05 | Jun | 2018 | willowdot21

Lune Day Five

At Kat Myrman‘s suggestion,along with Jane Dougherty, I’m trying out the Lune form this month. The Lune is a three line poem, either 5/3/5 syllables or 3/5/3 words.

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I can’t speak to you

Your ears shut

You don’t want to hear.

Withdrawal Update 2

I have been telling you all, about (I hope) the last few weeks of weaning myself off of Gabapentin. It’s a neuropathic painkiller. I have been on it for over eight years I have weaned myself down from four times six hundred mgs a day to one hundred mgs twice a day. With no great help from the doctors who just want to hand them out like sweets to keep me quite. This week I am altenating between one hundred mgs morning and night one day and just one hundred grams in the evening on the alternate day. It is hard,harder than I thought. This last part is so hard I just want to reach for the pills. So you guys can help me by listening to me writing it out.

A big thank you for baring with me.

Well I got through the weekend, I actually found Sunday, a pill day harder than the Saturday which was a no pill day.

Strange as Sunday was the busier day having the hubby’s mother over for lunch as usual, walking the dog and keeping people happy. I would of thought it would of kept my brain off my symptoms…. But no.

Monday morning was not good but I managed to keep going. In the afternoon we took Ruby with us in the car and dropped in on hubby’s mother. Then went for a long walk with Ruby and on the way home we stopped off at friends. They asked us to stay for dinner which we did and had a laugh and set the world to rights.

I was in bed by 10.30 and slept fairly well apart from unsettling dreams.

Today is supposed to be a pill in the morning day but something in my brain was telling me not to take it. So here I am at 12.30 and I have not taken any Gabapentin. I am okay-ish, physical symptoms: cold-like symptoms, slight headache, a little shaky with joint pains, itching (the spiders) on and off. Phycological symptoms: stressing bordering on fear / angxiety , exhaustion.

The worse part is the depression it won’t lift and things that I usually can shrug off are weighing heavily on my mind.

Anyway let’s be positive I am here I am trying, and I can do this.

Thank you all for listening.