DAY 6 OF NaPoWriMo : Today’s prompt is to write a you to write a valediction poem. So I have written one to my last decade which has definitely not been my best!
Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Eleven years ago I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " not quite but with the help of a walking stick and as long as I do not stand or sit in one position for too long, I am still standing! Update I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust, I will of been married 50yrs plus this year . Pain and boredom are my enemies now, I have to find different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and
hopefully in to light ??
I need to update this a little here. I have worked very hard over the years since my accident, I go to the gym regularly, I have a Pilates class and a core class once a week . The guys at the gym and my Pilates teacher cajoled, teased, bullied and encouraged me to abandon my walking stick! :) My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and as strongly as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well.
I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits.
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33 thoughts on “A Valediction to my last Decade. NaPoWriMo”
Wow, you broke your back? You managed to conquer that and walk again? No wonder you battled with depression, but what a testament to your spirit my friend. Colour me very impressed! Great poem too! 🙂
Yes I did break my back, and I was in hospital for a month had two operations , months of physio and gym work and now four years later I have got rid of my walking stick and have been told if I keep exercising that I will avoid a wheelchair !! So it is the gym , pilates and a deep core class for me. I still get depressed when I think how my life suddenly but I am getting there!!I am glad you like the poem!
Well all I can say is I admire your spirit, and I wish you the very best with your recovery. That is a major challenge to meet and takes great strength and courage. 🙂
Thank you it has been a roller coaster but I am on the way!! I am getting there! Thank you.
awesome poem.. about your back having been broken, its good to see that you are recovered and continuously get stronger and better.. You are indeed a strong woman who creates powerful poetry. 🙂
Thanks Abitchica. It has not been a good decade but as it draws to a close I can look back and see that without the bad experiences I would never of started this blog or met you would I. The only way is up. 😉 xx
Thank you for your kind words, it has been a trek but thats life and life makes us what we are. I have hated the Las ten years of my life it hit on my 50th birthday and went down from there! Marriage hassles work, depression then boom the accident. But now with 60 already in view I am determined to make a difference. Life is not a rehearsal, we pass this way but once. One exceptionally good thing about this nasty decade is I found WordPress and met you. 😉 xxxx
so much to have to live through, Sweet Willow, and I join you in telling your Pain Filled Decade to depart and never darken your doorstep again. (a saying of My Mums, she was once smart cookie ) … Warmest of hugs to a survivor, and a person of huge spirit… Upwards and onwards lovely friend, the past is gone… the future beckons.. xPenx .
Yes onwards and upwards we will progress. We shall move forward towards better times.Thank you for your support and thanks for reminding me what my mum used to say by saying what your mum used to say!! Be Gone Dark Days and never darken my doorstep again!
Gooooooooooooooood 🙂 🙂 🙂 that was the whole point 🙂 to show you some LOVE – you show others love always always always – i think you are fantastic and have a beautiful open heart xo
Thank you so much Cat I have to go now but I just wanted to wish you goodnight and say how beautiful I thought your music is . God bless you . xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
You are what I call a brave lass my dear Willowdot
and you have done wonderfully well to get back on
your feet amidst the negative attitude of you know
who? 😦 Well done Willowdot you’re a star 🙂 🙂 xxx
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Wow, you broke your back? You managed to conquer that and walk again? No wonder you battled with depression, but what a testament to your spirit my friend. Colour me very impressed! Great poem too! 🙂
Yes I did break my back, and I was in hospital for a month had two operations , months of physio and gym work and now four years later I have got rid of my walking stick and have been told if I keep exercising that I will avoid a wheelchair !! So it is the gym , pilates and a deep core class for me. I still get depressed when I think how my life suddenly but I am getting there!!I am glad you like the poem!
Well all I can say is I admire your spirit, and I wish you the very best with your recovery. That is a major challenge to meet and takes great strength and courage. 🙂
Thank you it has been a roller coaster but I am on the way!! I am getting there! Thank you.
awesome poem.. about your back having been broken, its good to see that you are recovered and continuously get stronger and better.. You are indeed a strong woman who creates powerful poetry. 🙂
Thanks Abitchica. It has not been a good decade but as it draws to a close I can look back and see that without the bad experiences I would never of started this blog or met you would I. The only way is up. 😉 xx
Your an inspiration dear, hold your head high and be proud for all that you accomplished. 🙂
Thank you for your kind words, it has been a trek but thats life and life makes us what we are. I have hated the Las ten years of my life it hit on my 50th birthday and went down from there! Marriage hassles work, depression then boom the accident. But now with 60 already in view I am determined to make a difference. Life is not a rehearsal, we pass this way but once. One exceptionally good thing about this nasty decade is I found WordPress and met you. 😉 xxxx
awe shucks you are a doll, well here is to you and me and many more years on word press 😀
Yes Here is to us and many more years!
keep smiling…………..hugs from me
Thanks Tess I am!
http://catforsley.me/2013/04/07/willowy-sunday-cat-forsley/ big hugggs and thanks for everything this week 🙂 xxx for you xoxoxoxo
so much to have to live through, Sweet Willow, and I join you in telling your Pain Filled Decade to depart and never darken your doorstep again. (a saying of My Mums, she was once smart cookie ) … Warmest of hugs to a survivor, and a person of huge spirit… Upwards and onwards lovely friend, the past is gone… the future beckons.. xPenx .
Yes onwards and upwards we will progress. We shall move forward towards better times.Thank you for your support and thanks for reminding me what my mum used to say by saying what your mum used to say!! Be Gone Dark Days and never darken my doorstep again!
Awesome willpower!
Thank you . 🙂
You are a fighter, Willow, your spirit is magnificent! ❤ xxx
Thank you Martin. xx
❤ xxx
love love love miss 🙂 and have a beautiful week 🙂 glad to have made You smile 🙂 i 🙂 🙂 🙂 🙂
Thank you so much you have really made my day, 😀 😀 😀 😀 😀 😀 😀 😀 😀 😀 😀 😀
Gooooooooooooooood 🙂 🙂 🙂 that was the whole point 🙂 to show you some LOVE – you show others love always always always – i think you are fantastic and have a beautiful open heart xo
Thank you so much Cat I have to go now but I just wanted to wish you goodnight and say how beautiful I thought your music is . God bless you . xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
And You sweetheart xoxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxxoxoxoxoxoxo
impressive and shattering and yet, LIFE ! You’re a heroine !
Thank you , we can’t give in or give up. xxxx
You are what I call a brave lass my dear Willowdot
and you have done wonderfully well to get back on
your feet amidst the negative attitude of you know
who? 😦 Well done Willowdot you’re a star 🙂 🙂 xxx
Thank you Andro I could not of done it as well without friends like you!! xxxx 🙂 🙂
Love your fighting spirit…and your poetry! 🙂 What a great inspiration you are!
Thank you I was not sure I should of told everyone. But hey I feel like you all care so if you need my support you have it!!
Love, love, love this… sorry to be late reading it 😀
I am so glad that enjoyed this post, I know you have a lot on your plate right now so no worries!!