You will not lose that curvature and your figure will never be the same and I am sorry to say, dear, you need to get used to that pain.
Looking out the window I heard the words they said but I was miles away by then dancing in my head .
When I get tired-out walking dragging through rain or snow their words creep back to bug me but I’ll work hard and all of them I’ll show.
When I feel pushed and pressured and all I can think of is the words that they said. I close my eyes and bugger them I go dancing in my head!
When looking in the mirror is too much to bare and my clothes don’t look as they should so I feel none of them can I wear. I close my eyes and pick up the music thread and bugger them I go dancing in my head!
When pain is over baring and I can’t get out of bed I close my eyes and bugger them I go dancing in my head. I am still me I know it even though I do not look the same when I am feeling at my worst I play my saving game. I am sorry if you think me rude and blanch at things I’ve said but when it all becomes too much I go dancing in my head.
I always loved to dance and get angry when I look back for not dancing more. Okay I would of had to have done so on my own my other half would not of joined me but now it is too late my dancing days have flown. So when I feel tired or in pain or all I can think of is the words the doctors said I close my eyes and kick out, bugger them I am dancing in my head!
Female, wife, full time mother and Grandmother. I am not as happy go lucky as I used to be but I am still bubbling along on simmer! I have three handsome sons all grown and flown.The youngest married with a beautiful wife and two sons of his own. Eleven years ago I was working, running a home, driving and socializing then bang in a split second all that was gone. I had an accident at home. I broke my back, not for the first time, I had broken it 10 years previously as well. Unfortunately this time I had broken it really badly and it was truly messed up so I had to have two operations. I was told before each operation that the outcome could mean I spend the rest of my life in a wheelchair. Still as some guy once wrote "I am still standing " yes "better than I ever was " not quite but with the help of a walking stick and as long as I do not stand or sit in one position for too long, I am still standing! Update I no longer use the walking stick . I had lots of friends before the accident but when things like this happen, you loose most of them. Their lives move on and mine stood still and so they left me behind ...I know that is just the way life is but it hurt and always will. Then I looked around and saw those who were still there for me, these friends are the roses in my garden they need to be tended well. They are the diamonds in the dust, I will of been married 50yrs plus this year . Pain and boredom are my enemies now, I have to find different ways to approach life, use my pain befriend it almost...yer right , well that is what they tell me at the pain clinic ROFLMAO ...... if only I could! I have found an outlet for my fears, frustrations and night terrors . I have started writing poetry if that name can be applied to my writing. I hope I do not come over as a moaning winger. I hope I am past all that. I also hope that you might see how the poetry is moving from very dark through the grey and
hopefully in to light ??
I need to update this a little here. I have worked very hard over the years since my accident, I go to the gym regularly, I have a Pilates class and a core class once a week . The guys at the gym and my Pilates teacher cajoled, teased, bullied and encouraged me to abandon my walking stick! :) My back is no longer straight it is C shaped because of the injury and I have lost two and a half inches in height but my Pilates and Core teachers have helped me to stand up as straight and as strongly as possible. Pain and depression are still hanging on my arm but I have weapons to use against them and if I say so myself I cope well.
I have made lots of new friends, real diamonds. I am also very grateful for all the support and help I have encountered here on Wordpress. Hugs and welcome to everyone who visits.
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23 thoughts on “Dancing in my head.”
Dancing is one of the things that keeps me sane.
me too but now it has to be in my head!
Well, I admire you for having that kind of spirit. I am sure there are also computer games you can dance with, as I’ve played one on figure ice-skating: it was great fun.
Thank you that is a good idea.
Don’t let the little buggers get you down! 🙂
or the big ones!! 😉 xx
Willow, I can relate to this struggle – you’ve expressed it so well. (I too am limited to dancing in my head these days.) We shall dance in our hearts, souls and minds forever! Sending a dancing hug to you. 🙂
Thank you, you sent me a hug just when I needed one the most xxx
xxx back to you, Willow 🙂
Well DAMN GOOD ON YOU, and may you forever dance in your head. Good on you for staying above things, but sincere sorry you can’t dance any more. I wish you light, and love 🙂
Dear Noeleen thank you so much for your kind words and wishes and I happily accept your offer of light and love! and I shall be round for another cuppa and a catch up soon. 😉 xx
Dancing in your head must be magical and mystical many days. Land of make believe is such a fun place to stay 😉
The land of make believe is most definitely a better place to be , if only I could stay there. It is a sad fact that I can’t. xx
where there is will there is always a way to
fulfill our dreams ….
even if it is dancing within our minds…
this was really beautiful Willow…
I too dance there alot these days..
Well that is so true Ladybluerose and I shall look out for you next time I am there and we can boogie on down together…( boogie on down, showing my age a tad!! 😉 )
Hey, in our heads is where we were actually dancing “back in the day” when we just THOUGHT we were pain free! You twirl on the ceiling for all of us, okay?
Yes I shall twirl if you would join me!
I’m with you, QOS.
Shake it !
Well I did wonder where you had got to! I am always happier when I have you in my sights!!
With you and you and you I shall escape what can never be said —by dancing in my head
Yes it is an escape route for all of us!!