I am a grown up, I must be, look at my age
But I self harm just like a teenager , it must be all the rage!
I don’t cut but I scratch until I bleed
I make sure it does not show, no to show is not a need.
I do it because I hate myself, because I am so unsure
Sometimes it is the only thing that helps me life to endure.
Right now I feel I am loosing the tenuous grip I hold on life
There seems to be only fine lines and they all lead to strife.
I really should be passed all this,I am a grown up woman
But when things get fraught I scratch because I can.
I do not want to do this I am ashamed to admit
I hope that if I write it down, I find a way to stop it.
This is not my back but it could be
Why do I do this, what is wrong with me.
I know I am not alone many struggle with this curse
I want to find the strength to stop and not get worse.
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I feel the need to face up to this as I have now been chewing my fingers… I have never attacked my hands before.
I have found this on the web Dermatillomania does anyone know about it .
