Sitting under the bed watching and judging me
Why do I do this what is the point, is there a reason
My nails scratch my back till it bleeds, it’s for no one else to see
I scratch till I bleed, it helps me cope with what is wrong.
I am worthless I am useless and very stupid.
Go on says the monster, scratch your back or your arms or even your legs
Do it now go on deeper watch the blood flow just make sure the scars are hid!
Rip your pain out, guts and gore, you are worth nothing. No more than the dregs!
I can no longer fight you monster under the bed.
You have worn me down I feel so worthless.
Yes you have won, I am convinced you have entered my head!
I can no longer fight, no longer repel, here I am ready for your viscous caress!
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Feb 09, 2014 @ 13:44:52
always there, always ready to gloat and gain the upperhand, you have described this feeling so well, Sweet Willow. hugs aplenty xPenx
Feb 09, 2014 @ 14:01:52
Thanks Pen he is a swine isn’t he
Feb 09, 2014 @ 16:38:59
He most certainly is horrible, wouldn’t you know plenty of us feel that pain daily. I’ve been feeling “broken” for the past 5 years, is that ever gonna change now or should I just lie down quietly in the dark, bottle of pills ready to wash down with a bottle of bourbon?
Feb 09, 2014 @ 17:02:34
No, never let him realize he has won….. okay I let him win in the poem but in real life I fight the ba*****d! I self harm I scratch my back until it bleeds …STUPID or what yes I know and I am not a young woman or a teenager I am old enough to know better. But I keep going I keep fighting no Dave don’t roll over for him …. he is a coward you know! xxxx
Feb 09, 2014 @ 18:56:48
I love the way you personify the pain and it truly feels as though she is slowly being consumed by the fear and the doubts, it’s wonderful.
Feb 09, 2014 @ 19:00:23
Thank you I do try! 😉
Feb 11, 2014 @ 19:12:03
Wow, this is very moving. We do take the monsters into our minds, don’t we?
Feb 11, 2014 @ 19:38:22
Yes I think we all have monsters under the bed! xxx
Feb 11, 2014 @ 19:42:18
Better under the bed than in our hearts.
Feb 11, 2014 @ 20:04:08
Yes that conjures up a frightening picture…monsters in our hearts.