we can 💜