Well here we are another year……….. I am sorry to say yet again no special magic occurred at midnight. Famine, Hunger, Pestilence and War did not suddenly dismount and say ” Hey Death let’s call a truce , lets have some coffee and cake and sort this poor suffering planet out! ” Did they hell!
Nothing magical happened either at Christmas or New Year. The problems I was eluding to before Christmas did not suddenly disappear in a puff of “joyous goodwill to men” Did they, Bollocks!
No there is still a huge chasm of misunderstanding and raw emotions eating me up from the inside out and I hate it, I hate it I bloody hate it. I do not hate anyone involved but the longer things go on the more the feelings and rewriting of what happened grows within them. You would not believe what a petty incident caused all this out pouring of venom. Yet it has grown and spread like a cancer! I fear it is becoming incurable.
Both sides are locked in their self rightfulness, any attempts mediation on my part are met with anger and mistrust and I always come off the worse!
So there you have it Christmas was stressful, I did not make it any better because I did not want to be away, but in all honesty I tried and it had lots of good points and highs but the pain and worry was ever present.
Now I stand here at the beginning of a New Year and I feel flat, empty, desperate, bereft . I feel as if everything I so long awaited has been stolen from me ………….. I could go on and on about all the things that are eating me up believe me they are legion!
Manners stop me, I do apologize for going on but I shall publish and be damned. So Christmas Spirit where were you ? New Year magic where have you been all my life ……… eh eh ??
I also have to apologies that I got so distressed trying to wade all your wonderful posts and comments, I felt I was drowning so I have to admit to hitting the delete button but I will get through them as when I can in the reader. You may only get likes and a short comment but I love all your work everyone of you so please forgive me, for moaning and not answering all your posts!
Why did I pick the video of “Say Something? ” Because they need to talk and I can’t fix it . I love them all but they all see that as wrong……………………
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