Sorry everyone.
Author: willowdot21
Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Eleven years ago I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " not quite but with the help of a walking stick and as long as I do not stand or sit in one position for too long, I am still standing! Update I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust, I will of been married 50yrs plus this year . Pain and boredom are my enemies now, I have to find different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and hopefully in to light ?? I need to update this a little here. I have worked very hard over the years since my accident, I go to the gym regularly, I have a Pilates class and a core class once a week . The guys at the gym and my Pilates teacher cajoled, teased, bullied and encouraged me to abandon my walking stick! :) My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and as strongly as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well. I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits. View all posts by willowdot21
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Dearest Willow,
No need to be sorry. Everyone has been there at one time or another. (Or many times.) You have the courage to say when things are bothering you. Nothing to apologize for!
Here is too a New Year we have come through the dark lets hope into the light.!
I totally hear you there, Willow! It’s good to be 2013 behind us. It’s one year I will be happy to have in the past! Here’s to a better 2014. 🙂 Best wishes to you and yours in the new year!
Hugs and love to you and yours too!!
Merry Christmas! *Warm hugs*!
Thank you and many many hugs and good wishes back at you for the New Year!
Merry Christmas and a very Happy New Year to you.
and the same to you my dear friend!
Sorry? Don’t understand, Willow, but I definitely definitely hope you are okay.
This was a lovely video. Thank you.
Noeleen
Christmas Day. Merry Christmas.
Don’t worry about me I can cope! hugs to you and Danielxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
Happy Christmas to you too!!!! 🙂
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Thank you for giving to us the gift of sharing the truth of feelings you are having at this time of year, Willow. I’m glad that you are reaching out, and am honored to be one of the people who you trust enough to speak your truth. You are in my thoughts.
Russ
Thank you Russ I am grateful for the understanding and kind advice , often veiled advice, you have offered over the year and especially this last month. God bless you and yours and may 2014 be very good to you!
Merry Christmas!
And you and a Happy New Year, sorry I must of missed this one! 😉 xxxx
Your turn 🙂 …….should you wish to accept this mission..
Okay I am nearly out of of my deep dark December blues lets go for New beginnings and reflections on the old !The Old year is dead Long live the New Year!….. I am back in the game!
I think you’ve about covered Christmas in several posts, Willow.
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I think so , the good the bad and the ugly!