A wiser older me.

When I was a younger me with my soul both blithe and free I closed my eyes so as not to see the things that would do harm to me. I would not believe that those who said they loved me could deceive. I refused to see that they would ever make me feel aggrieved.

I tried to bury my fearsย  but they had a way of resurfacing and demanding huge arrears! I then decided to drown my troubles but they had learnt to swim they floated up and waved to me and sent me trouble bubblesย  in the wind!

I thought if I ran and refused to ever look back I’d have no time see the loving that I lacked. I hid behind my hands not realizing that my troubles were making plans they simply grew and grew and when they were big enough they attacked me anew!

Bound with lacy lies around my wrists and thighs, blindfolded by abuse I have long out lived my use. I struggle to be free this wiser older me.

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28 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. abichica
    Dec 06, 2012 @ 22:47:23

    wooww!! truly torturous!! you are an amazing writer.. i believe we all felt like this when we were younger.. I myself am still struggling to let the wiser old me out

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    • willowdot21
      Dec 06, 2012 @ 22:50:41

      I am too, believe me, still struggling to get out there but every poem I write helps a little more. We will all arrive one day the Older wiser us! xxxx

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  2. Subhan Zein
    Dec 07, 2012 @ 01:39:32

    This is an amazing piece. Well done. Both the tone and contents resonate well to my youth. Thank you for sharing this, many blessings and much love to you. ๐Ÿ™‚

    Subhan Zein

    Reply

  3. zendictive
    Dec 07, 2012 @ 02:36:12

    like wine, awaiting the day I am perfect (*_*) love the write

    Reply

  4. eof737
    Dec 07, 2012 @ 19:54:40

    This is a powerful piece and sometimes I wonder if it is personal or creative license…? The wiser older healing one is where, I pray, we all ought to be.

    Reply

  5. Matrone Bell
    Dec 08, 2012 @ 13:19:15

    I love this piece it brought to mind my own struggles. Very relatable and well written. Fantastic ๐Ÿ˜€

    Reply

  6. pujakins
    Feb 10, 2013 @ 22:38:37

    How true is this post, and how poignant. Thanks for the sharing.

    Reply

  7. WordsFallFromMyEyes
    Feb 12, 2013 @ 09:40:19

    I don’t know how I missed this one, Willow.

    I like it – what it says, and how it sounds. You’re good with rhyme.

    Reply

    • willowdot21
      Feb 12, 2013 @ 09:43:34

      Thanks Noeleen I do try sometimes I get lucky and my words express my thoughts and feelings sometimes not just quite ! I admit this one touches my soul! xxx

      Reply

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