Our prompt for JusJoJan 2019, January 27th is brought to you by Enthralling Journey! Click here to find her last postand say hi while you’re there! Enthralling Journey’s word for our prompt today is “cathartic.” Use it anywhere in your post or make it the theme of your post. Have fun!
Cathartic
Last year those of you who know/ follow me helped me through the last withdrawal from all pain medication. A few years back I managed to get off of tramadol. That was a long and hard journey but I got there so when it came to getting off of Gabapentin.
I thought this can’t be so hard? It’s a neuropathic painkiller. I had been on it for over eight years I weaned myself down from four times, six hundred mgs a day to one hundred mgs twice a day then finally 100 mgs every other day. With no great help from the doctors who just want to hand them out like sweets to keep me quite.
I kept you informed up to a point until I was taking one 100 mgs morning and night one day and just one 100mgs in the evening on the alternate day. Then down to one pill every other evening. I have said nothing since but I am tablet free and have been over five months now but even more important I am no longer measuring the pill free time.
It is Cathartic ( yes finally I am using the prompt word) to be free of the ties that being addicted to painkillers bring.
Yes, I am free, the physiological freedom, the purging of needing is truly Cathartic. If anyone is going through the same journey I will say it is not easy. Emotions, physical pain and true fear are battles to fight but if I can do it anyone can. I am not pain free but I am drug free.
I have kept quiet about being free of all my medication because at first I was afraid to actually say it out loud, publicly. So please keep it up if you are going through withdrawal of any kind. Drugs, drink, gambling, being in an emotionally bullied situation. Do persevere, do ask for help do let friends and family in. The results are Cathartic.
Thank you all for listen and your support. 💜💜
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Author: willowdot21
Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Eleven years ago I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " not quite but with the help of a walking stick and as long as I do not stand or sit in one position for too long, I am still standing! Update I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust, I will of been married 50yrs plus this year . Pain and boredom are my enemies now, I have to find different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and
hopefully in to light ??
I need to update this a little here. I have worked very hard over the years since my accident, I go to the gym regularly, I have a Pilates class and a core class once a week . The guys at the gym and my Pilates teacher cajoled, teased, bullied and encouraged me to abandon my walking stick! :) My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and as strongly as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well.
I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits.
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I remember your posts Willow. An amazing feat and as you say, under your own steam.
Great to know you are off them altogether. ❤
Yes instead of 5 different types of drug all I take now is a calcium tablet and blood pressure tablet . I could not of done it without yours and everyone’s support 💜💜💜💜
It was all down to you Willow, and everyone was rooting for you.
Thank you again 😀💜
You are a star sis. So Proud of you 💜
Thank you Sis it was so hard 💜💜
But you persevered and did it 💜💜
Thanks to you in no small part 💜💜
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Super proud of you, Willow ♥️
Thank you Sooo much I am so grateful 💜💜💜
You have done so well, Willow. You must be so proud.
I am Robbie, just a tad 🤭, honest I never thought I would be brave enough to to say, I am pill free but I am and I have 💜💜💜💜
Bravo to you, Willow. A difficult journey you undertook and you succeeded. You should be more than proud.
Thank you Dale and thanks for your support . I wasn’t sure if I could do it but I have 😀😀💜
Yes!! 🧡🧡😘🧡🧡
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Congratulations Willow, that is quite a feat!!!! ❤
Thank you Bee I could not of done it without you guys 💜💜
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They do “give them out like sweets” don’t they?
I know that wasn’t easy. Cheers to you.
Yes they do hand them out like sweets to keep you quiet. It is easier than helping you really cope with pain. You have to learn to live with pain. Thank you for your kind thoughts 💜
I’m in a similar boat. I keep refusing the meds until/unless they can figure out what’s wrong. So far my pain is manageable but frustrating because many things I used to do, now I can’t.
I know it’s so hard isn’t it. I have found acceptance is okay. You have the pain it’s there to stay make it a friend use it. Make it work for you , rule it. Just make sure the medics find the cause! Good luck Hun 💜💜 happy
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