19 Jun 2013 54 Comments
in Uncategorized Tags: anguish, controlling, mental cruelty
You break my will and you don’t even know
When I tell you this you say it is not so.
You never recall the things you said or did
Sadly I do but they are safe, in a box with a strong lid.
Many and ugly are the mental scars I have carried
Like a cat with a mouse my feelings you harried .
Times have been when I have shaken like a leaf
You have stolen what is me . I want my self worth back you thief!
If we were having coffee , every Sunday
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willowdot21 
Jun 19, 2013 @ 14:24:55
The upswing ending, ‘give it back’, tells the tale of strength and purpose, Willow. mental cruelty is a cowards tool. One could wish they felt the sting of it themselves. Good and powerful read my friend. hugs aplenty, always xPenx
Jun 19, 2013 @ 17:28:35
Yes Pen controlling bullies are the worst but stand up to them and they often crumble! Hugs eternal.xxxxx
Jun 19, 2013 @ 14:28:40
Expressive!
Jun 19, 2013 @ 17:26:39
Thank you!
Jun 19, 2013 @ 14:44:08
capturing pain and painting a vivid picture is what you do so well…
always making one feel as well as see the words you put to canvas…
such talent…no…you are gifted…
Take Care…
)0(
ladyblue
Jun 19, 2013 @ 17:24:56
I want people to feel, to empathize these are situations I have lived through , in the past gone but not quite forgotten. Thank you for your kind words!
Jun 19, 2013 @ 15:31:45
I like this… x
Does it have personal meaning…I know this is a daft question.
Some type for the sake of typing..
xx
Jun 19, 2013 @ 17:05:51
I never type for the sake of typing, I never say anything I do not believe or mean 100%. I have been in the place the poem talks of other wise I would not of written it. 🙂 I have lived Shaun sometimes it has been awful sometimes it has been better! 😉
Jun 19, 2013 @ 17:22:54
I guessed so Willow. But I thought I would ask. And yeah, you have lived. I am a great believer in “We all have a story to tell”
Just asking and thanks for being cool about it 🙂
xx
Jun 19, 2013 @ 17:49:00
No point in being anything else. Be well chick be well 😉
Jun 19, 2013 @ 18:05:10
Chick lol…
I am always well..
I just have moments I hate…
And Ditto.. x
Jun 19, 2013 @ 18:05:58
😉
Jun 19, 2013 @ 18:08:52
( * ) ( * ) Two Oranges
Beat that 🙂
Jun 19, 2013 @ 18:16:49
c *#*3 ❤ HANIBAL LECTER AND A HEART HIS DINNER!
Jun 20, 2013 @ 03:33:09
HA HA HA actually see that 🙂
Smart pants lol
Jun 20, 2013 @ 05:39:06
@ ~_~@ big headphones 😉
Jun 20, 2013 @ 07:39:31
YOU ARE JUST BEING A SMART ARSE NOW. 🙂
HA HA HA ..
I SHALL OUT DO YOU THIS DAY…
>>>Disconnects Internet and hides<<<<
lol
Jun 20, 2013 @ 07:45:05
It’s good to know I am getting something right!! 😉
Jun 20, 2013 @ 08:15:22
😦
lol
Jun 20, 2013 @ 08:55:09
lol
Jun 20, 2013 @ 09:09:31
I shall prevail in the emot game to the death…
lol
Jun 20, 2013 @ 09:31:21
I have to go out soon but for now 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=( 😉 :o) //:=) :(n ;( //:=(
Jun 20, 2013 @ 09:42:31
You Win 😦
Jun 20, 2013 @ 18:10:38
hehehehehe I was not even trying!! 😉 xxxxx
Jun 20, 2013 @ 20:50:57
I was out of breath and bought 12 books with emots!!
🙂
Jun 20, 2013 @ 20:54:57
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Jun 20, 2013 @ 20:58:10
To be fair these are just random emots with lots of font lol, lots of copy and pasting here 🙂
I see patterns in things..
Like, say, curtains
Jun 20, 2013 @ 21:00:02
A war time german leader??
Jun 20, 2013 @ 21:08:37
What has Paul von Hindenburg got to do with it 😉
Jun 20, 2013 @ 21:11:38
hehehehe ! I am off to bed in a minute, it has been a long day!! Hugs!!
Jun 20, 2013 @ 21:20:13
I am sitting with one eye open here…. lol
SHATTERED!! But won’t give in till 12. 🙂
Jun 20, 2013 @ 21:22:23
night night 😉 xx
Jun 20, 2013 @ 21:29:56
You woke me up for this? lol
G’night 🙂
Jun 20, 2013 @ 21:38:12
Yup!!
Jun 20, 2013 @ 22:37:47
Arg…you just made me blog!!! About sleep!
Jun 21, 2013 @ 17:33:29
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Jun 21, 2013 @ 17:43:07
ha ha
Jun 21, 2013 @ 17:45:46
🙂
Jun 19, 2013 @ 21:13:42
Beautifully written Willow. It has to be one of the most frustrating experiences we can go through and then.. when there is a denial that it is even happening and our feelings are ‘crazy’ or ‘paranoid’.. *growls*
Jun 19, 2013 @ 21:15:35
Yes but I know from experience that very rarely are we wrong or going mad … we need to snap back! Thank you for reading!xxxxx
Jun 19, 2013 @ 21:20:15
You’re welcome!! xox
Jun 19, 2013 @ 21:21:17
😉 love your email title!! 😉
Jun 19, 2013 @ 21:30:10
Remind me again?
Jun 19, 2013 @ 21:33:28
r_kellys_lover
Jun 19, 2013 @ 22:27:25
LOL! I’ve had that since was 16 or perhaps 17, that’s almost 18 years! I changed emails over this morning @ about 5am so that I could manage the filters a bit better 🙂
#Observant! lol
Jun 19, 2013 @ 22:40:14
It just made me smile 😉
Jun 19, 2013 @ 22:44:26
Oh I loved him so!! My goodness, I had every single one of his albums, and had my mother up in arms about my ‘music selection’ at the age of 14.
*blank stares*… lol
Jun 19, 2013 @ 22:59:17
I remember my parents desperate attempts to steer me away from the Rolling Stones…
Jun 19, 2013 @ 23:25:02
Oh!! Lol. Oh the days!
Jun 19, 2013 @ 23:46:37
Yes long ago and far away 🙂
Jun 19, 2013 @ 21:59:43
“When I tell you this you say it is not so.
You never recall the things you said or did” — Makes one wonder if it is on purpose to make us feel as if we are the ones who are paranoid or projecting or delusional or if that casual and not so casual cruelty is/was so unimportant to them that we are petty mean spirited beings to even notice and are supposed to view ourselves as vengeful and malice filled to remember at all. Sigh. Oh well. It is not true. To have loved is not itself a personal flaw. In order to remember the best of love we are also aware of the heartbreak too.
Jun 19, 2013 @ 22:16:20
You are spot on, especially when you say they dismiss us as petty and mean minded to remember, they even need to control our memories. They are so convinced of how right and perfect they are. As far as they are concerned they are perfect and we are just nasty and selfish. But they are wrong. I am so pleased that you understand so well what I am saying. Thanks. Xx
Jun 19, 2013 @ 23:16:54
You said it so beautifully, how could I not understand. — Here is a quote from DearHusband when he made a GREAT effort to be understanding and thoughtful: “What are you going on about now?” . —- Hahahaha
Jun 19, 2013 @ 23:48:07
Men, you got to love them…. Seriously someone has to!