Yesterday Jean at Social Bridge wrote a post about writing a thank you letter to your parents read here. It is beautiful and it inspired me to write a thank you letter to my sadly, long gone parents. Thank you Jean.
Dear Mum and Dad
I don’t think I ever made it clear enough how I appreciated exactly what you did for me. It is only now as a parent that I see what you must of gone through.
Nine children you had, nine, you lost three but that was never your fault. How did you cope Mum it must of been hard, and Dad worse for you because in those days grieving was not the done thing. I lost three babies too I could not openly grieve either but you knew you silently gave me strength.
How did you cope Mum and Dad how did you balance help and interference , how come you never ended not talking to each other. What do I do to bring my husband and youngest back together…. how do I get them both to cross the huge void that is screaming to be addressed!
Now look see, you have both been gone so long and I miss you both so. I need you here to give me the strength , kindness and love. See even now I am asking for your help. I am so selfish, I was so angry when you died Mum because you were not there to talk to me and help me, do you know it took 7yrs to accept that you had really gone.
Who helped you, did anyone or did you have to struggle through learning haphazardly! You no doubt had too and that is why you were both such helpful parents. I am amazed at the sacrifices you must of made to keep us in clothes, shoes and food.
Dad worked as a body maker for LT making seats on the buses! Off to work at 5am and home at 5pm for dinner 6pm the BBC News … silence reined!
Mum remember Wimbledon week we had salad every evening because you loved the Tennis , funny thing Mum I can’t stand tennis! 🙂
Well I shall close now and tell you that you gave me lots of love and good advice and support. I really hope that you were both proud of me!
I miss you and I love you !
PS. I think things are improving on the father and son front so please if you can pray that they continue to improve!!