Our host for Tuesday Tanka, Colleen Chesebro is in the throws of moving . She has left instructions for us to carry on with her Tuesday Challenge. While she is busy and very likely without WiFi. We are still use two words but of our own choice and use them synonymously. Except on the first Tuesday of the month when not synonyms are necessary.
So we shall keep the challenge up while our very own Fairy Whisperer is on the move.
This week I have chosen the words, Exhausted & Lost. The Etheree is a sad one but even sadder is the fact that it is life for many.
I am spent
You’ve washed me out
Your cruel words drain me
My self worth thrown aside
I’m drowning in your venom
What right have you to treat me so
Your right I have given in, I know
I surrender, nothing left so you win.
Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Eleven years ago I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " not quite but with the help of a walking stick and as long as I do not stand or sit in one position for too long, I am still standing! Update I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust, I will of been married 50yrs plus this year . Pain and boredom are my enemies now, I have to find different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and
hopefully in to light ??
I need to update this a little here. I have worked very hard over the years since my accident, I go to the gym regularly, I have a Pilates class and a core class once a week . The guys at the gym and my Pilates teacher cajoled, teased, bullied and encouraged me to abandon my walking stick! :) My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and as strongly as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well.
I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits.
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14 thoughts on “Colleen Chesebro’s Tuesday Tanka Challenge. Exhausted & Lost.”
Great job sis!
Thank you Sis 💜, isn’t this typically Easter halftime holiday weather 🤪🌹
Properly… it is so dark here today !
Here too and cold and rainy 😟
Yuck. I’ve been in bed all morning, reading!
How dare you , I have been rushed off my feet 💜 😉🤣🤭❤️💓
I think I deserve it 😜😜😜
Yes of course you do Sis 💜 isn’t
Oooh, this is sad, Willow, and it is still the lot of many.
Yes indeed it is 💜
Awww, Willow that is a sad poem, but writing does help let loose of those emotions. Hugs and love to you my dear friend. ❤
Thanks Colleen,hugs always gratefully accepted, life can be hard sometimes 💜
Don’t I know it. ❤️