Withdrawal Update 2

I have been telling you all, about (I hope) the last few weeks of weaning myself off of Gabapentin. It’s a neuropathic painkiller. I have been on it for over eight years I have weaned myself down from four times six hundred mgs a day to one hundred mgs twice a day. With no great help from the doctors who just want to hand them out like sweets to keep me quite. This week I am altenating between one hundred mgs morning and night one day and just one hundred grams in the evening on the alternate day. It is hard,harder than I thought. This last part is so hard I just want to reach for the pills. So you guys can help me by listening to me writing it out.

A big thank you for baring with me.

Well I got through the weekend, I actually found Sunday, a pill day harder than the Saturday which was a no pill day.

Strange as Sunday was the busier day having the hubby’s mother over for lunch as usual, walking the dog and keeping people happy. I would of thought it would of kept my brain off my symptoms…. But no.

Monday morning was not good but I managed to keep going. In the afternoon we took Ruby with us in the car and dropped in on hubby’s mother. Then went for a long walk with Ruby and on the way home we stopped off at friends. They asked us to stay for dinner which we did and had a laugh and set the world to rights.

I was in bed by 10.30 and slept fairly well apart from unsettling dreams.

Today is supposed to be a pill in the morning day but something in my brain was telling me not to take it. So here I am at 12.30 and I have not taken any Gabapentin. I am okay-ish, physical symptoms: cold-like symptoms, slight headache, a little shaky with joint pains, itching (the spiders) on and off. Phycological symptoms: stressing bordering on fear / angxiety , exhaustion.

The worse part is the depression it won’t lift and things that I usually can shrug off are weighing heavily on my mind.

Anyway let’s be positive I am here I am trying, and I can do this.

Thank you all for listening.

42 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. colinandray
    Jun 05, 2018 @ 11:20:17

    Hi Willow – First … a pre-amble! I am not in the healthcare business, and am not too familiar with your meds however, I have a lot of personal experience of “monkeying” with (my) meds, together with a few years volunteering in a Toronto Hospital’s Crisis Intervention Unit where meds related “customers” were quite common. So …. for some personal views:

    1. I agree that meds are prescribed far too frequently and, if you can be labeled (i.e. PTSD, OCD etc), then the prescription is probably written out after you said “Hi” to the doctor and with no further consultation!

    2. It was not easy for me to adjust to the concept that I am dependent on certain meds for the rest of life. My history dictates going meds free wherever possible however, some medical conditions simply need meds to keep things under control. i.e. Schizophrenia is a common condition where meds are often not respected. The schitzophrenic starts taking prescribed meds and starts to feel “normal” again, and so stops taking the meds. They then spiral downhill and end up in hospital.

    3. I have tried to reduce some of my meds, but it has always been under the auspices of the particular specialist. Some meds can be reduced slowly to “0”, and some are required by our body to maintain a predetermined chemical balance.

    4. Always get the benefit of medical experience before reducing your meds as you could trigger all sorts of unexpected side effects, and if you do not think much of your doctor, then get a second opinion (and change doctors!).

    5. Remember that while all professions have idiots in them, the question I ask myself is simple “Should I gamble that my doctor knows what he is talking about after going through med school and after having many years of experience, or should I make a decision based on my schooling and experience? Which option would provide the greater chance of success?”

    All the best. Take care.

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    • willowdot21
      Jun 05, 2018 @ 11:51:27

      Hi Colin thank you for taking the time to share this information with me. I understand everything you are saying and agree. I was on Morphine, then morphine patches, tramadol, and pregrabalin, (changed to Gabapentin). These were all for pain. I have over the last eight years got free of Morphine and Tramadol the Gabapentin are the last of the sledgehammers I have to beat. The Drs have not been much help but though not supportive the do know what I am doing. I have also had a great deal of help from my local pharmacy the head pharmacist has been great and he knows his stuff.
      I do know I shall always have to take my blood pressure pills and Calcium pills but I can get of the zombie pills that don’t work anymore I am sure I will feel better. I am taking it step my step. I am very grateful for your support.πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œ

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  2. Marje @ Kyrosmagica
    Jun 05, 2018 @ 11:28:43

    Bless you, keep on going Willow. Love Marje x

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  3. TanGental
    Jun 05, 2018 @ 11:53:16

    Well done so far. Good luck with this

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  4. Ritu
    Jun 05, 2018 @ 12:09:21

    You got this sis!

    Reply

  5. Zoe O'Farrell
    Jun 05, 2018 @ 12:23:34

    You are doing so well! Don’t give up! Sending you lots of love and hugs! πŸ’•πŸ’•

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  6. pensitivity101
    Jun 05, 2018 @ 14:04:35

    Support from this corner too Willow.

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  7. House of Heart
    Jun 05, 2018 @ 15:28:50

    It’s tough, I admire you! My best always.

    Reply

  8. Lynz Real Cooking
    Jun 05, 2018 @ 15:49:07

    You are amazing sister!!!!!

    Reply

  9. shelleyanne56
    Jun 05, 2018 @ 21:26:40

    Im not familiar with Gabapentin, I had to wean off Klonopin after less than a year of use, not fun. Stay strong as sometimes withdrawel can make you feel like you are going crazy, it helps to share stories. πŸ˜€

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    • willowdot21
      Jun 05, 2018 @ 22:27:08

      Yes I know it can, I have had to wean off of pregrabalin, tramadol and now they Gabapentin. Well done you for being successful, I hope to join you as a successful weaner πŸ’œπŸ’œ

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  10. Betty Hayes Albright
    Jun 06, 2018 @ 01:04:50

    Willow, it sounds like you’re making a lot of progress! Keep on keepin’ on, my friend. You’re going to do it this time. So worth it! Thinking of you every day, sending hugs. πŸ˜πŸ’žπŸ’•πŸŒΈ

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  11. dobetteralways
    Jun 06, 2018 @ 06:47:22

    Each day, one foot in front of the other, step by step (despite any backslides) towards the goal.

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  12. robbiecheadle
    Jun 08, 2018 @ 14:50:13

    I know what you are doing is really hard, Willow. I only take 10mg of Lexomil once a day but when I ran out and didn’t take it for 5 days I got horrible symptoms. Keep going and it will get better. Hugs.

    Reply

  13. Kat Myrman
    Jun 14, 2018 @ 22:53:39

    Such a positive attitude Willow. You got this. ❀️

    Reply

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