Just Fooling Around With Bee said: So today we celebrate the love we have shared with lost friends!

To those who went
The scene a cafe in town we met for a coffee. The usual kiss on the cheek coffee brought and then I ventured “What did you mean on the phone, yesterday. Why don’t you want to see my son’s wedding photos. ” Looking me straight in the eye she said ” If I am not good enough to go to the wedding I don’t want to see the photos.” It was like she had punched me in the chest the pain was immense and lasted for days. I told her I had been told I could not have any friends as the guest list was tight and as there were lots of family on my side I had to be fair and I had agreed. It was their day after all.
I am not sure how I managed to drink my coffee and chat, I left in a daze, gutted is the word. That was it the end of a twenty year friendship , three years later it still hurts .
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To F
Why did you change
What made you act so strange.
So close we had been
Through our trails we’d seen
Your words cut me like a knife
Then you walked out of my life.
The pain cut so deep , deeper than
The pain caused by any man.
I had trusted you so much
We communicated with a smile or a touch.
I was there for you when you needed me
And you had always helped when the answer I could not see.
Your words cut me like a knife
Then you walked out of my life.
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This second poem is to Karen who died from Cancer in December 2010. You may be gone Karen but I will never forget you !
To Karen
❤ ❤ ❤ ❤

Karen
I rang her each day for over a year,
I begged to come see her but she would not let me near.
We laughed with each other often but more often we cried.
I wanted to be with with her but her fears, this to me denied.
I begged her to fight it she told me she was tired
I nagged and bullied she said I was fired!
Things never got better she slipped from my grasp
I tried hard to see her but she still refused, so I did as she asked.
Then finally the day came and I got the call
At last I got to visit , not that she knew at all.
I talked of blue skies and beaches and clouds
I did not whisper I told her out loud.
She was struggling for breath then I caught her eye in a moment of clarity
I told her I loved her she flashed at me “no pity!”
Her hands were dirty her nails were lined black
Her pain and the squalor are the memories that keep coming back.
I spent four days in her company
I could not believe what I had to see.
I hated her suffering as she breathed her last,
Sadly these horrid memories stuck in my mind, the ones which I cannot get past.
It was a foggy freezing December day
When we all met at the Crematorium our goodbyes to say.
To a larger than life, loud colourful girl
Who with a flash of her eyes could set our working day in a whirl.
I sat there sobbing but she had to have the last word
“Get a grip you silly cow” were the words that I heard.
Then as her coffin disappeared for her final bow
She went out with a flourish to Queen’s ‘Don’t Stop Me Now’.
Karen 1958 – 2010
This is Just fooling around with Bee Idea for a February daily challenge! To suit her spoilt inner child…. and mine come to that so here we go! Hold on to your heart! Join in here and here
Feb 26, 2015 @ 20:54:34
Very moving…
Feb 26, 2015 @ 20:57:19
Thank you it is just about two sad points in my life …we have to move on. Thank you for reading .xxxx
Feb 27, 2015 @ 02:17:18
Sad, but this happens. I don`t understand that a friend wouldn`t get it but stories abound. ‘3 ‘3 ‘3 (my keyboard is messed up AGAIN)
Feb 27, 2015 @ 05:03:33
Thank you for sharing this pain you feel. I was moved to tears by your loss of a friend to Cancer and how a friendship died because of jealousy.
Feb 27, 2015 @ 05:51:24
Thank you Dave. These were two very painful episodes in my life. I was on pain both times but I did learn. Thanks for reading and your words. x
Feb 27, 2015 @ 06:36:47
Yes I don’t get it either but she will never forgive me and it was not my call. None of my friends went. Still that’s life.
You keyboards has a mind of it’s own like it’s owner. 😉 ❤
Feb 27, 2015 @ 09:47:31
Awesome post in many levels… Best wishes Aquileana 😀
Feb 27, 2015 @ 10:56:13
Thank you so much for reading and commenting.xxxx
Feb 27, 2015 @ 15:13:25
Am sorry for you having lost those two friends. It always hurts to let someone go who used to be close. ~Hugs~
Feb 27, 2015 @ 15:29:16
Thank you , I have lost more than two friends but these two stand out to me.
Feb 28, 2015 @ 20:25:38
❤
Feb 28, 2015 @ 20:34:23
❤
Mar 07, 2019 @ 16:03:12
Oh sis, love this ❤
Mar 07, 2019 @ 18:12:01
Both sad stories but true 💜
Mar 07, 2019 @ 18:15:08
😉🤗