A little Tenderness Part 5

It is  dark and they are coming to get me ………. I hear the footsteps in my  ears , then a gun shot. BANG! Oh! help  my eyes  fly open  and I am in bed on the ward. The  footsteps  and the gun  shot  come  from  my Ipod and the book I am listening to. I had dozed off again. I am so stiff if only I could turn over  but as ever I am trapped in this brace.

My husband  had downloaded some   James Patterson, books on to  my  Ipod and mostly I am enjoying them just  every so often I loose  my hold on reality  and it all turns into a nightmare. I am not sure of the time, it all regimented in here but also very easy to loose all sense of time.

When  did I get  here  which  ward am I on, I can’t  hear Gwen calling  for Angela. Think  willow, think where am I  did I move……… Yes I  did  that Nurse upset  me, the one with the funny name she really  stressed  me out.

I get  so upset and I cry easily, I am not like  that.  I do not  cry at the drop of a hat. I try hard  not to but it just happens. When  is  my  operation, no one will tell me , I wonder why !

The story  is  getting  very scary  again, this man has is stalking Detective Cross and his family  they are all in  danger, am I in danger .  I just wish I knew which ward I am in  and  where I am.

Will I run free, OH! God  will I ever walk again…………………….

 

10 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Audrey Dawn - Oldest Daughter Redheaded Sister
    Mar 21, 2014 @ 22:50:08

    What a window, my friend. xxxx

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  2. Let's CUT the Crap!
    Mar 21, 2014 @ 23:56:25

    I like how you mixed the reading of the book and waking only not to know exactly what’s going on. Which is more real? This is terrific because I can feel the panic.
    🙂

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    • willowdot21
      Mar 22, 2014 @ 08:20:55

      I was panicking practically all the time. It was the uncertaincy nobody took any time to explain what was going on or how the morphine would affect me. Thank goodness just memories bit I still feel the panic and confusion. Consequently I do not think back unless I really have to. Writing this is in a way exorcizing it all. Have a great trip , pictures please. !!!

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  3. penpusherpen
    Mar 22, 2014 @ 09:40:30

    You’ve perfectly described the caught between fact and fiction, Sweet Willow, panic wise, where fact is one place you don’t want to be at that time.. Warmest of hugs, always xxPenxx

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    • willowdot21
      Mar 23, 2014 @ 16:50:32

      It was horrid Pen I felt like Alice lost in, not-so-wonderland. I never knew what was around the corner and I knew really in those early days knew what was real and what was not!………. Hugs Pen! xxx

      Reply

  4. Underground Energy
    Mar 22, 2014 @ 15:11:41

    I’m going through this exact thing right now recovering from ARDS. I walked 150 feet yesterday all by myself. The panic is the worst when you wake up. Thanks for sharing. I don’t feel so alone.

    Reply

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