Why is it so deep, I cannot see the bottom, why so needy that it wants my soul to keep. Why so painful, so bloody red a hungry cavernous gaping hole it hates me it wants me dead.

Like a cancer it creeps over me, sucking the life out of me draining, leeching, knifing me never never to set me free.Pulling me dragging me over the glass kicking me spitting at me all this will never pass.

Blocking the sun,letting in the rain encouraging the lightening to strike me again and again!Making me bleed, pulling my teeth starving me, denying me water  or rest as I crave relief. Why, why can’t I escape why can’t I just hit the sky and fly.

There is nothing left of me, confusion has laid it’s claim, it is eating my body, soul and my brain. Here I go into that hole, that dark abyss spinning, spinning falling,falling arh! at long last death’s kiss. Why is it so deep, I cannot see the bottom, why so needy that it wants my soul to keep.Why Why must I weep.

4 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. lenwilliamscarver
    Dec 27, 2012 @ 16:13:36

    It breaks my heart to read this…I am sending hugs and prayers. (((xx)))


    • willowdot21
      Dec 27, 2012 @ 16:17:59

      Thank you I really do appreciate your words.I do have these feelings but I do cope . I can even feel happy and safe at times. I send you my good vibes too . be well and happy!!


  2. WordsFallFromMyEyes
    Dec 28, 2012 @ 01:17:51

    Oh Willow…

    I do so much relate to days like this. I hope you aren’t feeling this at the moment, are just letting loose ghosts of past days? I really hope you’re not unwell at the moment, hope your Christmas & new year are good for you.

    I’ve got to say, just visiting your VIBRANT PINK PAGE brightens my day! Take in the pink some, and here’s hoping for a smile 🙂



    • willowdot21
      Dec 28, 2012 @ 12:14:52

      I was just uttering some home truths life is never what it seems but mostly I almost believe my own PR! 😉 Hell life is too short up and at ’em I say! I am so glad you like the page I love it will have to change it soon as I want to ring the changes ! Be happy hugs!! xxxxx


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