Hello everyone , note I am not bothering with the Italics because I shall lapse, at some point , back into normal New Roman so lets start as I mean to continue.
Sorry I am still finding it hard to write and apart from that lurking dog in the corner there I do not know why. There are a thousand feelings and fears screaming to get out of my head but they are trapped, trapped and locked in! I am ploughing through your posts and comments trying at least to keep up and keep abreast of the buzz in the hopes that my block and darkness will lift,
I am annoyed with myself because there is so much good in my life right now that I should be grateful for and busting with joy . Sadly the fact is I am not and with my poetry not even willing to help me I feel bereft. I am trying not to be on the laptop in my husbands pressence right now as he seems to think it is sapping my sanity… the truth is totally the reverse! But hey ho what do I know.
I am looking out of the kitchen window it is 7.50am and the sun is out and it it looks like it might be a dry and warm day, a rare thing at the moment. It is 1st of June and even last night we had to have the heating on! Later this morning we are going over to visit the Newbie and his mum and dad as their third wedding annaversary is this comming week. We have bought them crystal glass as tradition demands, for 3rd anniversary. I found some beautiful champagne saucers which have tiny Swarovski crystal elements used in the pattern looking for all the world like tiny diamond stars in orbit!. Well I love them and they came in a lovely black box how could I resist. My husband the much more practical one brought our son a 1050Watt all sing all dancing impact power drill…. very romantic not … but all the same very useful and I am sure it will be well used!!
Well that was about 30hrs ago and still I am finding it so hard to write, it hurts not to write, not to express myself. I do not even feel like answering my emails and usually I love to keep in touch with my friends.
Bare with me I will be be back, after all I have Little Mae and all her friends hanging on for me to rescue them! I think the Kate Bush singing Running up that hill, expresses the feeling of treading water and being bogged down in saddness. I think there is light at the end of the tunnel.
Jun 02, 2014 @ 21:18:11
Hang in there, Willow. And write if you want to write! It’s the best way to hang on to sanity, in my experience anyway.
Jun 02, 2014 @ 21:21:00
I am hanging Linda …thank you!
Jun 02, 2014 @ 21:54:52
I don’t like what you’re going through, but I “liked” the post because, sadly, I feel less alone to know that these feelings I’m having aren’t something that is so odd after all. I haven’t posted on my blog in over two weeks. I have gotten my work done–I’m a responsible girl, I always get my work done.–but I can’t find the motivation or the joy to do anything for me. I, too, have a life that has lots of good in it, and as the hectic pace of the last few months is about to give way to a little less pressure, I had hoped that I would feel free to pursue the things that I have had to desert in the past few weeks/months. I, too, want to believe in that light at the end of the tunnel. I hope we both find it–and soon. 🙂
Jun 03, 2014 @ 15:57:31
I think it always helps, Deborah when we realize we are not alone. Not the only ones feeling low and wretched take heart we will win through the sun will return and clam will prevail in our lives. xxxxxxxxxxxx
Jun 02, 2014 @ 22:36:26
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Jun 03, 2014 @ 15:55:33
❤ ❤
Jun 02, 2014 @ 22:40:37
You are being thought of, Linda. Best wishes to you during this time and all times.
Russ
Jun 03, 2014 @ 15:54:58
Thank you as always for your kind words … Russ I am not Linda lovely as that name is I am willow. xxxxx
Jun 03, 2014 @ 01:43:35
Just seeing this post makes me smile. Willow, you inspire me. I understand the need to release emotion through writing… hugs! xxx
Jun 03, 2014 @ 15:53:52
I am glad to be inspiring some one …sadly not myself but you my friend Audrey take all you need. xxxx
Jun 03, 2014 @ 16:10:42
You will get there, Willow. I just know it. xxx
Jun 03, 2014 @ 16:26:01
I guess I will too!
Jun 03, 2014 @ 01:57:00
Sending you loving thoughts and prayers, Willow.
Peace,
Eric
Jun 03, 2014 @ 15:52:34
Thank you Eic I am gathering all good wshes right now to use and climb out of this hole. xxx
Jun 03, 2014 @ 08:29:44
Maybe you should just abandon trying to respond to anyone except you! I hope time with nature will help unlock the fears and angst that seem so at odds with the sunny day. Hugs, j
Jun 03, 2014 @ 15:51:33
Thank you for your wise advise. xxxx
Jun 03, 2014 @ 20:52:14
Just hope it helps, jx
Jun 03, 2014 @ 20:53:16
I am sure it will. xxx
Jun 03, 2014 @ 20:55:23
Good!
Jun 03, 2014 @ 11:50:53
GREAT BIG HUGS, from across the pond. I don’t know what else to say so I’m sending virtual hugs for you. 🙂
Jun 03, 2014 @ 15:50:41
Thank you so much it is appreciated!!xxxxxx
Jun 03, 2014 @ 12:23:00
I feel for you. I do. Wish I had something useful to say which would help. I do not. Look after yourself, Willow. You are number one. You are important. You will see the light at the end of the tunnel. Hope it will be soon. ❤ ❤ ❤
Jun 03, 2014 @ 15:49:47
Thank you for the support I am sorry to winge but I shall not give in or give up. Lets hope that is the light at the end of the tunnel and not the Orient Express!! ❤ ❤ ❤
Jun 03, 2014 @ 17:30:01
Not the Orient Express. I’m honking on the floor. I didn’t see that coming. Oops. No pun intended. Snort. Giggle. Gasp. ❤ x 1000
Jun 03, 2014 @ 18:00:50
you are a tonic a grin and tonic … no typo!
Jun 03, 2014 @ 20:41:34
Thank you. I take that as a compliment and don’t mind if I do. ❤
Jun 03, 2014 @ 20:42:28
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Jun 03, 2014 @ 20:51:08
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Jun 03, 2014 @ 20:55:13
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Jun 04, 2014 @ 19:02:44
Maybe I should get wallpaper like that…
Jun 04, 2014 @ 19:49:04
🙂 it would be a talking point!
Jun 04, 2014 @ 21:17:54
ha ha ha ha ha ha ha ha choke
Jun 03, 2014 @ 17:11:19
Lisa has chosen our last minute theme “HOPE”….. for Eva for Thursday, June 5, 2014. Eva is having a more than difficult time and will be sitting out “all things blog” for a while.
Jun 03, 2014 @ 17:59:54
sending love to Eva!
Jun 03, 2014 @ 18:05:56
All that you radiate outwards is reflected back and amplified.
Know that love surrounds you. (Just don’t let it smother you).
XXXXXXXX
Jun 03, 2014 @ 18:18:13
Thank you Bear I shall try!
Jun 03, 2014 @ 18:27:14
Jun 05, 2014 @ 21:56:27
If only . . . we could slay the dragon once and then move on to life. If only . . . life were that simple.
Jun 05, 2014 @ 22:14:55
yes if only !