In the silence little mouse could hear heart beating
Terrified she hid by the cabinet in the dark with the seconds fleeting.
She held her breath hoping against hope that she was magically invisible
Unseen to the human eye but she knew there was no hiding from the inevitable .
His figure was standing in the door now looking straight at her now, fear bites.
He is shouting now,pulling her up to her feet! Pressure on her wrists, pushing her fear to new heights.
“What is this , what is this” he screams his eyes bulging his mouth wide, nostrils flaring.
Running his finger along the glass shelf “Dust, dust” shoving a dusty finger toward her, scaring
Her witless, she finds it hard to breath. He pushes her towards the cabinet with the dirty shelf.
It is three in the morning and she is so tired the little ones had run her ragged all day
The house work and cooking , his returning home late to find her tired, not wanting to play.
“What the hell do you do all day” he was shaking her now she did not know what to say.
Tears stung her eyes as she fought to hold them back , suddenly she dropped a glass…….. it broke with a crack.
There it was all in the eyes. Little mouse froze to say something now would be unwise.
“Clear up that glass then get those shelves dusted and while your at it make sure nothing else gets busted.”
Little mouse knew not to argue, even though she was tired , she wanted sleep but she obediently dusted.
A little relieved she watched him go back to bed , his words of her short falls all ringing in her head.
An hour later she crept up the stairs, checked on the babies all asleep, happily unaware. Gently and silently she slid into bed.
Peace, then the gift of sleep drifters into her head,tomorrow it will all start again and that thought alone fills her with dread.
willowdot21 
May 08, 2013 @ 15:27:03
Sadly, this is the case more than often in today’s society. Bliss to pain, joy to tears. It’s the innocent ones though that hurt the most.
May 08, 2013 @ 15:37:33
Yes relationships are a mine field and a controlling relationship is the worst. Mental abuse in a marriage is far more destructive than a physically abusive one. The scars are deeper and easily hidden. It is a sad world we inhabit xx
May 08, 2013 @ 22:00:48
Sad indeed, At that point what’s the reason to try still right? should move on and try to save what’s real that’s left. If that makes sense?
May 09, 2013 @ 12:09:12
Yes she should move on but sometimes the victim is too scared to move on, even though it is the obvious solution! xx
May 09, 2013 @ 15:24:21
mmm true, there’s that too. xx
May 09, 2013 @ 15:37:26
psst you might of replied to the wrong comment 😉 x
May 09, 2013 @ 15:41:11
oops thanks!!
May 09, 2013 @ 15:44:28
I deleted it and replied to the correct thread!! 😉
May 09, 2013 @ 15:48:31
~Playfully points and smiles~ 😀 😉
May 09, 2013 @ 16:07:20
sighs and hides face in embarrassment!! 🙂 😉 😀
May 09, 2013 @ 15:40:33
OMG , sorry luckily these are open comments and I have betrayed no trust. But I am so sorry thank you for pointing that out serves me right for rushing!! A Big hug to you xxxxx
May 09, 2013 @ 15:49:06
All good lol 🙂 xxx
May 09, 2013 @ 16:07:36
😉
May 08, 2013 @ 15:31:30
I so want hug Little Mouse, Sweet Willow, but hugs won’t heal the hurt and pain and fear.. (and children still hear, we did… and I still grow quiet when I hear a loud, angry drunken voice…and shake) … so well written my friend… ever so well.. Hugs aplenty, always Penxx
May 08, 2013 @ 15:43:06
I know children hear Pen, it saddens me. I believe that Mental Abuse is worse than physical as abhorrent as that is! The scars in mental abuse are deeper and they never heal. It is also better hidden , it is turned round on the abused and they like those physically abused believe it is all their own fault! Hugs eternal to you. xx
May 08, 2013 @ 15:48:12
words are scars that seem to never heal….there is no physical mark to show how deep…..but it is very visible in eyes…for it scars the soul ..
Willow you have beautifully written on such a sad subject…full of quiet emotion runs through this
Take Care…
)0(
ladyblue
May 08, 2013 @ 15:53:08
Thank you , it is a sad subject close to my heart! I hate controllers and bullies I always hope that they will get their just desserts! Thank you for reading.xx
May 08, 2013 @ 16:02:18
This poem is so powerful in its emotions. I love how well it’s written but wish that these things didn’t happen to people.
May 08, 2013 @ 16:06:26
So do I , I really do but sadly they do. We cannot close our eyes and pretend they do not happen. I wish I could wipe all the bullies and control freaks off of this earth. But I can’t all I can do is bring it to peoples attentions.I am grateful that you read and replied. 😉 xx
May 08, 2013 @ 16:13:09
Unfortunately a lot of people who are abused make up excuses for the abuse. Until they want out, they’ll always go back. I’ve seen it happen to friends and family. It’s heartbreaking.
If you want to help more, I suggest finding a Woman’s Shelter. They usually need packs for families with things like toothbrushes, soap, and other things like that.
May 08, 2013 @ 16:25:03
Yes that is a good idea and books and toys for the children. Sadly those who are abused become dependent almost addicted to their abusers. It is hard to brake the cycle when you are afraid and you are told you are useless and stupid.
May 08, 2013 @ 23:41:29
This is terrible – I meant the theme of abuse within a marriage – though it is so well written and lays bare the raw emotions. As a father of two girls, I want to step on the tail of that fat rotten cat.
Peace, Eric
May 09, 2013 @ 12:07:52
Yes it is a horrible theme but it goes on and often no one knows…. it is hidden and even men fall foul of this marital abuse. It is so sad , so hard to escape from so hard to face up and ask for help.xxx
May 09, 2013 @ 01:04:59
I can only agree with everything written here. I hate bullying. It is so common, and it amazes me that people think they have the right to justify it, let alone do it. It is, as everyone has said, all too common. Your story captures that shaking inside feeling that happens when you are terrified….shattered emotions for an entire night, and wondering when it will happen again. Little mouse needs to leave that house, and find a better, nicer home where her little ones are safe.
May 09, 2013 @ 12:05:52
Yes you are right she should walk but she was trapped, unsure and frightened, she honestly believed that she was not able or capable of looking after herself let alone her little ones. Tell someone enough that they are stupid and useless and they will believe it!
May 09, 2013 @ 12:08:04
It sounds like it is someone close to you….I am so sorry, I mean, even as a man…just sorry.
May 09, 2013 @ 12:35:39
Luckily it is in the past and time has moved on. You need feel no shame because you are a man, as long as you are not a bully you have nothing to feel ashamed of . Just be a kind man. XX
May 09, 2013 @ 12:43:50
Thank you for that, but it is strange how what some men do still seems to implicate all….or at least that is how it feels to me. No I am not a bully, never have done that, never have been that….just a source of sorrow, bullying.
May 09, 2013 @ 12:46:54
Did you know that men can be bulled too that is just as sad!! just as mean I wish all bulling would stop! xxxxxx
May 09, 2013 @ 12:55:29
Yes, well I have been bullied in my time. I suppose I have seen my mother being bullied by my father as well, and while she was a very strong person, he could be frightening at times. I totally related to what you wrote. I think I feel shattered emotionally still from those childhood days, and I know one of my sisters is an emotional time bomb as a result…and she is transmitting some of the damage unfortunately. But the pain starts with that terrible shuddering inside…I know it well.
May 09, 2013 @ 15:22:49
I am so sorry to have awakened old fears, and I also feel for your sister. Ifind that when fears and old memories plague me I write them out, in a poem, a letter or a story! It always helps me.
May 09, 2013 @ 15:42:19
It does help, esp a letter, which you do not even have to send. You or your sister could write a letter to your father telling him how he made you feel then, how he makes you feel now , how the memory effects you just get your feelings out. No one need ever see it it if you do not want them too but the relief can be cathartic. xxx
May 09, 2013 @ 22:05:31
My sister did write him letters….now he thinks she has a problem with vindictiveness – and in fact she does – but it is down to him really. My blog really is partly about this. It does seem to help me, though goodness knows what would happen if all the intimate things I have put here got mixed up with those who know me, who care about me. It does save me loading it on them at least I guess. I am a bit confused I guess. I find that writing can lead to a downward spiral too – and that did happen to me in younger days almost like I wrote my own path towards death, and I did stop then. But this wordpress place has enough replies that at times people pull me up and question me….and that has been good.
May 09, 2013 @ 15:20:51
Please accept this award and song
The “Shine on Award”
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Shaun
May 09, 2013 @ 15:37:31
Thank you Shaun for this great honour, I shall acknowledge it ASAP. I cannot accept anymore awards for a while , until I can catch up with all the awards waiting for me to acknowledge!! hugsxxxxx
May 09, 2013 @ 15:46:46
I know the feeling Willz..
I hope you are keeping well.. x
Hugz))
Shaun x
May 09, 2013 @ 16:06:05
Thank you Shaun I am fine, I hope you are good too!
May 09, 2013 @ 16:53:52
I am fine, doing away 🙂
x
May 09, 2013 @ 20:09:19
😉
May 09, 2013 @ 21:08:34
This is aching, Willow, really aching, this one.
May 10, 2013 @ 07:19:33
This is painful and must be faced up to xx
May 11, 2013 @ 09:16:55
A dark tale indeed and one
that holds true for so many 😦
You have captured the essence
with this fine piece Willowdot 🙂
Be well by sweet friend 🙂
Andro xxxx
May 11, 2013 @ 14:43:22
A sad but often repeated whisper of a memor. Thyose who are bullied need to know they are not alone they just need to ask for help. xx
May 12, 2013 @ 08:34:42
Beautifully written willow, I came back to read it. Mental abuse does leave terrible scars.
May 12, 2013 @ 11:56:37
Thank you Maiya , yes it does scar and it is every bit as frightening at the time.