Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Eleven years ago I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " not quite but with the help of a walking stick and as long as I do not stand or sit in one position for too long, I am still standing! Update I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust, I will of been married 50yrs plus this year . Pain and boredom are my enemies now, I have to find different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and
hopefully in to light ??
I need to update this a little here. I have worked very hard over the years since my accident, I go to the gym regularly, I have a Pilates class and a core class once a week . The guys at the gym and my Pilates teacher cajoled, teased, bullied and encouraged me to abandon my walking stick! :) My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and as strongly as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well.
I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits.
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18 thoughts on “Just Jot It January: Jealousy”
Question is why let him stop you? If he doesn’t support something you love something is wrong.
I do know that and I do stand up for myself. Trouble is I always gave in when I was younger so it is my own fault. But I had a life changing accident 5yrs ago and now I am a different person. Blogging saved my life and sanity and I do love it! ..I was too tired to argue last night and it was naughty of me to tell you all the reason for a short post just to make up my JuJoJan but I am stronger today!! Be well and happy and thank you for caring. ❤
As you know I’ve recently gone through a heart wrenching breakup, and I’m hopeful that I will eventually find the man of my dreams, however, THAT is one of the things I ‘don’t’ miss. LoL! 🙂
Sorry to hear one of us is being a shithead; some guys just never grow up, I guess. Just remember not all of us are like that, and your name, and spirit, is Willow, able to bend without breaking… Maybe if you occasionally allow your branches to box him about the ears, he’ll get the picture; think, Whomping Willow, like the one at Hogwarts….
Sorry to be so long in visiting; much going on, as you know, since you stop in to ECR often. For which I am always grateful…. Take care, my lady; I bet you’ll outlive the bastard…. oops! Did I say that? Oh well, anybody who gives you shit deserves all the karmic crap on his burden that is coming…..
My dear dear sir
Thank you for the kind words and advice my branches are strong and true ( even if my back is not) I have his measure! He is good in many ways but insecure. I love to receive youe visits and I also love to visit your blog as often as I can as your wisdom is always tinged with an amazing whit! I continue to be you good friend willow the straight punching poet! xxxxxxxxx ❤
Willow, you made me smile with that exclamation, ‘Men!’ It’s one that a friend of ours used to utter very often and became part of our household too. The men never really had an answer!
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Question is why let him stop you? If he doesn’t support something you love something is wrong.
I do know that and I do stand up for myself. Trouble is I always gave in when I was younger so it is my own fault. But I had a life changing accident 5yrs ago and now I am a different person. Blogging saved my life and sanity and I do love it! ..I was too tired to argue last night and it was naughty of me to tell you all the reason for a short post just to make up my JuJoJan but I am stronger today!! Be well and happy and thank you for caring. ❤
Awww Willow!! Cyber-hugs ❤
-Naima
Hugs back to you too. Xxx
You are such a trooper, Willow. Rest well. ❤
Thanks Tess hope you are well. ❤
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♡♡♡♡ Goodness!
Gracious me!! ❤
Men! Ya can’t live with ’em and ya can’t live without ’em.
So damn true
As you know I’ve recently gone through a heart wrenching breakup, and I’m hopeful that I will eventually find the man of my dreams, however, THAT is one of the things I ‘don’t’ miss. LoL! 🙂
Lol good for you. He will be out there somewhere. ❤
My dear Willow,
Sorry to hear one of us is being a shithead; some guys just never grow up, I guess. Just remember not all of us are like that, and your name, and spirit, is Willow, able to bend without breaking… Maybe if you occasionally allow your branches to box him about the ears, he’ll get the picture; think, Whomping Willow, like the one at Hogwarts….
Sorry to be so long in visiting; much going on, as you know, since you stop in to ECR often. For which I am always grateful…. Take care, my lady; I bet you’ll outlive the bastard…. oops! Did I say that? Oh well, anybody who gives you shit deserves all the karmic crap on his burden that is coming…..
Love you…. xoxo
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My dear dear sir
Thank you for the kind words and advice my branches are strong and true ( even if my back is not) I have his measure! He is good in many ways but insecure. I love to receive youe visits and I also love to visit your blog as often as I can as your wisdom is always tinged with an amazing whit! I continue to be you good friend willow the straight punching poet! xxxxxxxxx ❤
Willow, you made me smile with that exclamation, ‘Men!’ It’s one that a friend of ours used to utter very often and became part of our household too. The men never really had an answer!
Oh! He can be so infuriating at times, selfish, mean then just when I think I can kill him he turn into a Darling!! Typical … MEN!!