Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Eleven years ago I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " not quite but with the help of a walking stick and as long as I do not stand or sit in one position for too long, I am still standing! Update I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust, I will of been married 50yrs plus this year . Pain and boredom are my enemies now, I have to find different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and
hopefully in to light ??
I need to update this a little here. I have worked very hard over the years since my accident, I go to the gym regularly, I have a Pilates class and a core class once a week . The guys at the gym and my Pilates teacher cajoled, teased, bullied and encouraged me to abandon my walking stick! :) My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and as strongly as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well.
I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits.
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This is very well done Willow. The poetry, the imagery, the flow, the hopelessness. And it is so dark. One of a series of very dark posts that you have published lately. Are you OK Willow?
I am okay Paul I have been so very busy this week that I have used some of my back catalogue, sadly I was in a very dark place back then.I am here I am still standing.! Thank you Paul. xxxx
Hi Naima I am so glad that you were touched by my poem, that is why we write isn’t it to reach out and touch others. I am okay I wrote this poem some years back when I was in a very bad place I am fairing better now. I hope all is good with you too. 🙂
Your words never cause me pain – they give me words to celebrate life. Without feelings, who would we be? Without feelings, how could I love? You have an amazing gift in putting words together and they are beautiful. Please, never hold back on my account. I want words straight from your heart. Those are the words I always appreciate the most. I do hope you start to feel better soon. Sheri
Thank you Sheri I am fine I am a survivor, I hope you and your hubby are well too! xx
Such beautiful words, Willow. I felt every one and especially love the title and how you use it throughout. ❤
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Wow..emotions beautifully penned!
Thank you Zara
It was my pleasure 🙂
Love it. Love it. Broken promises. 😦
“…truth wept as it lied.” ❤
"I look for hope but he also went." ❤
Fickle guys these! You need to be on your guard when they are around! ❤
Aah, Such is life. ❤
This is very well done Willow. The poetry, the imagery, the flow, the hopelessness. And it is so dark. One of a series of very dark posts that you have published lately. Are you OK Willow?
I am okay Paul I have been so very busy this week that I have used some of my back catalogue, sadly I was in a very dark place back then.I am here I am still standing.! Thank you Paul. xxxx
Reblogged this on 21 Shades of Blue.
Thank you so much I am very grateful for the reblog! xxxx
No prob, loved it!
Thank you.
I love the title, it compelled me to read this poem and it was so touching, Willow. Hope you re doing okay.
Warm regards,
-Naima
Hi Naima I am so glad that you were touched by my poem, that is why we write isn’t it to reach out and touch others. I am okay I wrote this poem some years back when I was in a very bad place I am fairing better now. I hope all is good with you too. 🙂
Thank you for asking for my well-being, Willow 🙂
Take Care.
-Naima
🙂
Reblogged this on MrMilitantNegro™.
Thank you so much so much for the reblog I am most grateful!
It was beautiful, thank you for publishing & sharing it with us.
Thank you so much.xxx
You never cease to amaze me with your ability to take my heart, wrap it up and then lay it out flat as your words walk across my soul.
Oh! I do hope my words are not causing you pain. That is never my intent. I shall tip toe on future. My thoughts are with you.
Your words never cause me pain – they give me words to celebrate life. Without feelings, who would we be? Without feelings, how could I love? You have an amazing gift in putting words together and they are beautiful. Please, never hold back on my account. I want words straight from your heart. Those are the words I always appreciate the most. I do hope you start to feel better soon. Sheri
Thank you Sheri I am fine I am a survivor, I hope you and your hubby are well too! xx
Such beautiful words, Willow. I felt every one and especially love the title and how you use it throughout. ❤
It is so painful to be let down! Thank you for reading! ❤