The conversation

I like you car, is it new? I have only had it a day or is it two. I love the colour is it blue? Well they call it Azure. Do you know the road well ? Yes I have been down it a thousand times for sure, it is the road that leads right to my door.

they call in Azure blue

Did you get all your presents the shops are such a crush? I did, I did I even got my sister that amazing eye make up brush. And the festive food is that all in hand? Yes and a good thing too as I am cooking this year as planned .

Look who are all those people talking to the police? OMG That is my family they’ve  all come out even brought my baby niece. They may of heard the noise of the crash my husband does look pale why is he acting so rash.

I think I had better talk to him before he starts to cry!  No, hang on my friend you have to come with me……….. WHY?  You have crashed the car my love and you are just about to die. Surely you are joking I am standing here with you, sorry it has been good to chat but I have so much to do.

Tell me what is the last thing you remember before our chat? Well I was concentrating very hard because of all the snow then I had to swerve to miss the cat. It all went black  and then, I just don’t know.

OH! my what a commotion they are all in tears and right outside the garden gate the neighbours have not had so much to look at for years. Help I feel so cold and so very weak , is that me inside the car, I just look asleep.  Come now my friend I am with you now at your end.I shall guide you now that your earthly life is at an end.

Will they all recover will they manage without me . Don’t worry they will all cope, you can even watch and see.Now just relax and lean your head on me, I have seen you’ve always been kind and you always talk with me.  I really do not want to leave them are you really sure.  I am my dear friend now come with me just through this open door.

The Adict

You love them so and this they know, but how to respect that is something they don’t know. There will always be the need for extra money and the excuse is always good somehow their requests are coated with honey.

They will sell their clothes and their belongings and if they can they will sell yours. They have no conscience, until maybe after the act when it is too late  and they have time to think and pause.

Always they need , always they want . You will never sate their thirst. The  need for the needle, the bottle or the gamble is ever present and that will always come first.

Hide your purse, hide the cash, hide the car keys or you will loose them. Then when that happens  they will cover up and lie and swear on your life. After the lies comes remorse.

The food can go from the cupboards, presents and toys too, furniture, clothes nothing is sacred they have no choice the demon in them drives them to.

They loose care and love for family and friends.  They will take from anyone, anything  they will break your heart and it never ends.

Is there hope, well there is some, but so much hard work must be done. Recovery is hard so very hard, even when they are counting the days, weeks or years  you never can relax you are never out of the woods the thought of the demons’ return is ever here, an ever present fear..

You love them so you help, you sort them out time and time again. They will bleed your bank and bleed your heart they cause you so much pain. With any request for money the fear is always there do they need it for what they say or are they off the rails again….. OH! if only I did not care.