Long Life? Not For Me

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The ground lies frozen like your heart.

My loves lies bleeding your cruel words wrenched it apart.

A blood red stain spreads fed by my tears

Shed silently watering the growth of my fears.

Sharp new icicles tinged in red look so pretty

Belying their hard hearts, mean and bereft of pity.

My hand is frozen like your heart. My fingers

Are lifeless like the dark barren trees.

Your ears are deaf to all of my pleas.

My eyes are red ringed and watery blue,

Hiding the untold story of my love wasted on you.

Not one more minute can I bare.

This place is too crowded,

Why do they all stare?

My coffee is frozen like your heart; a skin forms so my spoon,

like pain rips it apart.

No more can I wait, I tremble and shake I look for answer,

which road should I take?

I leave the table and go out through the door.

Leaving droplets of my life’s blood in a trail on the floor.

The ground is frozen there has been fresh snow.

Blindly I stumble weaving to and throw. The pain is throbbing inside my head relentlessly repeating the words that you said.

I can’t go on, I can’t stand still, and the echo of your words is making me ill.

My eyes are frozen like the ground; my life’s blood is spreading all around.

I have no more room for pain in my heart. The knife that I hold will be my new start.

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My heart is frozen it beats no more. It’s suddenly quiet and I feel  still and sure.

No longer frightened no longer cold, at least I know I’ll never grow old.

The Lady with the trolley

Fear is nasty fear is unkind it sneaks up on you when you least expect . It is all the things you do not want around you, pain, loneliness deep regret.

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Today as I walked the streets of my town I saw a sight a vision, a flash of fear. There she was struggling along , proud she does not need your help or pity dear. She was young once like you she loved, danced, screamed in anger and in ecstasy. She learned, taught brought forth children and fought the world for them to be free.

Fear is nasty fear is unkind it sneaks up on you when you least expect . It is all the things you do not want around you, pain, loneliness  and deep regret.

What secrets does she hide. Once tall, slender and straight  does she regret the the ravages of time and tide.What knowledge dances in her eyes she must hate this body she trapped in while her mind still flies.

Fear is nasty fear is unkind it sneaks up on you when you least expect . It is all the things you do not want around you pain, loneliness deep regret.

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Or does she, as I hope, wear a real smile when she remembers time gone by.Her life, her loves what made her tick . What made her laugh what made her cry. Was she a hard task masker was quick in business was cunning was she slick.

Fear is nasty fear is unkind it sneaks up on you when you least expect . It is all the things you do not want around you pain, loneliness deep regret.

Why did she bring out fear in me today. Why was I loathe to stop her why was I afraid of what she had to say. Her knowledge is power it is strength she could of taught me  much if I had talked to her at length.  I was wrong, I made a mistake today I should of stopped her I should of listened, if only I had heard what she had to say.

Fear is nasty fear is unkind it sneaks up on you when you least expect . It is all the things you do not want around you pain, loneliness deep regret.