My First ever review of a dying year.

As 2018 neatly folds in on itself, smoothing out the pleats and brushing out the crumbs. 2019 stands in the wings waiting to burst forth filling all with hope.

Sorry I don’t believe that, I do not like New Year (there I have said it.) The truth, as I see it nothing will magically change or become better at midnight 31st December..

Nothing will resolve itself, all the resolving is up to us!

Now I have not ever done a review of a year as it passes or a preview of a year to come but 2018 was different.

So this might be my one and only shot at this type of blog.

The year started as it always does, a damp squid. But it warmed up, we had a family in Wedding and a trip to Mexico in April.

Then May arrived as did The Bloggers Bash in my old Stamping Ground of Chiswick.

I don’t know if you know I love The Bloggers Bash.

Here is all the information you need for The Bloggers Bash 2019

In June we visited the Houses of Parliament for PMQs and there was an incident!

Also in June I was nearly at the end of withdrawal from the last of my painkillers. Here is a post about the visit to Parliament and withdrawal here.

Ps. I am totally painkiller free now, no Tramadol or Gabapentin .

In June /July I met a young mum who lives near me who has Macular Degeneration ( not the age related one) and Stargardt disease . She started to go blind at 12yrs old. Now at 26yrs she has two wonderful children a partner and a beautiful guide dog. I go out with her when she takes her dog for its free exercise. As you know Ruby is a retired guide dog . The two dogs get on so well. I have become good friends with Natalie and Ruby is a favourite with her family. She says I help her, I say she has taught me a lot too.

Quala and Ruby, Ruby on the right.

Also in July I badly sprained my ankle…whilst walking Ruby!

September we took Ruby to France for a week, it was a success.

Top picture is us boarding Le Shuttle, second picture is Ruby and Hubby investigating a church in a wood. Here is a blog about a day on that holiday.

October came with Halloween and I did a month of spooky poems. Here is one of them.

Along came November and there was a surprise trip to Mexico.

So December arrived and I went on a course with the Silent Eye which I found truly affecting. I opened my soul, brain and heart to more that can be seen with the eye. Thank you to all who were there.

Here is a post about one sites we visited.

Then Christmas sadly not all the plans came fruition, I did not see my lovely grandsons, maybe this year will bring better times. Hey ho life is life no point in making myself ill.

We had the other lads round and friends too so I think I did a good job of wearing the happy mask.😁

I started this post on New Year’s Eve but time got away from me. So here I am on New Year’s day looking back on 2018. We went out last night and celebrated with friends. I have to say it still feels hollow. But no one likes a moaner or a miserable face.

Onwards and upwards to 2019. I have three resolutions.

1. If I can not change things in my life that are causing me pain I can hopefully learn to accept them and not mope.

2 Take forward what I learned on the Silent Eye Weekend.

3 Blog happily and do my very best to publish a book of poetry this year…. Any helpful tips on this gratefully received.πŸ˜‰

Thank you friends and followers I do love you all.

Author: willowdot21

Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Eleven years ago I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " not quite but with the help of a walking stick and as long as I do not stand or sit in one position for too long, I am still standing! Update I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust, I will of been married 50yrs plus this year . Pain and boredom are my enemies now, I have to find different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and hopefully in to light ?? I need to update this a little here. I have worked very hard over the years since my accident, I go to the gym regularly, I have a Pilates class and a core class once a week . The guys at the gym and my Pilates teacher cajoled, teased, bullied and encouraged me to abandon my walking stick! :) My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and as strongly as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well. I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits.

27 thoughts on “My First ever review of a dying year.”

  1. Like you I don’t believe new year magically changes anything, but it is a good breathing point at which to stop and take stock. I’m terrible for not appreciating what I’ve done or achieved so for me new year is a nice reminder that the past year wasn’t as lost as I perhaps thought it was.
    Best of luck with the new year, love the photo of your dog.

    1. Thank you I just find this time of year so very sad. I have taken your words on board.πŸ€” Glad you like Ruby she is gorgeous isn’t she.πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œ

      1. Very beautiful. With work, my husband and I haven’t got much time for poets, but luckily I have a friend who brings her chocolate lab round for visits so I still get lots of cuddles.

  2. How did I miss this one? Owie for the sprang ankle, overall you got to travel. Other than the fun I am having with the blog, last year really sucked for me. I herniated my disk in April and took til September to have surgery. Just pain all year. Hey, maybe I should write this on my own blog. Lol! Cheers to much better happenings in 2019!✨

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