Peeping above the parapet.

Really I don’t know how to explain my absence I just don’t seem able to write my blog or read posts at the moment. I feel lost in a deep dark hole. 

Yes I am going through the motions of everyday life  but I feel surrounded by darkness. One of our son’s has been very ill in hospital and that has been stressful but as he is now, hopefully on the mend I was hoping my mood might beging to lift. 

Unfortunately I still feel very low and flat. Where have all my words gone and why am I so empty…. I just don’t know.

I have been watching all your wonderful and hard written posts piling up in my in box. I have seen all your comments coming in and I just can’t cope.  

There is such a back log that I just feel I need to drawn a line and start a fresh. As much as I hate to delete all your words unread I have to as they are adding to the fear and dark thoughts I am surrounded by. 

I am going to try and start again even if I post some of my old work. I shall try to keep up with posts and comments too. I am trying. πŸ’œπŸ’œ

57 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Jane Dougherty
    Dec 16, 2017 @ 16:09:41

    I sympathize. The black hole yawns here too. I’ll keep going if you do. I pour out the stuff regardless.

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  2. ksbeth
    Dec 16, 2017 @ 16:12:40

    come back when you are ready

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  3. colinandray
    Dec 16, 2017 @ 16:14:07

    The coping with a sick child can be very distracting and emotionally draining, but life really does go on. I have a son who recently fell off the back of a truck and fractured his hips, arm and wrist. Unfortunately he is a “one-man business” doing home renovations! The same son, in his mid/late teens got involved with crack/cocaine cross-addicted with alcohol. My daughter has been fighting a brain tumor for the past 10 years and is still having trouble coping with the long term damage caused by radiation treatments.

    Life really does go on and, if only for the ongoing support and health of our offspring, we must come to terms with the circumstances and move forward. As somebody once told me very succinctly “You’re no use to your kids if you are not coping yourself!”

    Take care.

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  4. trentpmcd
    Dec 16, 2017 @ 16:16:20

    I hope the darkness goes away πŸ™‚ Very understandable not being here, though. I think there are times we all need to get away from the blogs and live in the “real” world.

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  5. pensitivity101
    Dec 16, 2017 @ 16:34:54

    Perfectly understand. I hope your son continues to improve. You can only do so much, you’ll find your way again in your own time. Thoughts are with you.

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  6. Ritu
    Dec 16, 2017 @ 16:44:10

    Sis you need to do what is right for you. Don’t let a pressure from your blog be something to worrt about. Your blog is a pleasure not a pressure and we, your followers are your friends and family too and want to see you well and happy. Love u xxx

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  7. JT Twissel
    Dec 16, 2017 @ 18:20:05

    This is a rough time of year for many people and it doesn’t help when a loved one is ill. I hope that you feel the love and concern of the many people who follow your blog..

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  8. TanGental
    Dec 16, 2017 @ 19:57:19

    I suspect, because you’ve been such an assiduous commentator and support that you feel you’ve let people down. Not at all, dear Willow. You are in so much credit the Bank of England will probably be around fro a loan and some advice. If you want my advice then bin anything and everything in your inbox and start with a clean slate. I had a break at the end of the summer which just ran on and on. Took me until I completely cleared the decks, even of people I felt I ‘owed’ for all their kind words and attention, to then start again. Think of it like a fresh start. Go back a year, maybe two and repost something, anything just to get the juices going. I did. There’s loads of good stuff in there that you’ll have forgotten you wrote. You’ll have lots of new people who’ve not seen it. Or just sit and watch the world go by until the weather improves and you feel like another go. Whatever, have a super Christmas

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    • willowdot21
      Dec 16, 2017 @ 20:21:58

      Thank you Geoff I do feel guilty but I have taken all your advice… Thank you so much. I do feel guilty for missing so much but I can’t cope and I am trying to get going again … Thank you Geoff … Happy Christmas bro you and yours too. πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸŒΉ

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  9. Judy E Martin
    Dec 16, 2017 @ 20:11:42

    I can empathise, Willow. I know that sometimes when I get behind with my blogging, I get so overwhelmed with guilt at not being able to read everything I want to, but you must look after your health, Sis.
    Start afresh whenever you are ready. We are all here for you if you need to talk, and will look forward to seeing you when you are up to it.
    I am glad your son is now on the mend, but please take some time to look after you.
    Love and hugs xxxxxπŸ’–πŸ’–

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  10. Betty Hayes Albright
    Dec 16, 2017 @ 22:38:21

    Willow, I’ve been there. Don’t feel guilty or pressured about skipping posts and comments. Sometimes we do need to just start fresh, but only when we’re ready. Take good care of yourself, my friend. That’s the important thing. We’ll still be here!
    Sending love, hugs, and empathy to you. β€οΈπŸ’•πŸ’ž

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  11. Michael
    Dec 16, 2017 @ 22:39:49

    Take care of you willow, my thoughts are with you as I know these times happen but will lift. I’ve missed you around the place but I hope you can draw a line and start again, but when you feel ready..

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  12. robbiesinspiration
    Dec 17, 2017 @ 10:25:27

    I had missed your posts, Willow. Sorry that you are feeling so low. I hope the lead up to Christmas and your son’s recovery will help lift your spirits.

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  13. noelleg44
    Dec 17, 2017 @ 14:47:20

    Dear Willow, As they say here in the South, Don’t fash yourself. Don’t worry about it. My husband just returned home from some serious back surgery and the tension and stress are still with me. It will take a while, but don’t feel bad deleting posts. I have to do it every day now that i’m the sole homekeeper inside and out, plus taking care of the Hubs’ needs. I am so glad to hear your son is mending. Take care of yourself, my dear. That’s more important. Do something just for yourself every day!

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    • willowdot21
      Dec 17, 2017 @ 16:14:36

      Oh! Noelle thanks for taking time out to write to me. I do hope your hubby’s back mends well. I can empathize because I have broken my back twice and had three operations the last time. I understand how scary it is for you both. I hope you are also taking your own advice. Thank you again, sending love!! xxxx

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  14. Hugh's Views and News
    Dec 20, 2017 @ 13:25:52

    No need to apologise dear Willow. You did the right thing by deleting all those emails. Nobody can read all the posts of the blogs they follow if they are following more than a few. It’s impossible to do. Just make sure you take good care of yourself and your family. We’ll still be here when you decide it’s time to return.
    I’m thinking about you and hoping that life gets much better for you.
    Take care
    Hugs from me.
    xx

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    • willowdot21
      Dec 20, 2017 @ 13:34:16

      Thank you Hugh, I just couldn’t cope. There is just so much going on I feel like I am in free fall. For over a month I have not been able to even read let alone blog. I felt so low but I have to make an effort now or I feel I never will again. So I drew the line and am now doing what I can. Reblogging old posts and posting what I can that’s new. Your support means so much , thank you. Everyone I follow and who follow me have been wonderful. πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œ

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