When the pain is stubborn let’s have some chill out 💜 featuring Imogen Heap, who else?
Day fades slowly out.
The pain refuses to rest.
Float away on notes.
The brain can over come this.
Give in no use to resist.
Author: willowdot21
Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Eleven years ago I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " not quite but with the help of a walking stick and as long as I do not stand or sit in one position for too long, I am still standing! Update I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust, I will of been married 50yrs plus this year . Pain and boredom are my enemies now, I have to find different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and hopefully in to light ?? I need to update this a little here. I have worked very hard over the years since my accident, I go to the gym regularly, I have a Pilates class and a core class once a week . The guys at the gym and my Pilates teacher cajoled, teased, bullied and encouraged me to abandon my walking stick! :) My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and as strongly as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well. I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits. View all posts by willowdot21
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Imogen always keeping you company 😘
Yes it’s a great help 💜
Hope you are well.
Yes slowly improving 💜
Whatever works for you. Feel better soon.
Thank you I am getting there 💜💕
Still thinking of you, Willow. ❤❤
Thank you Betty 💜
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I am sorry you are experiencing pain. I would hang out with you and Imogen any day. 💜💜💜 lots of well wishes headed your way.
Thank you Maggie, I am sure it’s just a glitch 💜💜
I hope you feel better soon.
On the mend, operation over and just need to recover now 💜
My prayers for your speedy recovery continue, Willow.
Thank you I really appreciate that Maggie. Oh! I have a recommendation for a film we watched on Netflix last night it was Called Hillbilly Elergy. It’s based on a true story. I thought it was going to be like the Walton’s but it was a very deep and sad warts and all story. I really was touched by it. We never know what makes a person who they are. 💜
I have seen it advertised, Willow, and a recommendation from you makes it even more appealing. I will put it on my list.
Sad but uplifting we were moved 💜
💜💜💜💜💜🤗🤗🤗With you and wishing you done with pain!
Fingers crossed 💜
Thinking of you. I hope you’re finding comfort where you can.
Thank you I am 💜
Hope you are feeling okay, Willow. x
Recovering from my op 🤭🤭
How did it go my lovely?
Not bad, but I was rushed back into hospital at 1am, after being discharged with excruciating pain, vomitting and fever. Apparently a reaction to the op and anesthesia. Dr said I should not of been sent home. Anyway slowly on the mend now.💜
Oh my that’s scary. Glad you are on the mend now Willow. What a year this has been. I just hope 2021 will bring us some light and cheer. x
Amen let’s hope so , for everyone 💜🎄
Your “bestie” in music. Let us hope the pain goes away…
Yes it should now I’ve had the operation. That piece of music really did help 💜🤞
Oh good! So very happy to hear that. 😘🧡😘
It’s been a long time, over seven months 💜💜💜
No kidding…🧡🧡🧡
No, 4 months with the cholosectomy bag, and then 4 months wait for operation! Now a six week recovery. Getting there 💜
Yowza…