Withdrawal Moans.

I have been telling you all, about (I hope) the last few weeks of weaning myself off of Gabapentin. It’s a neuropathic painkiller. I have been on it for over eight years I have weaned myself down from four times six hundred mgs a day to one hundred mgs twice a day. With no great help from the doctors who just want to hand them out like sweets to keep me quite. Recently I had been altenating between one 100 mgs morning and night one day and just one 100mgs in the evening on the alternate day. It is hard,harder than I thought. This last part is so hard I just want to reach for the pills. So you guys can help me by listening to me writing it out.

A big thank you for baring with me. I am lowering the dosage again.

I have been feeling really unwell this week. It is still the withdrawal, the symptoms are really getting me down . I am down to 100mgs every other night but it is unbelievably hard. The days after the nights I don’t have a tablet are awful. I can hardly function.

I was hoping I might be off the tablets by now. But I am still struggling. I am tired irritable, anxious, and I have pains in places I didn’t know I had, plus headache, and backache. Still the imaginary spiders are crawling all over me.

The weather is not helping it all just so wearing. I am trying to keep positive and have put in place things to look forward to.

Today is not a good day so I can’t manage any positives. But I am going to try and post today.


36 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. TanGental
    Jun 29, 2018 @ 09:27:06

    It sounds grim but I’m crossing everything you find the other side soon


  2. colinandray
    Jun 29, 2018 @ 09:36:31

    Are there no ways to at least reduce the effects temporarily in order to give yourself a break, such as “over the counter” pain meds, or relaxants etc.? How about an ice pack to stop the spiders? I have Restless Legs Syndrome which can drive me nuts at times, but just getting up and walking around creates a distraction from it. Distractive techniques have apparently been used in a number of conditions, just to give the person a short break … but I have no experience of your specific circumstances. Hang in there Willow. Your body is no doubt doing its very best to adjust to the meds reduction, but clearly needs a bit more time! Take care.


    • willowdot21
      Jun 29, 2018 @ 09:50:53

      Thank you Colin, I try to keep busy. Today I really need to relax, so I am trying to catch up on my blog.
      I am a little afraid to try over the counter meds but will take paracetamol when my head or back get too much. There’s always jobs to do or Ruby to walk . It’s the mental attitude I have right now that purturbs me the most. If I just keep smiling it will finally work I am sure. I am always grateful for your words, they do help. 🌹


      • colinandray
        Jun 29, 2018 @ 10:04:38

        Well if you can handle some light and entertaining reading, please send me your email address as I have some pieces which may help you. πŸ™‚

  3. Ritu
    Jun 29, 2018 @ 09:48:31

    Take it easy sis πŸ’œ


  4. ksbeth
    Jun 29, 2018 @ 10:52:05

    you have gone so far, keep going, and know we are all cheering for you. amazing


  5. Michael
    Jun 29, 2018 @ 11:25:50

    Its never easy willow when these drugs have us in their grip. But stay with it, hopefully things will improve for you. Take care.


  6. Lynz Real Cooking
    Jun 29, 2018 @ 14:12:55

    You are doing a great job, an amazing feat dear sister! It is probably hard to imagine the sweet light and happiness, peace and calm that will be the end result of this difficult time of going through withdrawl! I don’t know how you are doing it but you are and your strength shines through as an example to those who are struggling. I can’t wait for the day that you say you are feeling better and settled. Much love xoxo


  7. pensitivity101
    Jun 29, 2018 @ 17:26:30

    Keep at it Willow. Good days and bad days, but you’ll get there. Keep posting it out.


  8. shelleyanne56
    Jun 29, 2018 @ 17:57:20

    Stay strong.


  9. Betty Hayes Albright
    Jun 29, 2018 @ 22:47:02

    Thinking of you, Willow, and wishing I had a magic wand to wave over you to make the withdrawal easier. I admire your strength so much – you are amazing. Love and hugs to you β€οΈπŸŒΈπŸ’žβ€οΈ


  10. ghostmmnc
    Jun 30, 2018 @ 20:10:32

    Hope every day going forward gets easier. (((soft & gentle hugs)))


  11. dobetteralways
    Jul 01, 2018 @ 02:11:56

    It sucks now but they can’t all be shit days. Just keep your end goal in mind and you’ll get there. You got this.


  12. robbiecheadle
    Jul 01, 2018 @ 08:43:59

    I don’t think you should be feeling so bad, Willow. Maybe you are doing it a bit to quickly?


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