Day 3 – #musicalmarch🎵

Our Blog Sis Ritu at  But  I smile anyway has come up with another challenge for us this month Musicalmarch.

Ritu  said  : “Nothing too serious or tedious.Just a chance to share some songs! If you fancy posting a song for any reason this March, tag it #musicalmarch and link back to one of my posts so I can listen to your special songs too!

Link to Ritu’s Post

Day 3 of Musicalmarch. I love Regina Spektor   she is a Russian  singer  songwriter  and  she  writes  such  stories!!  I was introduced  to her  by  my  youngest  son  years  ago and I have loved her ever since. I have picked one of her  songs  which  usually  cheers  me up  full of  double meanings  and poking  fun  at  world leaders  and politicians. The  video is  also  brilliant  and  so I  do hope  you like it!

My First Post #myfirstpostrevisited

My dear  Blog  sister  Ritu  of But I  Smile Anyway, who is  sitting  at  home  right  now  recovering   from  nasty  bruises  and  shock  from singlehandedly  closing  the M6 at  the weekend. Thank  God no one  was  hurt.
Thank  you  for  nominating  me  Ritu  , I  don’t often  do  these  type of  posts  but  why  not!

A tag started by a blogger/writer called Sarah Brentyn, asking us to revisit our first ever blog posts!

I wrote  my  first  blog  on  June 26  2011. I  was  struggling  with  pain and  depression  while  recovering  from  breaking  my  back,  for  the second  time. I had  been in  hospital  for a long  time, I  was unable  to  work, unable  to get around  and  was watching  my  “friends” disappear like  rabbits  down a  hole! I was attending a  pain clinic  where I  was being  seen  by a pain physiologist who  suggested I ” wrote  my  feeling  down, write  my  pain  out  and  see if  that  might  help  ” Thankfully  she  had  hit the  nail on  the  head  it  did  help  and I  really  am grateful to her.

This is  my space 

This is my space, don’t intrude.

It’s all that I have left, my safe place so don’t be rude.

It is dark out there and it is a hurtful place.

Don’t come near or I shall scratch your face.

This is all that I have to call my own.

Out there it’s hurt and fear and there is no way home.

The noise out there is endless and the bullying never stops.

The insults hurt they stick like dirt and they won’t wash off with the raindrops.

The ties that bind infect my mind, self blame becomes my crown

I am lost and so confused not knowing up from down.

I will not move I am protected here.

I am warm, tired and full of fear

Self loathing gnaws at my very being.

Something watches me, something all seeing.

The voices full of reproach and disdain

Claw at my bones and all is pain.

I want to move, I need to hide

I have nothing left. No will, no pride.

I wish that I was tiny, too small to see.

I could hide and recover and maybe I could be free.

I am tired of blame and threats. I am lost and in need of a mother.

Mine is long gone sadly, you only get one, no chance of another.

Okay the rules…

Obvious rules:

• No cheating. (It must be your first post. Not your second post, not one you love…first post only.)

• Link back to the person who tagged you (thank them if you feel like it or, if not, curse them with a plague of ladybugs).

Other rules:

• Cut and paste your old post into a new post or reblog your own bad self. (Either way is fine but NO editing.)

• Put the hashtag #MyFirstPostRevisited in your title.

• Tag…um…tentwotwelve five (5) other bloggers to take up this challenge.

• Notify your tags in the comment section of their blog (don’t just hope they notice a pingback somewhere in their spam).

• Feel free to cut and paste the badge to use in your post.

• Include “the rules” in your post.

Completely silly rules that someone  made up as they typed:

• Drink a glass of wine, bottle of beer, cup of coffee, mug of herbal tea or whatever floats your boat after you hit “publish”. (In other words, toast yourself. Go you!)

• Read the post out loud in a Mickey Mouse voice.

who to  nominate 

dorindaduclos

Tess

Hugh

Kat

Lynz

 

Day 2 Musicalmarch: Running up that hill ( A Deal With God)

Our Blog Sis Ritu at  But  I smile anyway has come up with another challenge for us this month Musicalmarch.

Ritu  said  : “Nothing too serious or tedious.Just a chance to share some songs! If you fancy posting a song for any reason this March, tag it #musicalmarch and link back to one of my posts so I can listen to your special songs too!

Link to Ritu’s Post

Today  is  Day 2 of Musicalmarch, so I want to share a  song I  have loved  for  a long time , original  and  a cover  version.

I have  loved  Kate Bush  for ever  and have always felt  a connection  with her  lyrics  and music. She writes such beautiful lyrics.

Running up  the  Hill , resonates  with  my  life  the  awful feeling of  running  through  quick  sand  just  to  get  through  the day. She  explains it perfectly the hopelessness we all feel at  different  points in our life.

Apparently  I  have always misinterpreted the song, this  is  what Kate  Bush  said  about  the  it.

“I was trying to say that, really, a man and a woman, can’t understand each other because we are a man and a woman. And if we could actually swap each other’s roles, if we could actually be in each other’s place for a while, I think we’d both be very surprised! [Laughs] And I think it would lead to a greater understanding. And really the only way I could think it could be done was either… you know, I thought a deal with the devil, you know. And I thought, ‘well, no, why not a deal with God!’ You know, because in a way it’s so much more powerful the whole idea of asking God to make a deal with you. You see, for me it is still called “Deal With God”, that was its title. But we were told that if we kept this title that it would not be played in any of the religious countries, Italy wouldn’t play it, France wouldn’t play it, and Australia wouldn’t play it! Ireland wouldn’t play it, and that generally we might get it blacked purely because it had God in the title.”

Personally I  still think it  describes life’s struggles. What  do  you think?

Below  is  the  very  best of  the  many  covers of  this  beautiful  song, it is by Placebo. The  Video is  really  special!It makes  me  think   everybody struggles  with life .