Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Eleven years ago I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " not quite but with the help of a walking stick and as long as I do not stand or sit in one position for too long, I am still standing! Update I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust, I will of been married 50yrs plus this year . Pain and boredom are my enemies now, I have to find different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and
hopefully in to light ??
I need to update this a little here. I have worked very hard over the years since my accident, I go to the gym regularly, I have a Pilates class and a core class once a week . The guys at the gym and my Pilates teacher cajoled, teased, bullied and encouraged me to abandon my walking stick! :) My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and as strongly as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well.
I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits.
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Thank you and I will add this
one to my gifts page straight
away 🙂 🙂 😉
Andro xxxx
I am delighted to hear and now I must away to bed as I am worn out !! God bless and good night!! xxxx
God Bless dear Willowdot,
and sweet dreams my
great friend 🙂 🙂
Andro xxxx
Thank you 😉
Many years ago, I spent four years in the police force – often attending to domestic violence cases.
Sad and horrible – the women mostly holding out hope and grasp at straws. The cycle repeats – he beats, makes up, great sex – quiets down, then it starts again.
Yes Eric, I do feel so sorry for those little mice too. But I was referring to those suffering from mental abuse. Being ground down and mentally knocked back and and bullied every day. The cuts and scratches I referred to are self inflicted , her only defense, her one thing she has power over . These are the quiet ones who smile and carry one but their eyes belie their mouths. Have a good day and thank you for reading!!
Oh, looks like I missed the ‘mental abuse’ aspect – I do apologise for the oversight.
If I might share. During those domestic violence cases – I also noticed the emotional abuse inflicted by both spouses on one another. The man lashes out and is arrested. But the woman who provokes – gets away scot free as the law does not recognise emotional violence.
I’m not for a moment defending violent physically abusive men – there is no excuse for this! But both men and women can be victims of emotional violence.
However, I am no expert but was only a cop —- so, I’m probably wrong in my assessment.
Yes Eric I do see what you are saying . Also I know that some women physically and mentally abuse their partners. It is often so much harder for a man who maybe twice the size of his partner to admit that she is terrorizing and abusing him! Why are we human’s so evil to each other. We all need to help each other and accept that all is not always just as it appears! …. you may not of been wrong at all. sadly nothing is ever black or white. xx
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willowdot21 
poor little mousie!
Yes she has had it hard but she will win out!!
The courage of a mouse is remarkable
and as for change we know where that
change needs to be…
Be well my great friend 🙂 🙂
Andro xxxx
Thank you Andro the mouse is waving to you! 😉
And I am waving back also 😉
Andro xxxx
😉 thanks !!
🙂 😉
You’re welcome dear Willowdot 🙂
Andro xxxx
😉 😉
🙂 😉 🙄
Andro xxxx
😉 😉 :D;D:D
🙂 🙂 🙂 lol
Andro xxxx
we must stop smiling like this!!
I know, peeps will start talking but guess what? I don’t care a jot and besides I like smiling at you so there 😉 lol
Andro xxxx
Well thank you sir knight I do not care either and I hand you my favour https://encrypted-tbn1.gstatic.com/images?q=tbn:ANd9GcS6uzrpKNXpm-XiBd7pozYKws3sniWF8-x28UvvZ-7roMENUUF0yA
Thank you and I will add this
one to my gifts page straight
away 🙂 🙂 😉
Andro xxxx
I am delighted to hear and now I must away to bed as I am worn out !! God bless and good night!! xxxx
God Bless dear Willowdot,
and sweet dreams my
great friend 🙂 🙂
Andro xxxx
Thank you 😉
Many years ago, I spent four years in the police force – often attending to domestic violence cases.
Sad and horrible – the women mostly holding out hope and grasp at straws. The cycle repeats – he beats, makes up, great sex – quiets down, then it starts again.
Poor little mousies of the world – so sad.
Yes Eric, I do feel so sorry for those little mice too. But I was referring to those suffering from mental abuse. Being ground down and mentally knocked back and and bullied every day. The cuts and scratches I referred to are self inflicted , her only defense, her one thing she has power over . These are the quiet ones who smile and carry one but their eyes belie their mouths. Have a good day and thank you for reading!!
Oh, looks like I missed the ‘mental abuse’ aspect – I do apologise for the oversight.
If I might share. During those domestic violence cases – I also noticed the emotional abuse inflicted by both spouses on one another. The man lashes out and is arrested. But the woman who provokes – gets away scot free as the law does not recognise emotional violence.
I’m not for a moment defending violent physically abusive men – there is no excuse for this! But both men and women can be victims of emotional violence.
However, I am no expert but was only a cop —- so, I’m probably wrong in my assessment.
Yes Eric I do see what you are saying . Also I know that some women physically and mentally abuse their partners. It is often so much harder for a man who maybe twice the size of his partner to admit that she is terrorizing and abusing him! Why are we human’s so evil to each other. We all need to help each other and accept that all is not always just as it appears! …. you may not of been wrong at all. sadly nothing is ever black or white. xx
Love the playfulness! Very nicely done!
🙂 Thanks