Raining in my heart

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: This Photo by Ibrahim Asad on Pexels.com is perfect; “The sun is out, the sky is blue, there’s not a cloud to spoil the view; But it’s raining, raining in my heart.”; Today I am being haunted by these words; I was married in 1959, the year Buddy Holly recorded them.; little did I know that 59 years later they would describe perfectly my situation.; yes,I am still married but the loveable humorous fellow I married has disappeared!

“the weatherman says fine today he doesn’t know that you’ve gone away and it’s raining, raining in my heart.

Oh misery misery, what’s gonna become of me?

I tell my blues they mustn’t show but pretty soon my tears will flow ‘cos it’s raining, raining in my heart”

Sleepless nights, endless requests to take him home,confusion and frustration…

total inability to follow the simplest instruction or request are bringing me down and…

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Author: willowdot21

Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Eleven years ago I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " not quite but with the help of a walking stick and as long as I do not stand or sit in one position for too long, I am still standing! Update I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust, I will of been married 50yrs plus this year . Pain and boredom are my enemies now, I have to find different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and hopefully in to light ?? I need to update this a little here. I have worked very hard over the years since my accident, I go to the gym regularly, I have a Pilates class and a core class once a week . The guys at the gym and my Pilates teacher cajoled, teased, bullied and encouraged me to abandon my walking stick! :) My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and as strongly as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well. I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits. View all posts by willowdot21

7 thoughts on “Raining in my heart”

wow – did not realize this song was from 59
and sorry to hear about your heart storm…
this post was well done….

willowdot21 says:

May 28, 2018 at 8:46 pm

Thank you for reading.Please pop over to tesscol’s blog at https://tesscol.wordpress.com/ and tell her this 💜

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1. prior.. says:
  
  May 29, 2018 at 2:44 pm
  
  🙂
2. willowdot21 says:
  
  May 29, 2018 at 3:09 pm
  
  😀

Have done and done Willow. 🙂

willowdot21 says:

May 28, 2018 at 8:41 pm

Thank you so much, I am so grateful 💜

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1. pensitivity101 says:
  
  May 29, 2018 at 6:56 am
  
  I clicked to follow Tess a little while ago as she was on my mind when I contacted you. Having lost Mum, dementia is so close to the heart, and one thing my sister said that stuck in my mind was that she felt she had no support (a lot of that though was because she didn’t talk to the right people and moaned at everyone else). I hope Tess is getting some support from the right quarters as well as other bloggers. ❤