Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Eleven years ago I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " not quite but with the help of a walking stick and as long as I do not stand or sit in one position for too long, I am still standing! Update I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust, I will of been married 50yrs plus this year . Pain and boredom are my enemies now, I have to find different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and
hopefully in to light ??
I need to update this a little here. I have worked very hard over the years since my accident, I go to the gym regularly, I have a Pilates class and a core class once a week . The guys at the gym and my Pilates teacher cajoled, teased, bullied and encouraged me to abandon my walking stick! :) My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and as strongly as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well.
I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits.
View all posts by willowdot21
Truly awesome. Totally admire the anxiety, fear & hopelessness by the one experiencing it. Creepy, simply creepy. Though I can’t stop thinking about a mosquito during the night when I read this poem. 😀
Yes I can see that a nasty little buzzing bug could just as mind gnawing!!I pleased that you , well I am not sure like is the right word?, but I am it moved you to comment! Hope you are having a good day!
Don’t mind my last comment, it was a silly effort to deliver humor. Putting that aside I really like your piece, it is indeed very scary & very well delivered. Keep it up! 😀
I shall try, and I understood your humour! 🙂
How ghoulishly written Willowdot but guess what? I like it 🙂 I also like the graphics that you have added especially the first one, that would look good on my Space, but alas it is a copyrighted piece, but never mind 🙂
Hey you are adding some rather dark postings lately, so much so that I wonder if I am in the right Space sometimes. You write well and always please your reader base with everything that you add, which is perfect I think 🙂
Have a wonderful Wednesday Willowdot and be good, like me 😉
Hi Andro, thank you for your support I really appreciate it. Yes I suppose my mood has been darker of late. I think it reflects how I feel. Doing this blog can cause contention at home ‘in the real world’ But my blog is mine and to me it as precious as Gollum’s ring! Now why can’t you use the picture I used I always put a link back to the artist underneath. Both illustrations would look completely at home on your blog!!.I hope you will have a wonderful Wednesday! xxxxxx
Thank you Willowdot the graphics would look great on my Space but I try to use pictures that are in the public domain, not that I would mind giving credit to the owner should I add his / her artistry but I prefer free usage.
For instance if I added one of those pieces of art to a script that I wrote the artist might not like the connection, and I wouldn’t want to offend anyone.
Wow I am waffling on now 😦 lol I know what you mean about your blogging, and you are right to keep it for yourself my great friend. It offers you a real sense of self and whatever you add is completely of your own choosing without outside interference, which is lovely 🙂
Have a wonderful rest of
Wednesday my dear friend 🙂
Andro xxxx
Hi Andro, I have had what for me, an incredibly busy day. I have just sat down at 4.30pm … tired but proud of myself! … now who is waffling 🙂 I am having a good day and I really hope you are too!! 🙂 xxxx
That’s lovely Willowdot, it is always a nice feeling when we have enjoyed a good day to just sit down and enjoy those thoughts 🙂
I have had a lazy day today my great friend 🙂
Andro xxxx
Good we need those too so we can appreciate the busy one!! 😉 xxx
I have some yummy chocolates
waiting for you on my Space 🙂 lol
Andro xxxx
I had best investigate that!! 😉
Yes and drool if you like? 🙂
I certainly did as I am on a
diet 😦 lmao
Willow, I’m assuming it’s a thriving thriller of self conflicting realities that are illusive too… but, it’s giving me a glossing over of wickedness — something I can’t connect to you. Share your feelings regarding this. xo
I sometimes feel that my fears will consume me, I can almost see them sometimes so large do they loom. Sometimes I do not think of them at all, but when I have doubts they leap out from the shadows. ….. Silly but true.
it’s not silly doll… its natural but, if I know a little about you, you’re a strong & determined mind to keep seeking understanding & resolutions ~ right ?
Thank you , yes I am seeking to understand and confront my fears!
Nice, raw, and in your face. I like the vulnerability you express, and your rhyming works, it does not feel forced.
Thanks I am glad that you have got everything from this poem that I really wanted the reader to get! I do try to get the flow when writing it is not always easy but I try! Hope you are well and happy.
Oh Willow, you speak so much to be free so often in your posts. This one’s a horror show. Especially eating the soul out of you. Gee you concern me sometimes. I really, really hope you are ok. I know I’ve said it before & you say you are, but hell, this is horrible! (but good writing!)
I am with 12 years of experience and ready to achieve any type of works such as, converting any form from JPG, PDF, ...etc into Excel,Word, PowerPoint and other editable forms, In addition to having a deep experience in inserting and managing data
willowdot21 
Wow, that’s scary…
Yes it was , I am a little scared of it myself.. eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeek!!!! 😉
Truly awesome. Totally admire the anxiety, fear & hopelessness by the one experiencing it. Creepy, simply creepy. Though I can’t stop thinking about a mosquito during the night when I read this poem. 😀
Yes I can see that a nasty little buzzing bug could just as mind gnawing!!I pleased that you , well I am not sure like is the right word?, but I am it moved you to comment! Hope you are having a good day!
Don’t mind my last comment, it was a silly effort to deliver humor. Putting that aside I really like your piece, it is indeed very scary & very well delivered. Keep it up! 😀
I shall try, and I understood your humour! 🙂
How ghoulishly written Willowdot but guess what? I like it 🙂 I also like the graphics that you have added especially the first one, that would look good on my Space, but alas it is a copyrighted piece, but never mind 🙂
Hey you are adding some rather dark postings lately, so much so that I wonder if I am in the right Space sometimes. You write well and always please your reader base with everything that you add, which is perfect I think 🙂
Have a wonderful Wednesday Willowdot and be good, like me 😉
Andro xxxx
Hi Andro, thank you for your support I really appreciate it. Yes I suppose my mood has been darker of late. I think it reflects how I feel. Doing this blog can cause contention at home ‘in the real world’ But my blog is mine and to me it as precious as Gollum’s ring! Now why can’t you use the picture I used I always put a link back to the artist underneath. Both illustrations would look completely at home on your blog!!.I hope you will have a wonderful Wednesday! xxxxxx
Thank you Willowdot the graphics would look great on my Space but I try to use pictures that are in the public domain, not that I would mind giving credit to the owner should I add his / her artistry but I prefer free usage.
For instance if I added one of those pieces of art to a script that I wrote the artist might not like the connection, and I wouldn’t want to offend anyone.
Wow I am waffling on now 😦 lol I know what you mean about your blogging, and you are right to keep it for yourself my great friend. It offers you a real sense of self and whatever you add is completely of your own choosing without outside interference, which is lovely 🙂
Have a wonderful rest of
Wednesday my dear friend 🙂
Andro xxxx
Hi Andro, I have had what for me, an incredibly busy day. I have just sat down at 4.30pm … tired but proud of myself! … now who is waffling 🙂 I am having a good day and I really hope you are too!! 🙂 xxxx
That’s lovely Willowdot, it is always a nice feeling when we have enjoyed a good day to just sit down and enjoy those thoughts 🙂
I have had a lazy day today my great friend 🙂
Andro xxxx
Good we need those too so we can appreciate the busy one!! 😉 xxx
I have some yummy chocolates
waiting for you on my Space 🙂 lol
Andro xxxx
I had best investigate that!! 😉
Yes and drool if you like? 🙂
I certainly did as I am on a
diet 😦 lmao
Andro xxxx
This I have to see I am on my right now!
Arrrrrgh! – That’s horrid – creepy indeed.
Why thank you !! 😉 xxxxx
Riveting! “Horrifically” beautiful!
Thank you so much!! 😉
Willow, I’m assuming it’s a thriving thriller of self conflicting realities that are illusive too… but, it’s giving me a glossing over of wickedness — something I can’t connect to you. Share your feelings regarding this. xo
I sometimes feel that my fears will consume me, I can almost see them sometimes so large do they loom. Sometimes I do not think of them at all, but when I have doubts they leap out from the shadows. ….. Silly but true.
it’s not silly doll… its natural but, if I know a little about you, you’re a strong & determined mind to keep seeking understanding & resolutions ~ right ?
Thank you , yes I am seeking to understand and confront my fears!
Nice, raw, and in your face. I like the vulnerability you express, and your rhyming works, it does not feel forced.
Thanks I am glad that you have got everything from this poem that I really wanted the reader to get! I do try to get the flow when writing it is not always easy but I try! Hope you are well and happy.
It is very scary but The description is very vivid.
Thank you that is what I wanted to get over. Xx
Oh Willow, you speak so much to be free so often in your posts. This one’s a horror show. Especially eating the soul out of you. Gee you concern me sometimes. I really, really hope you are ok. I know I’ve said it before & you say you are, but hell, this is horrible! (but good writing!)
Honest Noeleen I am fine. I need to write the horrors out.