It is there deep inside eating me
Devouring me whole, I can’t get free.
Taking over my body and soul
Blocking out all light it is a black hole.

I wake feeling sick, I struggle to sleep
It has me in knots I am in it’s keep.
Fear it is here creeping all over me fear
Draining me eating me a rip and a tear.

Where’ve they gone where are the years
I lost the laughter and found only tears.
This fear’s not mine but haunts me still
I can’t fight it now I have not the will.

It is there deep inside eating me
Devouring me whole, I can’t get free.
Taking over my body and soul
Blocking out all light it is a black hole.

Thank you Helen Espinosa for the video


9 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Blog Woman!!!
    Feb 01, 2016 @ 07:02:48

    I am in deep admiration, maybe it’s awe, that you have managed to find these words within the pain. My insidious blackness is a rare disease – and it’s reared up again. I have been writing forever, but nothing has come close to the feelings it can overtake me with like your words have just done.
    I am so sorry for your pain, but I am grateful for your talent.
    Take as good of care as possible. Hugs,


    • willowdot21
      Feb 01, 2016 @ 07:56:51

      Hello Robin, isn’t it strange that sometimes someone else can explain the pain better than ourselves. I try to write it out but never quite seem to pin it down. I am however glad that it rings true to you. However I would not wish the darkness on you and I hope you are not suffering too deeply right now. We carry on we always do. Thank you for reading and your kind words keep well. xxxx


  2. zumpoems
    Feb 01, 2016 @ 13:01:43

    Love that last line, especially. Excellent start to this month of February!


  3. Lynz Real Cooking
    Feb 02, 2016 @ 01:12:16

    This is amazing and describes the pain perfectly!


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