EvDaDaDec : Virtual Sanctuary

Don’t take  away  my only  hope, do not  deprive me of my only  light

This is such an awful  thought  to own up to, it denies me sleep at  night.

It  is my only  solace, escape  from  stress, fear  and noise

It is where I can be  myself  , my sanctuary where I live  my  virtual joys.

 

So  tired of  solving  problems  that  really have no solutions

Wondering which way  the day will go , is it worth rising and doing my  ablutions?

Christmas  is a nightmare  which I could truly  live without

Spending  days just  seconds from causing  another  fight, I truly  feel I can’t  endure  another  mental bout!

 

Why  have I tried  so long, to walk on  broken glass, to keep everyone  happy  and together.

It  doesn’t  work. I am to blame for all the angst  and grief and I have ever succeeded, no never.

The  metaphorical blood I have shed  can  float  nightmares on it stormy surface.

I am forever  drowning , slipping beneath the waves , my poetry my  lifeline, life’s saving grace.

 

So  what will be, will be, I cannot  foresee the future. When it is constantly  being changed.

No point in making plans that I cannot honour , for whatever is said today, tomorrow will be rearranged.

So here I sit  tired and sad with words  clamoring in my  head

Shall I escape  to virtual peace  or just return to bed ?

 

15 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. idiotwriter
    Dec 02, 2013 @ 14:25:51

    words I am sure many relate to.

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  2. Vefday
    Dec 03, 2013 @ 07:34:46

    I truly appreciate these heart felt words. Beautiful images.

    Reply

  3. Deborah
    Dec 03, 2013 @ 09:07:38

    You capture what has happened for so many. The unrealistic expectations for some imagined bliss that can be brought about by a magical day on the calendar. Hopes raised by commercialism and by the false hopes of family togetherness (like if it doesn’t happen the rest of the year, why now?) are dashed over and over as the frantic preparations begin. And no one is ever happy. So the one who tries to bring the fantasy to life for those who still so desperately want it is in a no-win situation. Yeah, it sucks! I live somewhere where I just go to work on Christmas and it’s like another day. I am so grateful I no longer have to pretend to create a miracle.

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    • willowdot21
      Dec 03, 2013 @ 09:33:21

      Deborah thank goodness you understand what I am saying….every year it a total nightmare!!Every yer it gets harder.the commercialism has got so out of hand . Sadly it is all want want want and I doubt many young people know what the true meaning of Christmas is ! OH! Baa Humbug!!

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      • Deborah
        Dec 03, 2013 @ 09:38:09

        So true, and the worst part of the commercialism is that no matter how much some people get at this time of the year, it’s never enough. Lust for stuff becomes a bottomless pit.

      • willowdot21
        Dec 03, 2013 @ 09:46:07

        Yes so true and all the tripe they push at us of magic and perfect families all happy sorry I no longer buy it ! Here is what my favourite singer songwriter has to say on the matter I will find on with the lyrics for you!!

      • willowdot21
        Dec 03, 2013 @ 09:49:41

        Yes it get worse and worse, and all the “perfect Family, perfect day, perfect present sorry it just makes it worse! Here is what a favourite singer song writer has to say on the subject lyrics on screen

  4. Deborah
    Dec 03, 2013 @ 10:27:24

    Wow! That says it quite well! I’m going to hold on to this one. Thanks for passing this on. I’m going to explore more of her work.

    Reply

  5. bearspawprint
    Dec 04, 2013 @ 16:17:29

    😦

    Reply

  6. bearspawprint
    Dec 04, 2013 @ 16:18:03

    XXOO

    Reply

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