Where is my make up bag , I need it right now . I will not go out without it. I mean that and how!
I need my eye liner and my eye shadow too, I have nearly every colour from pigeon grey to duck egg blue . Some are matt and some are a shimmery hue, it is all very strange the effect that they have on me, it’s true.
When things are bad and not looking so good I stand at the mirror and plaster it on. I’d disappear if I could. Golds and beige browns are for the calmer days with pink or peach lips yes they are okay they just mean I’m hip.
When at my darkest the liner gets thicker the shades ramp up gear my lashes get stretched to infinity. Blusher and crimson are needed here. Foundation and nail gloss don’t forget those fingers and toes they are just as much a sign as my lips or my nose.
It is so long since I learnt how to hide behind the colours and shades in my bag it all goes back to when the days began to lag. I can no longer recall the time when I needed no make up at all. So I need my brushes my pads, colours and shades they are what I have been made. Over the years by stress and by fear they cover the cracks and the chips as they appear.
Defiance is what they represent they are the mask that protects the painfully tender soul it is like a drug now I need them to make me feel whole.
My foundation?
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